The end of the year brings family gatherings, parties, and hopefully some reflection. Like many people at the end of the year, I write a list of New Year's Resolutions. This is something I look forward to every year and always with great enthusiasm. Often, this involves a lot of cutting and pasting from the previous year: Talk on the phone instead of text, read more, workout more, learn to cook, lose five pounds ... the usual.
Worry is a tide that perpetually pulls me, dragging me from the present. Before I know it, I'm completely distracted, oblivious to everything around me, consumed with anxiety and fear. I'm not living in the present -- with all its beauty and wonder -- but somewhere in my head, far from anything resembling enjoyment.