During our chat, Gwyneth Paltrow shared how her struggle with post-natal depression opened her mind to spirituality, which is a journey we have in common as I, too, struggled with the reality of depression post babies. A great reminder that out of every hardship comes a gift if only we could see it!
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Janet Fyle: Suffering in Silence
At first it was postpartum depression...my hormones were messed up.
The Hell didn't start until after I went back to work. I wasn't prepared for how strongly my feelings would be for my son. I figured "how hard can it be to return to work, when all the women I work with have done it?"
I felt guilty for paying someone else to raise him. My heart broke when I left for work in the morning and dropped him off at the sitters house.
I tried not to show it around him, but I would cry from her house to work--almost every day for 4 years.
My husband was not supportive emotionally, nor was he supportive with anything else. I came to him and he rejected me, didn't want to hear it. I ended up having to deal with feeling overwhelmed and alone all by myself.
I envy the women whose husbands are loving and supportive.
We have since divorced...