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Waymon Hudson

Posted: August 13, 2010 03:50 PM

The Everyday "Don't Ask, Don't Tell"

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People often ask, "How can I make a difference?"

Too often we feel like we are just one small person in a society that seems to be committed to denying LGBT citizens their full rights and equality. It often seems easier to sit back, live your life, and not get involved. It is easy to feel like you have no role to play in the LGBT rights movement or to feel like your life isn't making an impact. But you are wrong. You can make a huge impact on society and the fight for equality by simply living your life, openly and honestly. You can do this by making sure you aren't living what I have come to think of as the everyday "don't ask, don't tell" policy.

So what is this "everyday" policy, you may ask? It's how so many of us live our lives. We go quietly about our business, many times facing struggles and roadblocks because of who we are as LGBT people. We do this everyday and never tell anyone about it. We don't let our friends or families who are straight know about the discrimination or legal barriers we face just for being who we are. They don't ask and we don't tell.

There can be many reasons for this mindset. Some of us had hard experiences with family and friends when we came out. They may have had a hard time understanding who we are and accepting us. They might have feared for the "hard life" we would lead as LGBT's or for the battles we would face. They worry about our safety in a world where senseless hate-crimes happen too often. Sometimes, they might just feel like we are someone different than the person they loved all their lives or like they don't know us. They don't understand the struggle we go through to be honest not only with them, but ourselves as well. They don't ask and we don't tell.

We work hard with our families and love ones, sometimes in a process that can take months or even years. We try and let them know we are the same person as always, that we are strong and can take care of whatever comes our way. We tell them not to worry about us and work to convince them that nothing has changed. In fact, we try so hard to not worry them or to be accepted by them that we leave out the hardships we face. We sanitize our life to gain acceptance and they never even realize it. They don't ask and we don't tell.

Eventually, hopefully, they begin to get past the initial shock of our coming out, seeing that we are the same son/daughter/sister/brother/friend as we were before. Life goes back to a semblance of normalcy. Acceptance comes slowly and we do everything in our power to keep it growing. We do this by not telling our loved ones about the serious issues that we face. We don't tell them about the time someone threw a bottle at our head from a car when we were just walking down the street. We don't tell them that we hear people mutter "queer" under their breath at us all the time. We don't tell them that there are times we have to stop ourselves from touching our partner's hand or shoulder because it might not be a safe place to do so. They don't think to ask and we don't tell.

We don't tell them that if our partner gets sick, we might not be able to see him or her in the hospital depending on where we are because we aren't a legally recognized "family." They don't know that we can't take their child and care for them if they die because we can't legally adopt in some states. They don't know that we travel with a stack of legal documents in case something should happen to our partners or to us and, sometimes, those documents still aren't enough to guarantee we can take care of each other. They don't know that if something does happen to one of us, we might not have the right to make those final decisions and carry out each other's wishes. They don't know to ask and we don't tell.

We try so hard to protect our loved ones from the realities of being LGBT in America. We do this out of love for them, out of the need to be loved by them. Yet are we really doing what's right? How will our families know to ask how their support can make our lives better if we don't tell them? They won't ask how their votes and support for a candidate or policies can improve our chances to be safe and gain equality if we don't tell them. We need to start letting the people in our lives know how serious these issues are for us, how they affect our life everyday. They need to hear, from our lips, how hard life can be for LGBT people and how they can help. We need to let them know it's okay to ask us how they can help. We need to accept their love and support. We need to ask for it. We have to stop being "strong" for those who would be there for us if we would just ask. They won't ask if we won't tell.

I know I personally struggle with this. I want those in my life to understand the challenges I face and to help, but I don't want to "burden" them. I want to make it easier for them to accept and love me. It's hard to tell them the things that happen to me as a gay man, the hardships I face just trying to live my life with my partner, on a daily basis. I want to protect them and remain silent. I want to protect myself and the relationships I have worked so hard to mend. I fear that by telling them what it is like to be a gay man in America, I will be confirming their comments about the "hard life" that lies ahead of me. I am afraid they will blame me, or worse, not care about the discrimination I face. I don't want to lose what I have worked so hard to regain. Yet, I know I can't live like that anymore. I know I need to love them enough to trust them with all the details of my life, good and bad. They will never ask if I don't tell.

