04/19/2013 03:32 pm ET Updated Jun 19, 2013

The Boston Lockdown: A Living Nightmare

I woke up and went online around 6 a.m. to see if anything happened overnight after they had released the suspects pictures on Thursday.

I saw headlines about the bombing suspects developments and woke up my partner and turned on the TV News. I tuned into WCVB-TV where I use to work to listen to reports from Randy Price who's openly gay and very level-headed in his reporting. I got updated that one of the suspects had been killed last night and another was at large in Watertown. Then we heard that we were in lockdown until further notice.

It feels like you're in a nightmare but you know you're awake.

I was supposed to have a doctor's appointment at the Beth Israel Deaconess Hospital today at 10:30 a.m.

This is where the first suspect was taken to and died. The hospital called at 8 a.m. to cancel.

I went on Facebook and posted "We're in lockdown here in Boston ordered to stay inside while the bombing suspect is at large. It's very scary. More later...."

I got dozens of well wishes from friends and family to stay safe and their thoughts are with us.

From my brother Paul in London "It'll all be over soon hopefully. Glued to CNN here in London. Lots of shots of the Mall in Watertown." That was six hours ago and we're still in locked down.

As a broadcast journalist it's hard not to want to go to the crime scenes but then you realize you're in the crime scene. Sometimes it's very emotional. I can feel my eyes fill with tears. Other times I just feel angry that my hometown is having to deal with this. It's not pleasant being confined in a lockdown. Fortunately we have some food and supplies. All businesses were told not to open today.

It's a no fly zone and the only thing you hear are police helicopters and police sirens.

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Notes From The Lockdown