Facing harassment from Richie Incognito and two other teammates, Jonathan Martin contemplated walking away from the NFL entirely several months before he eventually left the Miami Dolphins in October 2013. Among the documents, emails and text messages included in the report produced by lawyer Ted Wells' NFL-ordered investigation into the Dolphins' bullying scandal was a list produced by Martin in May 2013 of pros and cons to continuing his career.
According to the report, Martin sent the following list to a friend on May 6, 2013 in a text message as he grew frustrated with "his inability to respond to verbal abuse."
- Football games are fun
- I can make a lot of money playing football and be set for life
- I have a legacy that will live after I die
- not many people get to live their childhood dream
- I am the left tackle for the Miami dolphins
- if I quit, I’ll be known as a quitter for the rest of my life
- my legacy at Stanford will be tarnished
- I will never be able to look any coach from my past in the eye
- I hate going in everyday.
- I am unable to socialize with my teammates in their crude manner
- I already have a lot of money. I could travel the world, get my degree. Then get a real job
- I could lose 70 lbs and feel good about my body
- I won’t die from CTE
- Maybe I’ll start to LIKE myself
- I don’t need to live lavishly. I could live very frugally
- why do I care about these people? All I need is my family.
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