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04/17/2013 10:39 am ET Updated Jun 17, 2013

Being Brown After the Boston Bomb Blast

The bomb blasts at the Boston Marathon are a terrible tragedy and a chilling example of the worst kinds of psychopathic and misanthropic human behavior. I weep for the families and friends for those immediately affected and for those whose lives and memories have forever changed.

I hope that they catch the perpetrator(s) of this crime.

But I worry, especially after incite-ful and potentially dangerous rumors, momentarily validated by the NY Post, that automatically point the finger at (an) international terrorist(s), who, is/are in the imaginations of those easily deluded, brown-skinned. The subsequent and unavoidable racial profiling is a slippery-slope toward a lynching mentality where color/ethnicity/race (all imagined categories largely invented for economic exploitation and advantage) is proof of guilt, and where all who are imagined to be part of that imagined category are inescapably complicit.

But my worry is not new. I had it even before the despicable 9/11 attacks. In fact I remember worrying 18 years ago (almost to the day) since the domestic terrorist bomb attack on the Alfred P. Murrah Federal Building in downtown Oklahoma City on April 19, 1995. Though this was not the first time I worried about racial profiling, this was the first time that I felt tremendous relief that the perpetrator, the loathsome Timothy McVeigh, was not an international brown-skinned terrorist as first (and incorrectly) surmised. Rather I was relieved that he was "white" (indeed, an imagined category largely invented for economic exploitation and advantage). I am sure that other brown-skinned people felt liberated by his capture, and perhaps even by his execution.

But did his capture lead to a new kind of racial profiling, where 30-year-old "white" men were targeted by law-enforcement officials? And has the dominance of "white" serial killers made all "white" American males complicit? Should I report their suspicious behavior to flight attendants and have them removed from flights? Should we look suspiciously at them when we see them buying fertilizer at the local garden supply center in suburban USA?

And then 9/11 happened. It complicated things and colored people's already tarnished perspectives. I again have had to bear the burden, forced (chained) upon me, of being complicit, of posing a potential threat, of collusion and conspiracy merely because of my brown body, my skin color. I must endure and embrace being imprisoned in a panopticon.

What a relief it would be if the vile perpetrator(s) were "white." What a burden it will be if she/he/they are brown-skinned.

But you may say, "Deepak, this is not about you."

Indeed.

It is not about me.