Just because you relocate doesn't mean your problems dissolve.
In the beginning, you're on cloud nine because you feel as if it's a new start and you expect things to be different. You might be searching for yourself and wish to find it in another state, but that might not always be the case. You might find that your lack of self-confidence still awaits you at your front door or you as a person is exactly the same.
I believe moving to another state was the best decision I've ever made and I would never take it back if I had to do it again. I've learned so much in just five months that I don't believe I could have learned in my hometown. I don't need to rely on others to make decisions for me. I know how to take care of a living creature. I can lean on myself and I feel stronger as a person. My parents were always there to help me out, but in another state, I learned how to handle situations on my own. I no longer have a crutch because my parents live 800 + miles away.
But, I so badly wanted to relocate because I figured my boyfriend and I would get to experience more things and have more time to have fun, but I was wrong. One day it's raining and the next day it's sunny skies. You cannot predict what the weather is going to do. And, if it's not raining, it's hot as hell. I should have known that a southern state would be hotter, but I was too naïve and too wrapped up in yearning for change that I didn't' think too much about it. However, at the same time, if I would have thought too hard, I would have allowed my fear to take over.
Right before I left, my best friend said to me, "You know, Hope, you think moving to another state will all of a sudden make you happy and that's probably not the case." And, maybe I did believe that I would be cured and I was being naïve. Things aren't always what they pan out to be and that's okay because there's always a lesson to be learned.