widowhood

"At first I looked for Matt in every profile — obviously he wasn’t there, but guilt and grief often were."
"I was clinging tightly to the life I had before. I wanted ― and thought I needed ― everything to stay the same, because if it did, then Simon wouldn’t be dead."
At only 34 years of age, I have endured more tragedy in my short life than most do in a lifetime.
The stages of grief were not meant to tell you what you feel, what you should feel, and when exactly you should feel it. They were not meant to dictate whether you are doing your grief "correctly" or not. They were meant to normalize a deeply not-normal time.