History Repeating Itself: Odd Girl Out and Under This Beautiful Dome

In addition to being a moving memoir, Under This Beautiful Dome is a reminder that we have to protect ourselves and our rights -- or history will repeat itself.
12/24/2014 05:03 pm ET Updated Feb 23, 2015

History repeats itself.

Just last week, I went into the new Philadelphia AIDS Thrift at Giovanni's Room, the organization that took bought the old Giovanni's Room Bookstore, the iconic bookstore that opened in 1973. I was thrilled to hear that Giovanni's Room was continuing in some form, of course. But friends had told me that, alas, it just wasn't the same. For lesbians and gay men of a certain generation, Giovanni's Room was more than a store. It was a safe haven. It even has a mention in my book Tea Leaves, a Memoir of Mothers and Daughters (Bella Books, 2012).

So I was delighted to wander in and find that the store is charming -- and remarkably similar to the old bookstore. In line at the register were a couple of very young gay men with short spiky hair and flesh plug earrings. (They looked like the young dykes of my time.) One was buying a used copy of the collected works of Oscar Wilde, and telling his young friend (who was unfamiliar with the author) who Wilde was and how important his work is. My heart was warmed, of course.

Later I reflected that it was more than heartwarming, the fact that Giovanni's Room is continuing is historic survival.

A few years ago, I heard a rumor that many young people in the LGBT community were not interested in learning their history. I don't know if this is true, and I certainly hope it is not true.

However, if it is true, it is understandable. We live in a time of rapid acceptance of LGBT rights. Same-sex marriage is legal in far more states than it is banned. And while federal recognition of marriage and other LGBT rights may be an ongoing battle -- it is sure to follow. But not that long ago (everything being relative), gay rights were dismal and before that they were nonexistent.

I've always preferred learning my history through literature. That's why I was excited when I heard that Cleis Press reissued Ann Bannon's Odd Girl Out, a lesbian "pulp" classic first published in 1957. The "pulp" lesbian novels published roughly from 1950 to 1965, were written by such authors as Valerie Taylor, Claire Morgan and Marijane Maeaker ( who wrote under the pen names of Vin Packer and Ann Aldrich) among others. Ann Bannon (also a pen name) was known as the "Queen of lesbian pulp fiction" with her "Beebo Brinker Chronicles."

The pulps were published during McCarthyism, a severely repressive time of U.S. history. In 1952 the House Un-American Activities Commission investigated gay men and lesbians in the public arena. The lesbian pulps were an important window into an identity that was illegal.

In the introduction to the re-issued edition (from Cleis) of Odd Girl Out, Bannon writes that she was a young housewife when she wrote these books, explaining that she was:

"just plain scared of to assume an identity that seemed to me full of mystery...I also had a fully reasonably fear of the public consequences. God forbid that a policeman should ever pluck me from a table in a lesbian bar, shove me into a paddy wagon, and put my name on a roster of criminals. The bars underwent regular police raids in those days..."

She also puts lesbian "pulp" fiction into perspective:

How did we get away with it, those of us writing these books? No doubt it had a lot to do with the fact that we were not even a blip on the radar screens of the literary critics. No one ever reviewed a lesbian pulp paperback for the New York Times Review of Books, the Saturday Review, The Atlantic Monthly. We were lavishly ignored, except by the customers at the drugstores, airports, train stations, and newsstands who bought our books off the kiosks by the millions. The readers tended to enjoy them furtively: probably feeling as wary as I did when I wrote them.

For a novel labeled as "pulp," Odd Girl Out is remarkably well written and with an ending that is empowering rather than tragic -- unusual in literature with lesbian characters at that time. When my partner asked me if it were worth reading, I gave her a resounding, "YES."

I was also excited when I heard about Terry Mutchler's heart-wrenching memoir, Under This Beautiful Dome: A Senator, a Journalist, and the Politics of Gay Love in America. I read this back to back with Ann Bannon's lesbian classic and quickly realized that the two books shared the similar emotional underpinnings of the love that dare not speak its name: lesbianism.

The difference is that while Ann Bannon's book was first published in 1957, Under This Beautiful Dome was published (by Seal Press) in 2014 and recounts the facts of a relationship that ended tragically when Penny Severns, an Illinois state senator and one of the mentors of the now President Barack Obama, died at the age of forty six from metastatic breast cancer.

It is a poignant love story about two women who fall in love. There are other reasons not to disclose their relationship -- Penny is a journalist and it presents an ethical dilemma for her to be involved with a politician. But the primary reason -- especially after Penny is diagnosed and Terry becomes her press secretary so they can spend more time together -- is homophobia. In the high powered world in which they lived, being openly lesbian was a career killer.

After Penny dies (without a will) and her relatives step in and take over, Terry is locked out of the home she shared with her lover (but does not have her name on it). Wills would be public -- which is why the two women did not have them -- but Terry had an agreement with Penny's twin sister, Patty. As often happens after the death of a loved one, the sister's behavior quickly changed. She shut Terry out completely. Mutchler, who has experienced the loss of her lover plus the betrayal of someone she thought of as family, writes:

"I felt as though I had split into two people, two Terrys: the lesbian Terry whose mate has just died and was grieving deeply and needed help, and the press secretary and good friend Terry, who created a life of lies very carefully to keep her love and partnership a secret."

The book is flawlessly and unflinchingly written. Especially touching is the caring that Terry did for her dying lover. But for me, the saddest part was that this story in different details and variations is one that I've heard more than a few times when one partner dies without a will, and the surviving partner is left unprotected to the vagaries of the deceased's biological family.

In addition to being a moving memoir, Under This Beautiful Dome is a reminder that we have to protect ourselves and our rights -- or history will repeat itself.