I've not realised until recently how important writing is to me. I've started doing it everyday, it's definitely become a habit but an enjoyable and healthy one at that. I still have ongoing mental health issues and probably always will, but finding a hobby I enjoy has been really helpful for me, here's why...
It gives me structure
I currently work part time at my day job and use the rest of my time to do some paid freelance work as well as my own blog. The need to write everyday has given me a more structured day which is really important for keeping me on a somewhat even keel. I don't cope with change well, so establishing a healthy routine everyday is crucial to helping me feel in control of my life. I know I can't really blog in the evenings because I want to spend time with my husband, so this forces me to set loose working hours during the day that fit around my day job. I normally write in the afternoons when I finish work, edit pictures and share posts on social media. The next morning I will do a final read through of that day's post or project and publish it or send it off via email. Then I spend the rest of the day replying to comments, talking on Twitter and planning my next post to write that afternoon. This helps me keep busy in between meals, stopping me from fixating on food and also stops me from taking naps at random times in the day. Since I started writing everyday I also don't watch any TV until after dinner, so that's a good thing!
I can organise & communicate my thoughts
As an introvert I naturally shy away from too many social engagements and this is only aggravated by my anxiety around people. Holding a conversation with someone is quite taxing for me, and I find polite chit chat incredibly hard to maintain for extended periods of time. It's like I can feel the life draining from me as I try to stay alert and focused. It's not that I don't have anything to say, more that I just can't find the confidence to say it. With writing I can grab a pen and my journal and just take note of whatever I'm thinking at that moment, without fear of having it come out wrong, offend someone or be made fun of for it. I can get my feelings out of my head and onto paper where I can read them again, analyse what's going on and then form it into a blog post if I think it's of any interest. Although this might seem completely anti-social, for me it's like having a practise conservation with myself before releasing it to the world for comment. The blogging community has led me to use Twitter a lot more which is a great way for me to meet like minded people, especially as I've just moved to a new city where I don't know many people. Once my blog post goes live I can share it, talk to other people about it online and read other posts on similar topics.
It's a creative outlet
I have always been mildly creative in my life. I say mildly because I don't ever recall feeling compelled to draw. I just did it because I was bored. I wasn't obsessed with writing music but I did it now and again, and went through phases of being in a band and playing a few instruments. I didn't wake up and write poems everyday but I really enjoyed penning creative stories when the teacher asked for them. I studied Music for three years at university and after realising it wasn't for me I just naturally stopped being creative.
The problem with depression and anxiety is that often you are bombarded with people asking "How do you feel?" and "What are you thinking? The truth is that sometimes it's impossible to describe. It's a sense of being that's so overwhelming it's hard I even spend time delving in for a closer look. It's too much. Then once in a while I'll hear a lyric or even just a melody, maybe one single note played on the piano that effortlessly sums up every thought in my head and every fibre of my being. I personally feel a great benefit from having a creative outlet, not just in the form of writing but in coming up with my blog images, layout and even my Instagram. There is nothing groundbreaking about my content. But the feeling of creating something that only exists because I chose to make it, is a wonderful feeling and a form of expression that should be celebrated.
Have you found a hobby that helps improve your mental health?
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