Blech. That's the sound that I hear in my mind when I think about how I'm feeling at the moment. Just blech. I'm unmotivated, empty of words, out of creativity, but full of nervous energy. There's a definite correlation between when I feel blech and when my uterine lining sheds itself. I feel nuts when I have my period, and it's all I can do to hold on and keep the negativity under control.
Right now, my defenses are low, and my sensitivity to others' energies is incredibly high. I'm being bombarded by doubts, questions, others' sadness and struggles. I honor my ability of being able to support the people I care about, but I just need to learn how not to take on their emotions and energy. How can I be a pillar of strength for someone to lean on if I end up crumbling?
Because of the aforementioned reasons, I'm feeling heavy-hearted and full of negative energy. The idea of energy is an interesting one, one that I'm feeling particular confused about at the moment. There are people who believe that if we think positively, we can create good things in our lives. They believe the positive energy we create lends itself to the creation of positive occurrences. That aligns with the general concept of The Secret that created a sensation among the masses several years ago. I suppose it's exciting to think that we could have some control over what happens to us in our lives. That's all well and good, and a big portion of me believes this notion, but I can't help but wonder what happens when we think negative thoughts? Do our negative thoughts compel bad things to happen us? If so, that hardly seems fair. Some of us struggle with negative thinking and genuinely can't help it at times, especially if we're enduring a depressive state. Does that mean we're going to be punished for this thinking? That's not a great concept for those who are already down in the dumps; it's not exactly motivating. Plus, aren't we supposed to be able to think our thoughts and feel our feelings in order to process our emotional and mental health clearly? I always thought the difference lied in choosing to act upon the negativity or not.
Could it be possible that it's only when we think positively that our thoughts impact our world? What I mean is, when our brains are in a positive space, we think more clearly, and that's when we can figure out who we truly are and what we want. Isn't that what the Universe is listening to? I understand how our negative thinking can pose barriers to our lives in that it suppresses our truth, but it just doesn't make sense to me that the Universe would punish us for having negative thoughts or feelings. Maybe this is me being selfish and choosing what I want to believe for my own sanity and peace of mind, but I have to go with what makes my heart comfortable and makes sense for me.
If you're able to shed any light on this confusing matter, I'd love to hear from you. I'd also love to be able to calm the hell down.
Peace, love... and thank you.
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