As another year has come and gone, I can say I survived a year of growth, a year of tests of faith but also of revealed strength and unlimited faith. There were trials that could have defeated me but by the grace of God, I stood tall and although at the time I didn't understand the whys, and I was frustrated with the process, I am so happy that I went through them because I no longer have the fears and it is beyond liberating! This year, I followed some of my dreams and took risks and also conquered doubts associated with those risks. I showed parts of myself to the world that I was afraid to show for fear of rejection, and I got so much love in return. Yes, a little rejection too, but so much more love and guess what? I care much less about rejection now. This year I completed goals I had set, I wrote and I loved and lived. There were many moments of clarity, peppered with moments of extreme joy (Trinidad and Miami Carnival), as well as renewed and new relationships and friendships.
The past year was a year of such uncertainty, with the days and hours crammed with school and work, and there were some parts of the year that I was not balanced because I did not have suitable time for self-care, for healing and centering. When this happens, my temper is shorter and patience is non existent. It was necessary to accomplish my goals, but I am glad it's over because functioning in that mode continually is not healthy for the spirit or the soul and definitely not healthy for friends and family involved. However, sacrifices had to be made, I passed through the fire and I feel better for experiencing all of it.
I feel so blessed to have come out of 2015 stronger, but I am at peace with seeing it go and letting go of past pains, mistakes and fears. I am looking forward to 2016 with so much excitement and anticipation, I can't contain it. I am looking forward to all the things I will accomplish and all the barriers I will break down and most of all, I am expecting 2016 to be the year of love. At first I was focused on opening my heart to all the love out there to receive, and then a thought emerged from inner spirit that I need to open up my heart to all the love I can give.
I want to be so full of love that I am sending tidal waves of it, that I am dripping and oozing in it. I want anyone that I come into contact with to feel that love, and I want to have compassion for those who are unable to receive it. I also want to have more patience with myself when I fall short and as such have patience with others. So for 2016, I pray my spirit is more centered and balanced, that it will be a year of many liberations and a year for great celebrations. I proclaim it in His mighty name!