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Corey Feldman To Corey Haim: I Love You, My Heart Is Broken

Corey Feldman Corey Haim

First Posted: 5/16/10 Updated: 5/25/11

Corey Feldman was not invited to Corey Haim's funeral, but that didn't stop him from memorializing his best friend today. Feldman posted this letter to Haim on his website:

Dear Corey.,

This is for you on the day of your funeral. First off I am so sorry I am not there with you today. By that I mean my physical body is not with your physical body. However you know that my heart is right at your side. You also know the only reason I am truly not there is out of respect for your mother and her wishes to minimize the media attention as much as possible. I want your family to have a calm peaceful day. Hopefully we will not see one shot of the funeral on the news. Just know I am at home today projecting positive energy for you and your passing.

I miss you so much already. When I think of something funny I don't know who to tell it to. I find myself trying to call you but then remember your not there. I think about the new movies we will soon be doing together and then suddenly realise that the dream is over. I always feared this day would come, and often rehearsed how to face it. But once confronted with the reality of it, it's so much more painful than I could have ever imagined. Nobody will ever understand the brotherhood we shared. Nobody will ever get the inside jokes we told. Nobody will understand the magic of 22/222 . Nobody will ever know how to do the secret Corey handshake. Nobody will ever make me laugh as hard as you did. Nobody will ever make me fight as hard as you did. Nobody will ever challenge me the way you did. Nobody will ever need me the way you did.

My mission in life became saving yours. I never gave up, I tried ...I walked away, but I always came back, to let you know I was there. In a dark and lonely world with spiteful angry people we always understood each others pain. I have been so hounded by the media and barraged with condolences since your death that I have not been given my own time to grief. I was still in shock while cameras were chasing me down the street looking for my feelings on the matter. When I did Larry King I could barely form sentences, but knew I had to be strong to send a message.

I never knew your death would have such a huge impact on the world. I learned something Corey, there are a lot of people out there who really love you, and appreciate the joy you have brough tho their hearts. I only wish you could see the way the world is mourning over your absence. I wish you could see how big the story is. I wish you could see your face finally filling the cover of People magazine and Entertainment Weekly! That would have meant so much to you. It is such a shame they all had to wait until you were gone to give you the respect you were due as an actor which is what you truly were. The great Canadian actor Corey Haim! I love you and I will forever keep that ring close to my heart. I will do my very best to help give you a memorial that is a celebration of your life the way you would have wanted it.....with everybody laughing and rocking out!

My heart is so broken and I know there are so many who feel the same way I do. We will remember your spirit and your fans will help me keep your legacy alive.

I pray that you are safe and warm and finally filled with peace.

I love you

CF Core Feldog DAWG C-DOG KID and every other name you used to call me.....dine!
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LordByron13
If you're posting here, thank a TEACHER.
09:23 AM on 05/05/2010
To those who bash Feldman's grieving process or his letter, just remember something:

Once your gone...you­r gone.
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04:17 PM on 03/18/2010
Corey Feldman is grieving the loss of his best friend. I lost my best friend 5 years ago. I was in a daze for the first two years. I can't imagine judging someone else's grieving process. I really feel for the guy.
10:28 AM on 03/18/2010
Boo hoo. Z-list actors with self-impos­ed drug problems are supposed to invite sympathy, or feel shame because Feldman wants to know where all these people were when his junkie buddy needed them? It's not a disease, it's a choice. He needed to recognize that his very shot career was over, and get a real job. That simple. Lots of them have done it. Anna Chlumsky was a fact-check­er for Zagat's. Haim was a junkie.
04:11 AM on 03/18/2010
True. Heartfelt. RIP.
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MaryscottOConnor
09:34 PM on 03/17/2010
Corey Feldman makes me physically ill.

This barnacle needs to shut UP.
09:50 AM on 03/18/2010
You may not like the guy. Personally­, I think he's a bit of a bad 80s joke punchline myself, but there's nothing wrong with the letter.
07:54 PM on 03/17/2010
I remember a shot of Dan Ackroyd on his motorcycle leading the funeral procession for his friend John Belushi. I remember the expression on his face...it said it all. Friendship­s can be complicate­d things and who am I to say what's proper and what isn't.

Mr. Feldman, I'm sorry you lost your friend...i­f you hadn't posted anything..­.criticism would come for that too. You just can't win out here on the web.
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TankGirlz
can we have a "This post is full of suck" button?
03:56 PM on 03/17/2010
Um, so what's the point of publishing it hmmm?
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02:14 PM on 03/17/2010
This kind of bums me out now. DAMN YOU COREY! The return of the two coreys would have been huge. At least 4 good comedy blockbuste­rs could have come out of it. Definite potential. It's too bad.

License to Drive 2: Overdrive, alas, wasn't meant to be.
12:27 PM on 03/17/2010
so I will just go post a big emotional letter on the same day......

I do believe his grief is real but these B celebs just cannot help being hogs for media attention, even something this personal and private... very sad really!
12:30 PM on 03/17/2010
I so agree with you.
12:21 PM on 03/17/2010
I really liked the show "the two coreys". I could see the love between them and feel Corey Feldman's frustratio­n and anguish at watching his friend slowly kill himself.
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cameron d
Don't blame me, I voted Smitherman.
11:12 AM on 03/17/2010
I just knew that they had a secret Corey handshake. They had to, too obvious.
10:16 AM on 03/17/2010
"milking it !"
08:15 AM on 03/17/2010
Oh puke - Feldman is using this to get another 15 minutes of fame - that's sick.
12:32 PM on 03/17/2010
Exactly.
03:17 AM on 03/17/2010
Corey, I know how sad it is to lose a dear dear friend. It's hard seeing someone you love destroy their life knowing you can't save them. Live your life well and in honor of Corey. Time will heal your pain. Surround yourself with those who also loved Corey and understand how you feel. You won't need words - sometimes just being together is enough. Ignore the haters.
02:07 AM on 03/17/2010
I watched the Two Coreys & I remember the plot revolved around Feldman refusing to give Corey Haim the time of day. The mother not inviting Feldman to her son's funeral speaks volumes. Apparently­, there were 100s of people at the funeral & the mother asks his "best friend" to stay away? Helloooooo­oo??? Wadda pal, wadda friend!