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12/17/2012 09:39 am ET Updated Dec 17, 2012

Kristen Stewart's Affair: Actress Says She Stayed In Her Hotel Room 'Rather Than Deal With Everything'

It has been five months since Kristen Stewart was caught cheating on her boyfriend and co-star Robert Pattinson with her "Snow White and the Huntsman" director Rupert Sanders -- but the wounds are still fresh.

Stewart has opened up about the scandal that rocked her personal life, revealing that the days following her confession were some of the toughest she has ever faced.

"You have to be OK with your own fears," the "Twilight" star tells UK's The Sun. "If you’re an honest person you’ll make mistakes, but that’s when the most interesting things happen."

The 22-year-old actress admits she struggled with the media spotlight, but found a way to move on from her now infamous affair.

"I used to just stay in my hotel room rather than deal with everything," she reveals, "but if you get too caught up in what others think you become a really disjointed person."

Stewart recently chatted with The Huffington Post about her decision to finally step back into the spotlight following the difficult time. She confessed that there was never a choice as to whether or not she'd attend the screening of "On The Road" at the Toronto Film Festival in September -- she was going despite what people would say.

"You should never step outside of your life and look at it like it's this malleable thing you can shape so that people view it a certain way," Stewart told HuffPost. "I would never not have gone to something like that. I've been working on this for five years. I love this movie. I'm so proud of everyone involved -- I feel so strong standing next to them."

"I was asked a few times whether I was going to do it or, 'Oh, was it difficult for you? What made you stand up and do this?' It was like, why wouldn't I? It made so much sense to me," she added. "With the fans and stuff, it's just human energy that you simply cannot deny. People are standing there and sort of screaming for you and I'm not about to turn my back and walk away and go get warm inside, you know what I mean?"

As we all know now, Stewart and Pattinson, 26, worked out their issues and are back together. They promoted the final film in the "Twilight" franchise, "Breaking Dawn - Part 2" in November.

Kristen's film "On The Road" opens in limited release on Dec. 21.

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Kristen Stewart & Robert Pattinson


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