I know that feeling and that look. The excitement and hope that once lit up your face has slowly, overtime, been replaced with disappointment mixed with frustration and possibly a side of confusion. Oh you try to hide it behind a "Every Thing is Awesome" smile and though most people who have absolutely no clue what it's like to be married into a blended family won't notice, I do because I too have been there.
I know the things you say to yourself repeatedly. "This is so much harder than I thought!" "Why am I viewed as the bad guy?" Why can't they see me for who I truly am?" "I have always been good with children so why can't I connect with my stepkids?" "Why does the man I love so much get so defensive when I try to talk to him?" And the vicious thought spiral goes on and on.
However, today is a good day.
Today is a good day to extend grace to yourself. You put so much effort at making this family work and extending grace to everyone else. Do you not think that you deserve to extend that same grace to yourself? Stop beating yourself up for how you handled the latest fiasco or the issues that have gone before that. Embrace your value and contribution in your stepfamily and give yourself a break.
Today is a good day to forgive. After learning to extend grace to yourself then take it to the next level and forgive. I'm not talking about forgiving your spouse, the kids, or the ex. That is a topic for another day. Forgive yourself.I'm sure you have heard the expression that forgiveness is not for the other person, it's for you and it is, especially when you forgive yourself. It frees you from the "if" trap. If I had just said this or if I had just done that then things would be so much better. Truly forgiving yourself frees you from the "what ifs" and "what has been" and embraces the beauty of "what can be".
Today is a good day to be you. I tell my teenage daughter all the time that all you can do is what you can do. You cannot change others. You cannot make the ex like you. You cannot make your husband or kids fit into the family box you think they should be in.You still have the power, however, to leave your mark on your blended family.
Instead of focusing on the issues or all the wrongs, make a memory instead. Go to the park and swing with them. Find a new trail and hike with them. Teach them how to play the old school games you played as a child like "Duck duck goose" and "Yahtzee". Look up fun science experiments to do with them. Make oobleck or flubber. Pray with them. Read to them. Make their favorite food for dinner.
The possibilities are literally endless. By extending grace, forgiving yourself, and embracing who you are you can truly be a positive powerful force in your stepfamily. You have the power to build a legacy, a stepmom legacy one memory at a time.
Today is a good day to start.
A mom who is working on her own family legacy