In addition to her on-screen drama as a single mother and her troubled relationship with her own mom, Debra Danielson, "Teen Mom" star Farrah Abraham says she secretly had mental health issues.
"All I could think about was killing myself," Abraham admitted in a interview with In Touch magazine, detailing the year of partying and drug use leading up to her suicidal thoughts.
Two years after Abraham welcomed her daughter, Sophia, now 3, and mourned the death of her daughter’s father, Derek Underwood, who died in a car crash two months before Sophia was born, her grief and depression hit their peak, she told the magazine.
“I figured I would drown myself in the bathtub -- that seemed like the easiest way to go,” Abraham told In Touch, details of her depression which she's also written in a memoir entitled "My Teenage Dream Ended," slated for release on August 14.
I got off the phone and tried to calm down, but my mind was racing. Derek was the father of the baby I was carrying inside me. He was my first love, my only true love. We hadn’t spoken in more than two months, but I had still believed we had a future together—me, him, and our baby, as one happy family. It’s every teenage girl’s dream, right? You meet a boy, you fall in love, and then one day you have a family and grow old together, happily ever after. 'Til death do us part.
Now Derek was gone forever, and so was my happy ending.
In a statement partially noted on Abraham's Facebook fan page, her father reportedly responded to her news:
I will say this… yes I am not a perfect father…and I wish I could have did many things differently that might have made things work out better for my daughter … but my prayers have been answered seeing how Farrah took the responsibility and steps to insure that she has been and is there for Sophia.
In June, Abraham's "Teen Mom" co-star Amber Portwood described her own suicide attempt, explaining to "GMA" that she took roughly 30 Suboxone -- a drug used to treat opioid addiction -- over the course of three days.
Portwood was sentenced to five years in prison over domestic violence charges involving her ex-fiance, Gary Shirley.
Need help? In the U.S., call 1-800-273-8255 for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.
When "Mad Men" actor Hamm was just 20, he experienced chronic depression following his father's death. The structured environment of work and school (he was a college student at the time) helped him recover, but he also relied on therapy and antidepressants to pull him out of a downward spiral. "You can change your brain chemistry enough to think: 'I want to get up in the morning; I don't want to sleep until four in the afternoon," Hamm told UK magazine <em>The Observer</em> in September, 2010, speaking about medication. <strong>More from Health.com:</strong> <a href="http://www.health.com/health/gallery/0,,20428990,00.html" target="_hplink">10 Careers With High Rates of Depression</a> <a href="http://www.health.com/health/gallery/0,,20320942,00.html" target="_hplink">Boost Your Mood Naturally</a> <a href="http://www.health.com/health/gallery/0,,20521449,00.html" target="_hplink">12 Signs of Depression in Men</a>
Today she has a loving husband, a successful acting career, and a passion for humanitarian work, but life was not always so picture-perfect for Judd. In her 2011 memoir, "All That Is Bitter & Sweet" she revealed that she considered suicide as a sixth-grader, and in 2006 underwent 42 days in a rehab clinic for depression. "I would have died without it," she told <em>People</em> in April 2011. Reconciling with estranged family members and helping those less fortunate through charity work has helped Judd regain perspective and make peace with her past.
His public persona is that of a laid-back, fun-loving dude, but the world saw a darker side of the actor in 2007 when reports surfaced that he had attempted suicide at his California home. Some friends were shocked, but others said that Wilson, who was 38 at the time, had "battled his share of demons, which have included drug addiction," reported <em>People</em>. Wilson "bounced back" from his suicide attempt, People reported eleven weeks later, by spending time with family and close friends.
When model and actress Porizkova was voted off ABC's "Dancing with the Stars" in 2007, her feelings of rejection led to anxiety attacks. An antidepressant <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/paulina-porizkova/ending-a-midlife-affair-with-meds_b_862442.html" target="_hplink">helped dull her anxiety</a>, Porizkova wrote in a 2011 Huffington Post editorial, but also her personality. She eventually stopped the medication, fighting withdrawal symptoms with exercise and willpower. While she's not an "anti-medicine crusader," she wrote that she is "starting to wonder whether antidepressants can often be the emotional equivalent of plastic surgery."
The whole truth behind Ledger's tragic death in January 2008 will likely never be known: The troubled actor, 28, accidentally overdosed on sleeping pills, painkillers, and anxiety drugs not long after revealing to the <em>New York Times</em> that he'd been suffering from insomnia. After his death, <em>People</em> reported that sources spoke of his depression and reckless behavior after his breakup with actress Michelle Williams, the mother of his then 2-year-old daughter.
Disney actress and singer Lovato made headlines in 2010 by checking into a treatment facility for "emotional and physical issues" after being involved in an altercation with a dancer on the Jonas Brothers World Tour. After leaving the center and getting her life back under control, Lovato revealed to <em>People</em> that she suffered from anorexia, bulimia, and bipolar disorder. She says that "looking back it makes sense. There were times when I was so manic, I was writing seven songs in one night and I'd be up until 5:30 in the morning."
