War photographers and reporters, of course, are not immune to this pain. But when you're in a conflict, you can't afford to think about how you're feeling. You're trying to capture the tremendous hurt of the war, but at the same time, you can't afford to feel it yourself. And unlike the soldiers, who live in an environment conditioned to deal with these things, war journalists often find themselves alone in the newsroom, with no one to share the experience with.
People ask, "Why do it?" At first, it was exciting to witness these forces of history colliding, and I found it hard to stand idly by. Eventually, I became so inured to the violence, the war became my normal.