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An Execution and What Remains

Posted: 11/10/09 07:51 AM ET

At nine o'clock tonight, in the state where I've lived and played and loved for 18 years, a man will be executed. His name has always been inconsequential here. He is the Sniper. For a month in my daughter's tenth year, he terrorized us. It's hard to believe it all happened in the month of October 2002 because in memory it seems more like several months.

You had to live in the DC area that horrible month to know the impact the Sniper (and his young accomplice) had on us. Fear was a constant companion. We were told he was in a white box truck and suddenly they were everywhere. Pumping gas felt like Russian roulette. People crouched down by their cars or lay across the backseat while the gas was going into the tank. Exiting your car to go into a grocery store was like entering a combat zone, and many people ran rather than walked.

The impact on our children was enormous. They were just recovering from a plane flying into the Pentagon -- just miles from our neighborhood. Their psyches were already scarred by danger looming large and unexpected. Suddenly little ones knew the word "sniper." There was talk of canceling Halloween that year. My daughter's school bus pulled up as close to the entrance of her school as was possible and the children were told to run the short distance into the building. There was no outdoor recess. Softball games were canceled. The leaves turned red and gold but no one raked them.

I was on a business trip to Arizona when I got a frantic call from my babysitter that the sniper had shot and killed a woman at a Home Depot one mile from our home. My daughter asked me if it hurt to be shot. She asked how fast bullets go. She asked if the sniper would kill a child.

Tonight the Sniper will be strapped to a gurney and put to sleep. A man who valued human life so little will lose his own. It doesn't matter really, not to me anyway. He held us hostage in 2002 and he holds us still. My daughter had nightmares for years, and still is uneasy when she hears fireworks. October has never been the same since, and parents of trick or treaters still seem furtive and overly careful. He stole from our children their security and safety. He created a generation of children who know what it's like to expect danger at every turn and to see the constant worry on the face of their parents.

Tonight the Sniper will die, but he won't take with him the fear and the pain and the loss of innocence he leaves behind.

 

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onwisconsin
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02:59 PM on 11/12/2009
Though I agree that what this man did was heinous, we do not further our morality as a nation by putting him to death.

We choose to betray the higher moral cause by advocating state sanctioned murder.

It may make some of you feel better. It may have given you closure. You may excuse it by using euphamisms like "putting him to sleep". Make no mistake about this: what the State has done is to commit Murder. It is barbaric and serves no purpose. Every serious peer-reviewed study published shows that capital punishment deters no one from committing these crimes. Putting a criminal through a capital trial and seeing that through the appeal process to execution is much more costly than life imprisonment without the possibility of parole. It makes no moral, fiscal, nor legal sense.

But it makes you feel better. Is that what justice should be about?
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03:56 AM on 11/11/2009
I would like to take this opportunity to reflect on the death penalty.
Due to modern forensic techniques, including DNA analysis, we have come to realise that many innocent people have been sentenced to prison, and even to death. The death penalty is a very frightening tool, that should be used infrequently.
Having said that, given a situation where a person has intentionally chosen to be a mass murderer, and where there is no reasonable doubt that the right person has been found guilty, I am not upset about the punishment meted out to this man. I prefer to think of him as just one more victim of the D.C. Sniper.
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11:57 PM on 11/10/2009
Imagine what those Iraqis are living through for the past 5 years. Imagine the fear of being blown to bits as you walk in the street.
10:16 PM on 11/10/2009
what a beautiful piece. so well written. your daughter sounds so fragile and sweet
08:26 PM on 11/10/2009
All of our woe-was-us during that month does remind me, though, that the fear of random gun violence is a discreet memory, an historical event, for those of who live in good neighborhoods. A little perspective comes from the fact that bullets fly daily in poor city neighborhoods. Kids, mostly African-Americans, die all the time just sitting in the living room or walking down the street. It's not targeted terror like the sniper's, but it's atmospheric and constant and lifelong. And it's rarely news.
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09:42 PM on 11/10/2009
I agree. No child should live in fear, whether for a month or for the span of a childhood. And look at the argument the sniper's defense team put forward -- that he had an abusive, horrible childhood. Violence begets violence. There are too many guns, too much hatred, and a death penalty which leads me to wonder why Americans don't rise up and say, "This is not the kind of country we want to live in."
11:16 AM on 11/11/2009
This was a powerful article, Tamar, and your comment here is spot on. Killing this man will not reduce the violence and hatred that already exists, it will increase it. We can't keep escalating the level of violence. We need to stop looking at the symptoms (troubled person easily acquires best tool to kill and uses it to it's fullest effect) and start focusing on prevention. We need to do something about poverty and inner-city violence instead of turning our heads. Contrary to what Reagan and Bush senior espoused, most homeless people don't want or choose to be homeless. Our civility is crumbling and we just keep turning a blind eye to it while worshipping at the altar of the almighty dollar.
04:48 PM on 11/10/2009
I look at wanting to kill the DC Sniper (and I live in DC too, Tamar) not morally, not ethically, but pragmatically. That is, should this S.O.B. escape from prison, he would most assuredly go on another shooting rampage, and it's too dangerous to take that chance. For that reason and that reason alone, I agree that we should kill Muhammad at 9 tonight.
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03:41 PM on 11/10/2009
Your portrait of how millions of people were terrorized by the snipers was moving and it was good to be reminded of that.