After Arquette and wife Courteney Cox announced they were separating in late 2010, the actor was spotted dancing and behaving erratically at nightclubs. He told Howard Stern during a radio interview that he'd been drinking a lot and acting like a "maniac." Arquette soon checked himself into a rehab center to address his alcohol abuse and depression. In April 2011, Arquette acknowledged his strange behavior, saying he had been sober for more than 100 days and was now more in touch with his emotions.
In 2011 actress Zeta-Jones, 41, revealed that she has bipolar II disorder, which causes severe depression. (People with bipolar II often don't have the extreme "up" of mania, which is a staple of bipolar I.) Dateline NBC host Jane Pauley praised Zeta-Jones' decision to go public, saying that "she has made the world a safer place for people who have the diagnosis." Pauley, 60, was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2001 and wrote about her experience in her 2004 memoir, "Skywriting: A Life Out of the Blue."
Actress Paltrow loved being a new mom to daughter Apple, born in 2004. When her son Moses was born two years later, however, something was different. "I felt like a zombie," Paltrow told <em>Good Housekeeping</em> in February 2011. "I couldn't access my emotions." Still, she didn't suspect postpartum depression until her husband brought up the idea. "I thought postpartum depression meant you were sobbing every single day and incapable of looking after a child," she said. "But there are different shades and depths of it."
Marissa Jaret Winokur
Postpartum depression isn't reserved for women who physically give birth to their children. After Tony-winning Broadway actress Winokur's son was born via surrogate in 2008, she felt stressed and overwhelmed. In fact, surrogacy can sometimes make postpartum anxiety or guilt even worse, Winokur's doctor told People in December 2010. "I didn't feel a connection with Zev," Winokur said. She visited a therapist, went back to work, and started exercising, and her depression began to lift when her son was about 10 months old.
Winning gold at the 1996 Atlanta Olympic Games forced swimmer Beard, then only 14, to grow up fast. But when a growth spurt and 25-pound weight gain caused Beard's self-esteem to take a dive, the self-proclaimed perfectionist turned to bulimia and cutting herself as an outlet for her pain and depression. Beard began taking antidepressants in 2005, which helped her get healthier. Today, she's off medication and has a son, born in 2009, but admits that life still isn't perfect. "It's not like I went to therapy and -- poof! -- better," she told <em>People</em> in 2010.
Jeret "Speedy" Peterson
Olympic freestyle skier Peterson lost his long-time battle with depression in 2011 when he died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound at age 29. Peterson won a silver medal at the 2010 Winter Games, but had fought depression and gambling, and had struggled to stay sober for years, reported <em>People</em>. He discovered skiing during his troubled childhood, and used it as a way to burn off "ADD hellion" energy otherwise spent causing trouble, reported <em>Men's Journal</em> in a 2010 profile on Peterson.
Before Kate Middleton married England's Prince William in 2011, she received counseling to prepare herself for life with the royal family, according to the Daily Mail. The counseling was likely meant to be preventive: William's mother, Diana, after all, had experienced loneliness and depression in her role as a prince's wife. Diana suffered from postpartum depression as well as an eating disorder. According to the BBC, her unhappiness worsened as her marriage fell apart, and she received little emotional support from her new family.
"I know how important good mental health care can be because I personally benefited from it," wrote Gore, the now-estranged wife of Al Gore, in a 1999 <em>USA Today</em> opinion piece. In the article, Gore revealed that she had sought depression treatment years before, after her son had a near-fatal accident. She took medication for some time. "When you get to this point," she said in an interview, "you just can't will your way out of that or pray your way out of that or pull yourself up by the bootstraps out of that. You really have to go and get help, and I did."
Model and actress Shields was one of the first and most prominent celebrities to speak openly about her struggle with postpartum depression. She wrote about it in her 2005 book, "Down Came the Rain: My Journey Through Postpartum Depression." Shields published an opinion piece in the <em>New York Times</em>, defending her decision to take medication and describing the outpouring of support she'd received from other mothers who'd been in the same position.
As host of ABC's "Extreme Makeover: Home Edition" from 2004 to 2009, Hemmis was bubbly, compassionate, and always smiling for the camera. But in September 2009, the carpenter and entrepreneur opened up to People about her ongoing struggle with depression that had caused crying fits, eating binges, and insomnia early on in the show's run. While working on a show like "Extreme Makeover" -- which restores and refurbishes damaged or destroyed homes for families in need -- is both rewarding and fulfilling, it was also emotionally draining at times, Hemmis said.
Starring in and executive-producing the 1999 feature film "Girl, Interrupted" -- about a young woman's two-week experience in a psychiatric ward -- was deeply personal for Ryder. After her high-profile relationship with actor Johnny Depp ended, Ryder, then 19, began abusing alcohol, experiencing anxiety attacks, and spiraling into depression, she told the San Francisco Chronicle in January 2000. After falling asleep with a lit cigarette and setting herself on fire, Ryder sought treatment, briefly, in a mental institution herself, and finally with a private therapist.
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