By telling those that love us that we need them, by including them in our successes and our struggles, we can start to change how society views the LGBT community. Start telling those around you about your life. Tell them what you are going through and dealing with. Soon they will be asking what they can do to help. You can start to change society, one person at a time. You can have a huge impact on LGBT rights just by being honest with those around you. By ending this "don't ask, don't tell" policy in our own personal lives, we can truly make a change that will improve the world.

They will ask if we will only tell.

 

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People often ask, "How can I make a difference?" Too often we feel like we are just one small person in a society that seems to be committed to denying LGBT citizens their full rights and equality.
People often ask, "How can I make a difference?" Too often we feel like we are just one small person in a society that seems to be committed to denying LGBT citizens their full rights and equality.
 
 
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TheKurgan
Prof Musician,Socialist,Bridge Life Master
10:15 AM on 08/15/2010
First off, let me say I am not anti-gay. I tolerate and expect to be tolerated. I just want to raise an interesting point. Why even pigeonhole yourselves as LGBT? We're all people. If homosexuality is a genetic state (like blue eyes or black hair), then you're just like everyone else. One does not see the "Blue Eyed People Association" or the "Black Hair Club." In fact, the last time a group of people asserted themselves as Blue Eyed/Blonde Haired, we all know what happened.

Now, stop the pitchforks from skewering me. I'm not comparing anyone to the Third Reich. What I'm saying is, why is it necessary to have a "label" on a group of people who profess that their sexual orientation is a genetic thing?

To this end, if we accept that homosexuality is genetic (I'm not going into that argument here, just assuming this as a fact for purposes of illustration), then we only need to change two words in one existing law, and this all goes away. The four "pillars of the Civil Rights Act of 1964" were:

Race, Religion, Gender, or Ethnicity

All you'd need to do would be to insert the words Sexual Orientation. Everything would fall into place after that. You'd be "just like everyone else." And labels would go away.
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liberaldemdave
08:37 PM on 08/15/2010
in a perfect world, you would be spot on...unfortunately, we live in anything BUT perfection. we can't even get DADT repealed, much less ENDA or the repeal of DOMA. do you really think that those who have absolutely NO VESTED INTEREST other than homophobia and bigotry would ever go for amending the civil rights act of 1964 to include orientation? there are even a very large (and disappointing) number in the ethnic minority community that refuse to release their iron-clad grip on the term "civil rights".
01:26 PM on 08/16/2010
There are also no laws that prevent two people with the same eye or hair color from marrying or adopting children. We do believe we are "just like every one else", but as long as there are people who fight against us, we need to have something to rally around and show our numbers.
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JohnInDallas
John R. Selig - Writer, Photographer & Podcaster
09:20 PM on 08/14/2010
Great commentary Waymon
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jobrien1950
fired up
05:36 PM on 08/14/2010
I did ask, and I was told. My family member lives her life as she should . . . not in the shadows. Yes, she has suffered some indignities, but only because there are so many ignorant people in the world. I will stand by her, support her, love her, and fight for her rights.
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Bob Kellerman
Let's have more sanity toward each other
05:21 PM on 08/14/2010
THIS IS THE LAST PART OF A POST I MADE THE OTHER NIGHT re Prop 8: I took my own advice, and went to the MOOHEAD Temple in West LA last evening -- and spoke up to several groups of neatly scrubbed cattle, wearing name tags
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I want to say to everyone :It was never directly about US, it was about keeping the fences of "morality" mended, so their flocks would not start straying into all kinds of "sin"
-- we were just the folks making the biggest fuss about "changing morals", so it was necessary to go after us with those big, nasty guns.
-- those Mormon elders, Knights of Columbus guys, hicks from the Church of Jesus of the Ozarks mostly do not hate us, they hate the freedom we represent.
THUS, ALTHOUGH IT FEELS VERY PERSONAL, IN A WAY IT IS NOT
So -- let's lose the feelings of hurt, and move on with our lives

AND -- I see nothing wrong with airing our greivances against the folks who paid for the disgusting TV commercials, and so on.

