The Struggles Of A Tech-Addicted Meditator

06/23/2016 11:12 am ET
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Attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity.

 -Simone Weil

My red flag moment was when I found myself scrolling through my iPhone on my meditation pillow. My phone worship had become undeniable.

Through a daily meditation practice, I had been committing to training my attention each morning. Yet I also had the habit of checking my phone immediately after my sit, often before I had even left my cushion. As proud as I was of my dedication to my morning practice, it became clear that the remainder of my days often felt like one big training in the art of distraction.

I became interested in attention largely because of the personal consequences I noticed as my own had diminished. With the ubiquity of smartphones and social apps, my attention span was waning (and it wasn’t exactly top notch to begin with). A few examples included difficulty in finishing books, feeling the need to multitask during movies, and, most disturbingly, decreased tolerance for “slow talkers” and lulls in conversation.  

When you’re used to the predictable input from a device, the mysterious, often meandering process of human connection can feel too risky, time-consuming, and even boring. And yet, choosing a device over an interpersonal connection can be detrimental not only to yourself but also to the person with whom you’re meant to be relating. Anyone who’s ever attempted a meaningful conversation with someone more interested in their Instagram feed knows how damaging this distraction can be.

My movement teacher Katy Bowman teaches that one hour of exercise each day doesn’t offset 23 hours of being sedentary. We have evolved into beings meant to move with frequency throughout the day, and this movement frequency is arguably more important to health than one intense bout of physical activity.

I wanted to apply this logic to my meditation practice. A brief attention training in the morning was wonderful, but it couldn’t possibly have been offsetting the massive splintering of my attention during the rest of the day. Perhaps some of my efforts would have been better spent reorganizing my 23 and a half non-sitting hours to be less  worshipful of distraction, which meant seriously examining my current relationship with technology.

If our attention is our most valuable and increasingly rare resource, it makes sense to be intentional about how we interact with the devices that strip it of its acuity. And the blame cannot be entirely on those of us who find ourselves unable to control our digital addictions. Some of the brightest minds at the most prestigious companies (Facebook, ahem) use the most effective behavioral strategies to keep you clicking, scrolling and liking.

Yet, rejecting technology completely is a luxury that many of us cannot afford. It enhances our abilities to pursue things like entrepreneurship, education and social connection. For many, there is an expectation of constant email connectivity for their jobs.  In our increasingly tech-enabled world, resistance can seem futile. But going with the flow and keeping up with societal norms unfortunately does not ensure a healthful relationship with our gadgets. Like many other health behaviors, it seems you must deviate outside of the cultural norm to protect your health and happiness.

So, in my quest to confront my tech addiction, I’ve been experimenting with ways to still engage with technology but set stronger boundaries that prioritize what’s actually important in my life – things like the quality of attention, presence, and relationships. I honestly had low expectations for my compliance with this new strategy, but it became surprisingly easy once I started feeling the benefits. Here are some strategies that have worked for me:

  • Set rules about when you turn your phone on and off each day. I do a digital sunset at the same time each night and don’t turn my phone on in the morning until after my meditation practice. This has drastically improved the quality of my sleep and increased the consistency of my meditation practice. This is coming from someone who used to look at my phone first thing after waking up! Change is possible!
  • Beware of the iPhone effect. Research has shown that keeping your mobile device in sight during a conversation significantly lowers empathy level and the quality of conversation. Don’t leave your phone out if you’re talking to someone. This is an easy switch that can significantly improve your relationships.
  • Take your most addictive social apps off your phone. It’s amazing how boring your phone quickly becomes. Or, as a compromise, try keeping those apps on the last page of your iPhone so you’ll have to scroll for a bit to open them. This gives your slow brain and willpower some time to kick in and decide against opening the sites. Another strategy is to turn off all push notifications.
  • Schedule phone free blocks when you leave your phone at home or hide your device for periods of time. 

My phone has lost its allure surprisingly quickly. You can only check for a text or email so many times before it gets boring. I knew that something had shifted when I left my phone at home and I didn’t notice for a couple hours. A month ago, that would have been unthinkable. The quality of my relationships has increased and my attention feels stronger. Slowly, my tolerance for boredom and silent moments has improved. I even took a nap the other day since I couldn’t turn to Instagram scrolling as my go-to way to relax. The only drawback I’ve noticed so far is the pain of looking around, finally ready to connect, only to notice how distracted most other people are.

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