In honor of Valentine's Day I chose this Monday to post Max, a friend with whom I'd developed a two-month flirtation that culminated in a hook up. It was great, until he fell off the face of the planet.
This took me back to my childhood. I clung to any media representation of other gay and lesbian people when I was coming to terms with my own sexuality. The one song that soothed my churning soul was "Can't Take My Eyes Off of You" by Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons.
Once I quit going out with guys I knew I was never going to connect with, I realized that what I want is intimacy and comfort. I want appreciation. I want a fun challenge. That's where The Big Spoon Search came in.
The days are gone where a few people make the decision on what airs on a handful of television stations. The Internet has equalized media production. Today you can make it happen with passion of purpose, networks, and a touch of magic. S