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Life After 50: When You Look in the Mirror, What Do You See?

Posted: 04/24/11 01:46 PM ET

An article in the U.K. Daily Mail stopped me in my tracks recently. New research, it reported, shows that more than 90 percent of women in their 40s and 50s are deeply unhappy with how they look and are suffering from what experts have dubbed "Midlife Mirror Angst Syndrome."

Curious and apprehensive, I read the article. Not surprisingly, the women who were interviewed for the story were quite down on themselves:

"Ever since I turned 40, my reflection has upset me. I loathe what's happening to my body, I am riddled with hang-ups -- and I hate the fact I can't control the changes I see."

"Before the ageing process kicked in, I used to take all those sideways glances from men for granted. I've had to accept that I simply don't turn heads any more."

"I'm going through the menopause and it's a shock every time I catch sight of myself in the mirror: I expect to see the woman I was in my 20s, but there's a 50-something woman staring back at me."

I used to feel that way -- but no more.

A few years ago when I turned 50, this is what was staring back at me when I looked into the mirror:

A woman who:

  • was starting to feel invisible and ignored
  • hadn't exercised regularly in many years
  • had very little energy
  • had hair that looked like road kill because she had been blow-drying it to death for decades, trying to make it something it wasn't (straight)
  • assumed that the 15 pounds she packed on after going through menopause was normal and would never come off
  • believed that she was no longer attractive
  • focused on her wrinkles
  • was feeling insecure about her place in the world

Need I go on?

I looked in the mirror and thought, "Okay, this is it. This is what being middle aged is all about, and I'd better just accept it." Then, I mentally tucked myself under the proverbial blanket and was getting ready to stay there -- until I pulled myself up by my bootstraps, declaring, "Giving up is not an option."

Deciding that drastic action was required, I took it upon myself to get the best information from the best experts on nutrition, fitness, style, hair, makeup, health, finances, careers after 50 and everything else you could possibly think of to feel good and look good so that I could stare at that person in the mirror with a renewed sense of pride and confidence.

Armed with my new "look" and new attitude, I appeared on the Today Show to talk about how I learned to embrace my age instead of fighting it. During the interview with Ann Curry (see video below), I shared what I believe is the simple key to being fearless after 50: "Embrace your age, whatever it is. Love your life, get as healthy as you can, move your body every day, be informed, stay engaged, connect with others, use your mind, live with style, be bold, be brave and walk with confidence."


The message has resonated with men and women around the country because we're tired of being told that we are invisible and no longer relevant. I meet people over 50 every day who are engaged with life in ways they never thought they could be.

I can honestly say that turning 50 changed my life for the better. Instead of giving up and giving in, I did a bit of "tough love" on myself and took action. But more than that: I also realized that I didn't want to just be alive; I wanted to have a life, a great, big, wonderful life after 50.

Before sitting down to write this piece, I looked in the mirror, and this is what I saw:

A woman who:

  • just came back from running nine miles (with walk breaks and quite slowly)
  • will run in the New York City Marathon this year to celebrate her 55th birthday and raise money for the Pancreatic Cancer Action Network (see the "NYC Marathon Training Weekly Update" at the end of this article)
    • can do 20 push-ups (just a few years ago she couldn't even do one)

  • is starting a new business and has outlines for two other books
  • has come to truly understand and appreciate the power of connecting with other women who are, or have been, going through similar midlife experiences (take a look at a few of the comments from Facebook friends who were asked this question, "What do you see when you look in the mirror?" below)
  • can see the pride in her daughters' faces when they look at this confident, happy and unstoppable woman their mother has become
  • smiles more often than not
  • is the happiest she has ever been

That is what I see. Oh, about those wrinkles. Yes, they are still there. I love them, and I hope you come to love yours, too. They are the most empowering things I possess.

I put this question, "When you look in the mirror, what do you see?" on Facebook, and here are a few of the responses, reprinted with their permission. If you're on Facebook, join me and these wonderful women so we can all learn from each other about living our best lives after 50:

I see a different face every day. The face may change, but the reflection remains the same. There's always a smart, loving, talented woman looking back at me. (Karen Hanley Taylor)
I see wisdom in the lines around my eyes, happiness in the lines around my mouth and joy reflecting in my eyes. (Denise Taylor Tremaine)
I see a youthful spirit with a new wisdom that can only come with life experience. I take care of myself and do the best that I can with my looks, and have accepted the physical change as part of growing older. I feel very blessed. (Marsha Silver-Kessler)
I see a woman who believes that dreams can come true again and again! (Amy Wise)
I see an older version of myself, but a much more serene and confident version. I see a woman who can handle just about anything with a little time to get used to whatever it is. I see a truly happy woman who has found contentment, has lost her judgementalism, has found her groove and who can find common ground with anyone and who can enjoy herself in any situation....take that you 20 year olds! ;) (Maureen Ardron)

Tell us: what do you see?