But ... we as a nation diminish ourselves when we take a criminal's life and call it justice or closure. It's revenge, pure and simple, and it does us no good.

Nor is it a deterrent. I don't think it's a coincidence that in nations that long ago abandoned capital punishment, murder rates are much lower than in the United States. The same is true when you compare our own states. Both Texas and Florida, which execute more felons than any other states, have higher murder rates than every one of the 14 states with no death penalty statute.

And I agree with Margot that there is much to be learned by keeping killers alive and incarcerated. Imagine what we might discover if Timothy McVeigh and other killers were alive and being interviewed and psychoanalyzed on an ongoing basis. New developments in brain scans – such as SPECT -- might help us understand if there was a neurobiological marker that contributed to their actions. Psychologists, psychiatrists, sociologists and criminologists could learn a lot by studying them from different angles. Executing them ends all these possibilities.

So, capital punishment is bad for our collective soul and our ethos. It's not a deterrent and appears to be counterproductive. And it denies us the possibility of obtaining information that might help us prevent future heinous acts.
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07:19 AM on 11/11/2009
i live thousands of miles away from DC , but this brought closure for me and dont feel the slightest bit "diminished' Sorry, i think you will find yourself on the "wrong side " of this one!
11:02 AM on 11/10/2009
I am sorry that you and your child had to experience such terror. That's what he was -- a terrorist. Having said that, no one deserves to die. The death penalty is criminal. I do not excuse what he did, but I do not excuse the government for killing another human being. Murder is murder and that makes the govt no better than him.
11:27 AM on 11/10/2009
This is a very powerful commentary on what it is like to live with daily terror. Thank you for sharing it. It makes me think about what life must be like for people in war zones. I wonder what it is that makes America so violent? Canada has more guns but fewer murders. In the past week, men in two cities have gone on killing sprees and just this morning a man took a school prinicipal hostage. Maybe by studying killers we will learn more about what drives them. That is one reason to keep them alive rather than giving the death penalty.
05:23 AM on 11/11/2009
That's because in Canada, they have vast areas of wilderness where guns are often a survival mechanism against potential beast, and for hunting, so it works its way into the culture and becomes very common for people to have hunting riles in the house. They have more guns but they're all in cases, if not in use during hunting season. I don't know too much about Canada's urban centers, other than that where I have been is beautiful, but I couldn't say about inner city scourge in Canada. I reckon that has something to do with the low rates of homicide by fire - they're usually firing at running creatures in the forest, or wherever it is they hunt.
09:44 AM on 11/10/2009
I don't know if I could have lived with that kind of fear, but I still have a hard time living with a government who commits revenge killings. Even kids know two wrongs don't make a right. The death penalty is wrong for anyone.
09:14 AM on 11/10/2009
Great article, I was in 2nd grade at an elementary school in Arlington during the attacks and this does a great job at summing up the mood of the city during those few weeks.
06:44 PM on 11/10/2009
Your thoughts and memory resonated with me on that period of fear in Arlington, VA. My daughter was in grade school, too young to lose her innocence and yet she lived through that period to be careful, not to trust, and be afraid. I remember running in to pick her up from school and worried someone out there would cause harm to our precious ones. Her generation continues to be reminded the world is not safe with the Virginia Tech mass killing and now Ft. Hood.