12/04/2014 09:08 am ET Updated Dec 04, 2014

I'm OK With Being Fat, But I'm Going On A Diet Anyway

Why I'm overhauling my eating habits after the holidays

Before I even had a clue what words like "fat-shaming" and "fat phobia" meant, I knew I hated my body. I knew that as early as age 10. My arms were too fat, I couldn't find cool clothes to fit, and everyone in my class made sure to let me know I was bigger than them. By the time I was in high school, this self-loathing had set in motion nearly a decade of food restriction, prescription diet pills, and a general obsession with just not being fat anymore.

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