Nearly two years after a tragic Christmas Day fire killed her three daughters and both of her parents, Madonna Badger has announced that she is engaged.

In a lengthy new article in Vogue, "The Long Road Back: How to Keep Going After the Unimaginable Happens," Badger writes about working to overcome insurmountable grief and doing her best to move on with her life.

On Christmas Day in 2011, a fire raged through Badger's Stamford, Connecticut home. Her nine-year-old daughter Lily, her twin seven-year-old daughters, Grace and Sarah, and her parents, Lomer and Pauline Johnson, all perished in the blaze. Only Badger and her then-boyfriend, Michael Borcina, survived.

"I've never felt so desperate," Badger writes of waking up in the hospital the day after the tragedy. "Whenever I wasn't knocked out on sedatives, I was screaming at the top of my lungs: 'Where are my children?! Where are my parents?!'"

Badger struggled with suicidal thoughts, and had stints at a few psychiatric hospitals before moving in with some friends in Little Rock, where she began meeting with Dr. Richard Smith at the Psychiatric Research Institute at the University of Arkansas.

"It's never going to be easy," Badger writes. "The pain is just so huge that sometimes it feels like a prison cell. But trying really hard to not feel sorry for myself makes me feel good."

Eventually Badger returned to her job in New York City. Friend Bill Duke, a real estate broker, helped her for weeks to find the right apartment.

"Bill and I had stayed friends, and when I started looking for an apartment in New York in March, I called him— he’s a real estate broker — and we looked at houses for several weeks,’’ she writes. “One day he asked me out and I said yes. Recently he asked me to marry him, and I said yes to that, too."

The two plan to wed in September 2014.

Just like she did on the first anniversary of the tragic fire, Badger plans to spend this Christmas volunteering to help kids in need.

Badger's ex-husband, Matthew Badger, started a charity in their daughters' honor. The LilySarahGrace Fund raises money for arts in public schools. You can donate to the fund here.


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  • Matthew Badger, Madonna Badger,

    FILE - In this Jan. 5, 2012 file photo, Matthew Badger, left, and Madonna Badger, the parents of three children that were killed in a fire, react as their caskets are carried into a church during the funeral in New York. Matthew Badger has sued the city, his ex-wife's contractor boyfriend and several others who did work on the home, saying they all had roles into making it into a "firetrap." (AP Photo/Seth Wenig)

  • Matthew Badger, Madonna Badger Michael Borcina

    FILE - In this Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 file photo, Matthew Badger, left, and Madonna Badger, parents of three children who were killed in a Christmas Day fire, react as one of the caskets is carried into a church during the funeral in New York. Criminal charges won't be filed in the Christmas morning house fire that killed three girls and their grandparents, Stamford State's Attorney David Cohen said Friday June 8, 2012. (AP Photo/Seth Wenig, file)

  • Madonna Badger, Michael Borcina

    FILE -- In this Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 file photo Madonna Badger, left, and Michael Borcina, a friend, arrive for the funeral of Badger's three children in New York. Veteran Stamford, Conn. prosecutor David Cohen must make his decision amid an outpouring of grief and sympathy across the country when considering if anyone should face criminal charges for the Christmas Day fire in Stamford that killed three girls and their grandparents. (AP Photo/Seth Wenig, File)

  • Calvin Klein, Vera Wang

    Designers Calvin Klein, left, and Vera Wang leave the funeral service for 9-year-old Lily Badger and 7-year-old twins Grace and Sarah Badger at St. Thomas Episcopal Church Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 in New York. Hundreds of people streamed into the historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Mary Altaffer)

  • Madonna Badger, center, and Matthew Badger, right, react as the caskets carrying the bodies of their daughters, 9-year-old Lily Badger and 7-year-old twins Grace and Sarah Badger are placed in the hearse after their funeral service at St. Thomas Episcopal Church Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 in New York. Hundreds of people streamed into the historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Mary Altaffer)

  • Lou Reed

    Musician Lou Reed leaves the funeral service for 9-year-old Lily Badger and 7-year-old twins Grace and Sarah Badger at St. Thomas Episcopal Church Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 in New York. Hundreds of people streamed into the historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Mary Altaffer)

  • Philip Seymour Hoffman

    Actor Philip Seymour Hoffman leaves the funeral service for 9-year-old Lily Badger and 7-year-old twins Grace and Sarah Badger at St. Thomas Episcopal Church Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 in New York. Hundreds of people streamed into the historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Mary Altaffer)

  • Stamford Firefighters stand at attentions as the caskets for 9-year-old Lily Badger and 7-year-old twins Grace and Sarah Badger are carried from St. Thomas Episcopal Church after their funeral service, Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 in New York. Hundreds of people streamed into the historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Mary Altaffer)

  • Madonna Badger, second from left, and Matthew Badger, center, follow the caskets carrying the bodies of their daughters, 9-year-old Lily Badger and 7-year-old twins Grace and Sarah Badger after their funeral service at St. Thomas Episcopal Church Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 in New York. Hundreds of people streamed into the historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Mary Altaffer)

  • Lou Reed, center, leaves the funeral service for 9-year-old Lily Badger and 7-year-old twins Grace and Sarah Badger at St. Thomas Episcopal Church Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 in New York. Hundreds of people streamed into the historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Mary Altaffer)

  • Matthew Badger, Madonna Badger,

    Matthew Badger, right, and Madonna Badger, center, the parents of three children that were killed in a fire, watch as their caskets are brought out of the church during their funeral in New York, Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012. Hundreds of people streamed into a historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Seth Wenig)

  • Three hearses carrying the caskets of three girls who were killed in a fire line up during their funeral in New York Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012. Hundreds of people streamed into a historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of Lilian, Sarah and Grace Badger, who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Seth Wenig)

  • Matthew Badger, left, Madonna Badger, second from right, and Michael Borcina are greeted by a priest as they arrive for the funeral service for 9-year-old Lily Badger and 7-year-old twins Grace and Sarah Badger at St. Thomas Episcopal Church, Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 in New York. Hundreds of people streamed into the historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Mary Altaffer)

  • Madonna Badger, Michael Borcina

    Madonna Badger, left, and Michael Borcina, a friend, arrive for the funeral of Badger's three children in New York, Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012. Hundreds of people streamed into a historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Seth Wenig)

  • Madonna Badger embraces her estranged husband Matthew Badger as they arrive for the funeral service for 9-year-old Lily Badger and 7-year-old twins Grace and Sarah Badger at St. Thomas Episcopal Church, Thursday, Jan. 5, 2012 in New York. Hundreds of people streamed into the historic church in the heart of Manhattan on Thursday for the funeral of three young girls who died along with their grandparents during a Christmas morning fire in Stamford, Conn. (AP Photo/Mary Altaffer)