High School "Best Couple"

I grew up as a girl that always dressed like a boy as they say "tom boy." When I was growing up I always felt different from my other friends. Then throughout the years I noticed that not only did I dress differently, but I was attracted to my same gender. As the time came for me to enter high school I was still insecure about myself opening up to people. I always felt gay people were so afraid to show who they really are. I never thought I would have been one of those people

I just graduated high school in June. This means it is time to head into the "adult life." For the past 3 years in Mott Haven Village Preparatory High School I felt comfortable, not only because I am a female that likes the same gender (lesbian) but my girlfriend Deoine and I were chosen as the "Best Couple" for our senior class. Now, for the fall I am planning on going to school at Bronx Community College. I am not scared to move on with my life alone but going into college as a girl that dresses like a boy and is a lesbian it is very frightening. This would mean starting all over again with wondering if people feel comfortable around me, and not wanting them to label me as the dyke in the school or think I am some type of monster.

I am very confident about who I am. I am open about myself around my peers and brothers, not really my whole family, like my grandmother. I am unsure about telling her and showing her who I really am. She is like a second mother to me because she helps raise me and my brothers. My grandmother is one of those religious grandmothers and has a bad feeling about gay people; I do not know how she is going to take it when I tell her. However, winning best couple has made me want to tell her someday because this is history that her granddaughter has made and I want her to be able to support me for this one day.