SPEAK UP at work, etc, if it is safe for you to do so
STOP BY your local Mormon joint, or Catholic, or Pentacockstal, or whatever, and say

"I AM A HUMAN BEING, I AM SAD THAT YOU TRIED TO HARM ME, I WILL NOT ALLOW IT"
(but keep your car keys in your hand)
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TeraWatt60
Cogito Ergo Sum
04:41 PM on 08/14/2010
As an "elder statesman" in the gay community (50 yo today) I can tell you there has been progress but often times the only way to make true headway is to be persistent and at times confrontational.

This is especially true when it comes to family get-togethers like holiday dinners, reunions and other events. These are usually occasions where we DADT the most...even if that means being lonely in the crowd or the occasion is not as happy as it could be.Especially if you are partnered.

We often think we are being "polite" by not "flaunting" our partner at these types of gatherings or insisting on equal treatment for our spouses or boyfriend/girlfriends. The inconsiderate (out of homophobia or just ignorance) that prevents recognition of your multiyear relationship while the two week hookup of a straight sibling is treated with far more consideration.

This holiday season or whenever the occasion arises, assert your rights and demand that the Conservative uncle or 'phobic cousin' should no longer be allowed to call the shots. It may lead to a confrontation but if someone is so much of a homophobe that they can't handle that two men or two women love each other and their partner IS the person you love and they need to deal with that fact not be made to feel comfortable with their big.otry
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cmaciain
05:28 PM on 08/14/2010
Happy birthday!
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TeraWatt60
Cogito Ergo Sum
09:46 PM on 08/14/2010
thanks!!
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gsj612
05:40 PM on 08/14/2010
Happy Birthday!
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TeraWatt60
Cogito Ergo Sum
09:46 PM on 08/14/2010
thank you
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DMSmith
04:30 PM on 08/14/2010
I had a boss once who called me into his office and asked politely for me to not 'flaunt' my sexual preference.
When I left his office, I took with me - in front of him - 8 photos from his office of his wife and family. Telling him that I thought he had a good idea and therefore would help HIM do the same.
He threatened to fire me. I suggested he speak to the company lawyer first.
I never heard about it again. And I mailed the photos to his home, addressed to his wife.
03:54 PM on 08/14/2010
Wonderful post. However, don't forget us battle scared Gays who have lived open, honest lives, telling it all the way to the court house, a quick mention is important.
03:53 PM on 08/14/2010
I've been out, at least as far as not lying if anyone asked, for almost 40 years now, but what showed me that this really wasn't enough happened in May 2008. I was teaching a course (college-level) in twentieth-century American history that met at 11:15, and the California Supreme Court announced that gay men and lesbians could indeed marry about an hour before the course met (I was following this avidly on the net). I'm not sure where we were that day (it was after 1968, I'm sure), but I was so giddy I had to explain why at the beginning of the class period, and I included the fact that since I had a partner of almost 37 years, I would be among the first people to take advantage of this. The reaction was applause -- not sure why I expected anything else in southern California, and one of my students came out to me afterward, saying she was amazed any of her issues were being discussed in this class.

So now, next June, 40 years together, 3 years legally, and anyone who knows us knows that. It's as it should be.
01:44 PM on 08/14/2010
Every injustice is not tied to sexual identity and everyone, absolutely everyone, faces
daily injustice. Choosing not to react like a victim is the only power anyone really has.
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DMSmith
04:24 PM on 08/14/2010
Well, that one went right over your head, didn't it?
12:39 AM on 08/15/2010
DM,

Over my head?
Very few things are over my head.
11:23 AM on 08/14/2010
If everyone is "normal", then why should they ask? As you said, many of us, or perhaps all of us, suffer from some form of bigotry. We should all ask? We should all tell?
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DMSmith
04:24 PM on 08/14/2010
Right
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M A Ross
Fear is the main source of superstition & cruelty.
11:07 AM on 08/14/2010
Excellent post Waymon!
I've always said that it's never a shame to ask for help.
Homosexuals NEED the help of heterosexuals:

To teach their children tolerance & acceptance.
(Beside the obvious hair, eyes, skin there are other differences in people.)