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2011 New York City Marathon Weekly Training Update

  • Saturday: 5 miles with a run/walk ratio of 3 minutes/30 seconds
  • Monday: 5 miles with a run/walk ratio of 3 minutes/30 seconds
  • Thursday: 9 miles with a run/walk ratio of 1 minute/1 minute
  • Every other week I'll be adding another mile or so to the long run (keeping the two short runs the same distance), and will be adding "speed work" to my training.
  • For more information on the Jeff Galloway Run/Walk/Run Method, check out his website, jeffgalloway.com.

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Staying connected is a powerful tool. "Friend" me on Facebook and follow me on Twitter. For more information on "The Best of Everything After 50: The Experts' Guide to Style, Sex, Health, Money and More," please visit my website, bestofeverythingafter50.com. Stay well, and stay in touch.

 
 
 

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An article in the U.K. Daily Mail stopped me in my tracks recently. New research, it reported, shows that more than 90 percent of women in their 40s and 50s are deeply unhappy with how they look and ...
An article in the U.K. Daily Mail stopped me in my tracks recently. New research, it reported, shows that more than 90 percent of women in their 40s and 50s are deeply unhappy with how they look and ...
 
 
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06:37 PM on 04/29/2011
Never before have I ever read an article and felt compelled to comment but here goes. What do I see when I look in the mirror? A persona non grata, invisible, old and useless. When they made the announcement that life begins at 40, I must have been in the bathroom. When they said that 50 was the new 30, I missed that one too. I don't know what happy pills all of you are taking, but can you please pass some my way?
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Barbara Hannah Grufferma
author, The Best of Everything After 50
07:31 PM on 04/29/2011
Dear AnnBeagleMom . . . No "happy pills" . . . just pretty much verbatim what I wrote in the article and said in the video. You clearly have a way with words, so I'm wondering if you do some kind of work where writing is essential? If not, maybe you should think about it.
It's too hard to talk about all of this with comments on HuffPost . . . but if you're on Facebook, friend me, and we can continue, and you can also "meet" over a thousand (mostly) women over 50 who (some) were feeling the way you described, but no longer.
If you're not on FB, think about getting my book (it's at libraries, too) and seeing if there are some ideas in there which helped me (and many others) that could also help you.
Keep in touch . . .
Barbara
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AZreb
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11:03 AM on 05/30/2011
At 74, I do NOT feel invisible, old and useless! I see wrinkles - a lot of them. I see someone who is about 15 pounds overweight - but am working on that. I see someone who can still volunteer to help others, a woman who can swim, bike, hike with friends or alone, a person who has life skills that can be passed on to others, who is ready for the future and all the excitement and new adventures it may hold.

And next year I will be happy to hit the 3/4 century mark!!!! More new ideas, more new people in my life, more new great-grandkids, more fun, more work - MORE OF EVERYTHING!!!!!
10:07 PM on 04/27/2011
I turn 50 next month and I feel better about the way I look now--- than I did when I was in my 30's. I have a gorgeous mother who turns 89 in June. Her smile can light up a room. She keeps herself busy with art openings, music and theater events and loves to read. She's set a great example of how to live a full and stylish life. I only hope to age as beautifully as she has!
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11:10 PM on 04/27/2011
Bravo!!
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Barbara Hannah Grufferma
author, The Best of Everything After 50
10:44 AM on 04/28/2011
That's how I feel, Dd . . . and you have a great role model in your mother (and sounds like fantastic genes, as well!).
Thanks for posting a comment, and please keep in touch!
Best,
Barbara
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01:56 AM on 04/27/2011
Lately is see B.D.Wong, I know that is wierd,right? Maybe I should talk to someone about that.
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10:14 AM on 04/27/2011
OK! LOL! Or just accept that lately BDWong is popping up in your mirror. :)
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10:13 PM on 04/26/2011
What a hoot! Worry about what I see in the mirror? I am thankful I can still see - thankfulI can still walk - thankful I can still laugh with friends - thankful I can do volunteer work - thankful I have a good appetite, even if there are a few extra pounds on me - thankful I can still swim and bike - thankful I don't have to take a boatload of pills.

Working on my computer every morning and looking out my window to see the sunrise, I just say "Thanks" - at 74, I treasure all the things I can still do and don't worry about the time gone by - as long as I wake up on the top side of the grass, it's okay.

