When reality star Evelyn Lozada had her first miscarriage last year, she curled up in bed and stayed there crying, consumed with grief. After mourning the loss, Lozada and fiancé Carl Crawford felt ready to try again, and to Lozada's joy, she was able to get pregnant. However, that pregnancy, too, resulted in miscarriage.
This time, Lozada reacted differently. The miscarriage happened on Thanksgiving Day, a few weeks before her 40th birthday, as cameras were shooting scenes for her reality show, "Livin' Lozada." The mother of two suddenly excused herself, removed her mic and went into the bathroom.
"I can't believe that this is happening to me again," Lozada can be heard saying. "I think I'm miscarrying, like, right now."
Once again devastated, Lozada pushed through the familiar grief and put on a brave face for her family.
"What am I going to do? I just have to be brave," she said. "I have to be strong and I have to just keep it together. I feel like I don't have any other choice."
Lozada told her daughter, 23-year-old Shaniece, what just happened and Shaniece's heart broke for her mother. But that's where Lozada's disclosures stopped.
"I'm not going to tell Carl that I'm miscarrying right away, just because I want him to enjoy Thanksgiving with his family," she explained.
Though Lozada was incredibly upset to be experiencing another miscarriage, she was grateful that she was surrounded by people who love her. "I'm happy that I'm around Carl's family and that I feel like I have support," she said. "I don't have a choice but to be strong and just move forward."
"Livin' Lozada" airs Saturdays at 9 p.m. ET on OWN.
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