Train. School. Math. English. History. Lunch. Work. Homework. Sleep. Then wake up and do it all over again. This has been my life for the past four years; the same thing every day with only occasional changes. Having the same classes every day, seeing the same people -- it's all starting to feel overwhelmingly monotonous.
The way high school is set up (or at least how mine is) lends for a very repetitive schedule. You're bound to get tired of it eventually and as a senior who has one month of high school left, and already knows where I'm going to college, that is exactly what I am: tired of it.
My school is still the same, the place itself hasn't changed, but I have. I've grown and matured. The very same things that I once found interesting and loved now just bore or annoy me. My interests are changing; my way of thinking is changing. I don't want to do the same thing every day, don't want to see the same people, take the same classes. I'm ready for college and its unpredictability and changes. I want to take a random class about a random topic. I want to meet a new person every day, do different things, visit different places. I'm hungry to learn and explore, discover my interests, see things which I haven't gotten a chance to see and try new things.
Ever since I got my acceptance letter, I can't help but think on a bigger scale -- about the future and my next steps. That's why I can't wait to start college. College isn't just about memorizing things for a test, or maximizing your GPA like most of high school was for me. It's about learning for learning, discovering yourself as a person, and figuring out your place in the world. Of course, it's scary to think of all the changes that are coming. I know that there will be many times in college -- when I am overwhelmed with work or home sick -- when I will crave the predictability and familiarity of high school.
But I also can't help but be excited for all of the new things I will experience. It will be something completely new to me. I will be doing my own laundry, getting my own food, making my own schedule, and ultimately doing what I want to do. My parents will no longer be there to tell me what to do or what's right or wrong. I have to make these decisions on my own. Yet, surprisingly, all these things which seemed so dauntingly scary -- living on my own and making my own decisions -- when I was only a freshman in high school are now the very same things which make me excited to go. I know it won't be easy, but I'm ready to get out of my comfort zone and be challenged, I'm ready to start my college journey and experience all of the ups and downs.