10/27/2014 12:56 pm ET

I Didn't Want To Become A Mom -- Until I Did

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The two pink lines on my pregnancy test looked a lot like prison bars. I pictured them surrounding the jail cell I’d forever be confined to now that I was with child. I was a 34-year-old woman living in baby-friendly Brooklyn, New York, with a stable job and a loving relationship and I got pregnant right after I purposely went off the pill. I was supposed to feel lucky. All I felt was dread.

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