Until the cows come home.
Mind reading 101.
It is a complete and total waste of time.
Dealing with someone who doesn't speak of truth or whose actions don't match their words? It is so tiring.
The entire situation, in which we feel we're always left scratching our head, when it comes to someone we love, who practices no consistency, shows up and ships out, or isn't honest about their intentions... can make a person feel crazy!
Why do people come into our lives who say they love us to pieces, give us words as a lifeline, but then do a 180-degree turn and disappear for days/weeks/months or put major distance between us?
It's called emotional unavailability.
FEAR is at the base, but it goes unrecognized, even with all the anxiety or panic brought on when someone gets too close... the person who is outwardly unavailable isn't examining why they are pulling away... they just need to go!
You or me, we are inwardly unavailable. We feel this is as good as we can do, or this is our value... what we deserve based on fear related to a belief, which we've probably had for many years.
Whether it is someone who we have a revolving door relationship with, or a yo-yo, or some other toy description... this relationship feels toxic.
There are warning signs in the beginning, but we often miss them. We may not want to be alone, we may have low self-esteem or something, which makes us susceptible to the charms of a person who cannot emotionally commit.
We analyze the crap out of what the person says, what he or she must be thinking and of course the un-matching actions. We ask our friends, neighbors, relatives. We look online, pick up a ton of books and spend way too much time thinking about it.
We need help here, don't we?
The issue in having a relationship with someone who is a yo-yo, they come close and then they back off, or out and we take it personally. We think there is something wrong with us.
And yes, there is something wrong with us (and it's not what you think), we're looking in the wrong direction or at the wrong characteristics to get to the root of the issue.
The place to look is in the mirror. When we focus on their doing or lack of doing, coming and going, saying words that sound like a commitment, but are only meant to keep us hanging in the balance... we can get caught up in it, so we stop looking at ourselves.
When this person returns (again) into our lives, after vacating the premises momentarily or for a long period of time, we may become easily convinced through their renewed presence that there is more meaning to it than actually is shown. We may be given breadcrumbs, but look for the deeper meaning, after all they keep showing back up!
The situation we're in is not easy to break. We may romanticize the dysfunction and take responsibility for the fact that the relationship falls apart, but that is not the place to find out truth. The truth is in our "why," we may be so convinced that no one will ever love of us more, or at all. We may be convinced our needs are excessive, because we weren't valued when we were younger.
Now we must find our truth, and refocus.
Take our focus off this person who rips our heart out each time they go, and learn what it is that keeps us attached. Sit with the anxiety, the unease -- the auto-pilot thoughts which tell us we aren't worthy... what is underneath it?
As we focus less on the other person, more on ourselves and opening our heart... truly moving away from the emotional unavailability within us and recognizing our fear, we start on a new journey leading us to having the relationship we truly want. It takes time, it takes effort -- but it is all within us to change the trajectory.