To help other heterosexuals understand the plights of homosexuals.
(Like dispelling the hurtful myths & stereotypes about queer peoples when they hear them.)

To vote with us against the tyranny and oppressions of homosexuals.
(Because it may affect someone they know, love, cherish or respect.)
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SouthJerseySteve
Progressive isn't a dirty word.
10:19 AM on 08/14/2010
When professionally actors, politicians, athletes, religious leaders, business leaders, etc. are out and proud, the the rest of society will take notice and our rights will improve. When people like Rush and Dr. Laura can say things like they do on the radio and not get fired, that pushes more "don't ask and we won't tell". When yahoos like a pro football player (Philly Eagles) who tweets that True Blood is too gay for his tastes, and fans applaud him, that too pushes more regular folks into the don't ask me and I won't tell you mentality too. When our own POTUS applauds the Prop 8 decision but still is against repealing DOMA, more folks stop asking and more stop telling.
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exxman
I Am The 99%
02:04 PM on 08/14/2010
When did Obama say he was against repeal of DOMA. I have only heard him say he is pro repeal. He personally believes marriage should be between a man and a woman but he is for repeal of DOMA.
03:40 PM on 08/14/2010
and you see no inconsistency in this?
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cmaciain
05:18 PM on 08/14/2010
In 1996, Obama was for Same sex marriage. In 2004, he flip flopped. He was for repeal of DOMA but has now flopped again, vigorously defending it in courts. He has fought GLBT equality every step of the way since he became President.
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bellestarrr#1
she done him wrong
09:49 AM on 08/14/2010
I guess I never experienced the dont ask dont tell in social life...I came out when it was really tough to come out back in the 1960's when the word was QUEER...not gay!...always lived my life out in the open with a partner...found that if you didnt flaunt urself or be TOO SILLY...that folks accepted you and you could be accepted(perhaps laughed at behind ur back or the butt of jokes at a straight party) but thats people like it or not. I never worried about what anyone thought..because ultimately I am in control of my own life and my own success. Things are better now and could actually be a lot better...but gays today.....get real....people like me forged the way for you by not letting anyone make me for feeling small about being gay almost 50 YEARS ago..yes 50 honey!!!!
10:09 AM on 08/14/2010
Thank you for what you've done. You sound great, living out loud and proud.
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veritas aequitas
08:30 AM on 08/14/2010
Why is there a need to talk about your sexuality? It seems like a private matter. I can work with people and their choice in partners is a non-issue. Why do gays define who they are by who they sleep with?
09:29 AM on 08/14/2010
Okay, will you promise never to mention your husband or wife in public ever again? Will you promise never to touch them or in any way make it known that you are sexually active with them? Oh, good! Thank you! Now we are equal.
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veritas aequitas
09:39 AM on 08/14/2010
"I am heterosexual! Everyone look at me!! I sleep with women! I want everyone to know. Look at me NOW. I want to tell you that I am HETEROSEXUAL! Listen, stop what you are doing. I AM DEFINING MYSELF! I am a HETEROSEXUAL."
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Flip75
What's wrong with my micro-bio?
11:01 AM on 08/14/2010
Well said, Lair - too often, the heterosexual population forgets just how much it "flaunts" its sexuality.
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LintLass
"When you can balance a tackhammer on your head...
01:25 PM on 08/14/2010
Actually, *bigots* so define us. While 'flaunting' their sexuality, defensively, if necessary, to justify It's heterosexuals who show off their 'superiority,' 'self-righteousness,' 'trophy wives,' 'breeding prowess,' ....forget about the music and entertainment, while claiming gay couples are 'flaunting' something or' forcing a lifestyle on others' if we even have the temerity to hold hands in public, refer to the most important other person in our lives with proper pronouns, or be mentioned as existing (in a non-negative way) in any book or classroom anywhere.

Meanwhile, straight Christians actually *are* trying to 'force their lifestyle' *on us.* Actually-really.
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PhilipB
01:18 AM on 08/14/2010
Great post, Waymon Hudson!