10/06/2014 05:56 pm ET Updated Dec 05, 2014

What Do I Know For Sure, Oprah?

I have always been a fan of all things Oprah. I watch her shows and read her magazine regularly. However I have to say Oprah, there is one thing I don't agree with you about. One of my favorite things to read in your magazine is the section titled " What I know for sure" and when I read it I love what you write, but when I sit down to write what I know for sure, I kind of get lost.

Let me show you why:

I know for sure that I was created to spread love, then why do I get thoughts of anger and fear?

I know for sure that my children are the most precious gift, yet they are the ones who control the strings of my heart. Why do they make me cry every time I am proud of them?

I know for sure that I am an intelligent and independent woman, who speaks her mind, yet why do I cry for hours when someone says something mean without letting them know?

I know for sure that I'm looking all trendy and stylish, then my teenage daughter or son will say, "Mom you kind look teenagerish. Are you having a mid-life crisis?"

I know for sure that karma exists, yet why do I see people who are just plain simple evil and they continue to hurt people without any consequences?

I know for sure that I can write, yet why are there are days when nothing happens when I sit in front of my laptop, and my empty page just stares right back at me?

I know for sure that I have lost 5 pounds, yet why the hell wont those jeans I want fit me?

I know for sure that God is love and mercy, yet why do I question Him when I see the suffering of children around the world?

I know for sure that I will be okay eventually, yet I don't even know what will happen in the next second

All I truthfully know is that I am blessed. I have been lucky enough to have positive loving people around me who have always outnumbered the negative people. I have been blessed with three wonderful children who are kind hearted. I know I was created to spread love through my writing even though my mind goes blank occasionally. But most importantly I know that all I have is this moment the present, and my best friend AKA God, who lives inside of me. I know for sure that I am Me and the only Me I will ever have.