Tila Tequila Talks About Her Abortion, Lack Of Friends

Tila Tequila has courted criticism for turning her grief over fiancee Casey Johnson's death into an Internet exhibition, and now she explains why she is incapable of mourning offline.

"Why do I tweet so much? Even BEFORE Casey passed away? BECAUSE I HAVE NO FRIENDS! THERE! THE TRUTH COMES OUT! Just pray 4 her please!" she tweeted on Sunday.

"PPL say I need 2 get off twitter & grieve with friends & family...WHERE? I DONT HAVE ANY! Casey was my only family & my Dogs! Worst day ever," she continued.

A few minutes later she directed readers to a sprawling blog post that tells the sad story of a teenage Tila rolling with Mexican gangs, locked up in juvie and bearing witness to her best friend's drive-by murder. Then she offers this explanation for her protracted little girlhood:

Then was I was 17 I got pregnant and my boyfriend at the time hit me in the stomach with a hammer & I got a miscarriage......It makes me cry if I think about my life growing up but then I cry tears of JOY to see how far I have come from that life!!! Thank u GOD! It also makes me cry of joy that I went from THAT to being able to pay ALL of my parents bills TODAY! They are so proud of me! =) I used to hide in my closet when I was 11 years old and cry and cry & write on the walls & pray to God that life would get better...I would cry so much that I would just pass out and wake up still in the closet with bloody hands from punching my mirrors....I was just a baby..and I had to live an adult life. That explains why TODAY I still have such an innocent side 2 me cuz I missed out on it.

Who knows if any of this is true, but Tila ends her breathless tale with the promise that it will be made into a book--dedicated to the 'son' who was aborted 11 years ago at the hands of her abusive boyfriend.

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Comments

[mandymariee]

03:23 PM on 02/27/2010

Hello?? Did nobody else catch this?

1) "PPL say I need 2 get off twitter & grieve with friends & family...WHERE? I DONT HAVE ANY! Casey was my only family & my Dogs! Worst day ever," she continued.

2) "It also makes me cry of joy that I went from THAT to being able to pay ALL of my parents bills TODAY! They are so proud of me! =) "

I thought she didn't have any family?

[maddogzs]

05:46 PM on 01/14/2010

Tila was one of my First Friends on MySpace
Now she doesn't know who anyone is

[FTracy3]

05:38 PM on 01/14/2010

Her parents, Mr. and Mrs. Tequila, must be so proud.

[MrRight77]

02:58 AM on 01/14/2010

Who Cares!

[MTibbs]

10:46 PM on 01/13/2010

No abortion was mentioned in the story. VERY misleading headline!! (stupid story too, frankly)

[mokienatrix]

01:58 AM on 01/14/2010

Miscarriage used to apply to lose of a fetus later in the pregnancy. In the first three months or so, it was called a spontaneous abortion. Voluntary or elective abortions take their name from this, since they're generally performed early in the pregnancy.

I see your technicality, and raise you an alternate vocaulary.

[f00ls]

05:46 PM on 01/14/2010

Uhm I think when your boyfriend hits your stomach with a hammer that counts as an abortion. I mean I think it is safe to say that beating a fetus with a hammer can induce abortion.

[smpj]

05:52 PM on 01/13/2010

No friends? She might have some if she were a real person.

[WilliamProc]

05:50 PM on 01/13/2010

Boyfriend hit you in the tummy with a hammer and you had a miscarriage?

The womb is lower than your breadbasket, isn't it? A hammer to the ribs would make you miscarry, but it would hurt. But this is Tila Tequila, after all. Stomach, womb, the lil' soldiers make a home in either.

[JWheels]

03:57 PM on 01/13/2010

I have been wondering this for quite a while: Who the hell is 'Tila Tequila'?

[henrypapillon]

03:50 PM on 01/13/2010

She never even came to her friend's funeral. Nice!

[ediva75]

02:09 PM on 01/13/2010

I think it was good that The Johnson Family thought wisely to not have this hot *** diseased carrying mess @ Casey's funeral!!!

Tila needs to seek out counsel and prayer for her respective issues she has before she ends up like Casey!!! She should see what that wild lifestyle of Casey's landed her and take a page from that to turn her life around. Like the title of an old Drew Barrymore autobio she is definitely "LIttle Girl Lost"!! FOR REAL!!

[Crazyguilmore]

07:16 AM on 01/13/2010

So uh Tila,

When does shot at Love 3 air and how can I be on the show?

[mamacat]

06:14 AM on 01/13/2010

What is a Tila Tequila?
On second thought, don't tell me - I'm better off not knowing.

[Christian G Jimenez]

10:53 AM on 01/13/2010

LOL, yup, better off not knowing

[nantes]

02:53 AM on 01/13/2010

i agree with meller72, the distinction between a miscarriage and an abortion is an important one.

[henrypapillon]

03:52 PM on 01/13/2010

A miscarriage is a premature end, an abortion is what Tila has made of her life.

[hidingmyidentity]

01:18 AM on 01/13/2010

I dunno what she's talking about but I'm so hard right now so I applaud whatever she's doing

[Owhatabs]

12:00 AM on 01/13/2010

Who is this woman? She doesn't like the house she built for herself? Too bad for her! She can go now