Old cowboy saying: "Everybody's got a choice. You can walk in dry socks or piss in your boots and whine about it." Go for the dry socks!
07:44 AM on 04/27/2011
"wake up on the top side of the grass"....lol love that!
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10:15 AM on 04/27/2011
Yes and yes. Thanks for a chuckle and some excellent thoughts.
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french queen13
my beloved is mine and I am his
08:38 PM on 04/26/2011
One thing that saddens me with some of the comments here is the distress felt by women who aren't getting "looks" from men in the street any more. Now, I was never much of a recipient of those in earlier years, as far as I know: I've never been interested in being looked at (more a case of "Who're you staring at, creep?") by anyone except my beloved. So I can't know the feeling of missing such attention. That said ... what does the attention mean, really? An automated response to look at a youngish woman (and guys' peripheral vision is apparently not as good as women's, so the head-turning is simple necessity). Does it mean anything about YOU as an individual? Does it say anything about your worth as a person? It saddens me that so much of a woman's estimation of herself can be bound up in such ephemeral things. "Not being checked out by strangers in the street" does NOT equal "worthless/ugly/old".
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10:00 PM on 04/26/2011
Bravo, FrenchQueen. I've been thinking that myself, but you've said it so well.
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french queen13
my beloved is mine and I am his
04:43 AM on 04/27/2011
Thank you again, playflute! :)
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Tracey Jackson
Author of Between a Rock and A Hot Place How Fifty
06:50 PM on 04/26/2011
It sounds simple but you gotta do what works for you. If you don't like what you see and you want to change it go for it. You do it for you. And if feeling better about the way you look makes you feel better about your life then I say do whatever makes you feel better.
Sadly, society does not embrace us as we age, so a lot of these feelings are valid and only mirrored back from the media. So if you want some Botox - party on! Fifty is what you make it. It's not 30, but the years ahead can be great, you just have to take control and not give in. Too many just give in. So it's a little more work, it's worth it. Be resourceful, stay relevant, live regretless.....it works.
08:27 AM on 04/27/2011
Over time it can get very expensive to "look younger". You can go for all the treatments available now, but you must know that they are all temporary. Even with a face lift, you have go to in for tune ups every 5 years. If you or your husband are millionaires, then the answer is simple. But if you are a normal, working, or stay at home person, the cost of such Botox solutions can be too high. For about 10 years I got all this stuff. Then at the age of 63, I decided to heck with it. Tried to have surgery, but chickened out. Maybe I will still have surgery someday. The one thing that is hard, is the fact of being invisible in society. It is true for the majority of women that once you do hit a certain age, or look a certain way, you do become invisible. I now believe you have to Love yourself the most. I am a widow and would love to be remarried, but the odds of that happening are more than being hit by lightning. You have to look the best you can and realize how lucky you are to be here on Earth in the first place. Embrace your children and grand children. I still work and that helps too. Exercise is overrated and will not find you a new boyfriend or husband. I tried that too. But Loving yourself is the most important thing you can do.
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Barbara Hannah Grufferma
author, The Best of Everything After 50
10:46 AM on 04/28/2011
Thanks for the comment Tracey (and congrats on your book!) . . . for sure, every one should do whatever works for them . . . without being judged!! However, there are simple life changes that every one can make that will help as we go forward . . .
All the best,
Barbara
05:28 AM on 04/26/2011
I find it depressing that so many women need a man to look at them to feel beautiful.
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09:28 AM on 04/26/2011
You have a point. Another thought is that, if we can't feel beautiful on our own, how is someone to find us beautiful? Life is as we make it, both good and bad.
05:13 AM on 04/26/2011
I had more fun in my 40's, 50's and now I just turned 61. I believe it's got a lot to do with attitude. People think I am younger also. The only thing that is preventing you from looking/feeling young is yourself. Get up and walk around the block that doesn't take money, put down the donut and have an apple. Quit complaining about everything.
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author, The Best of Everything After 50
07:06 AM on 04/26/2011
Sounds like you did the same kind of "tough love" on yourself as I did on me. You're absolutely right! It starts in the head, and the magic works it's way down. Keep doing what you're doing, and thanks for commenting,
Barbara
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hapytrkr
It's a comment board , get over it
03:38 AM on 04/26/2011
The poem is by Elizabeth Clark:

Blessed are they who understand
my faltering step and shaking hand.

Blessed, who know my ears today
must strain to catch the things they say.

Blessed are they who seem to know
my eyes are dim and my mind is slow.

Blessed are they who looked away,
I spilled my tea on the cloth that day!

Blessed are they who, with cheery smile,
stopped to chat for a little while.

Blessed are they who know the way
to bring back memories of yesterday.

Blessed are they who never say,
“You’ve told that story twice today!”

Blessed are they who make it known
that I’m loved, respected and not alone.

And blessed are they who will ease the days
of my journey home, in loving ways.

Another Beatitude

By Elizabeth Clark
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hapytrkr
It's a comment board , get over it
03:36 AM on 04/26/2011
When I first met my wife she was 95 pounds and blonde. We're both in our 60's now and her hair has turned gray and she has gained a few pounds , just like I have. I'm no longer blonde or ripped, but plump and gray. She has gotten more beautiful everyday. She has and always will be my beautiful baby. It's not what's outside.
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Barbara Hannah Grufferma
author, The Best of Everything After 50
07:08 AM on 04/26/2011
Dear Hapytrkr,
You are a lovely man, and you and your wife are very fortunate to have found each other. It sounds to me as though you have both embraced aging with grace and humor.
All the best,
Barbara
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french queen13
my beloved is mine and I am his
08:30 PM on 04/26/2011
Lovely post, hapytrkr!
01:38 AM on 04/26/2011
I'm glad that you came to terms with turning 50 and managed to have a happy life, but I've found this change debilitating & depressing. I turned 51 and it seems like my life crashed down on me. I have health problems I never had and I hate looking in the mirror. I lost all my confidence & never feel comfortable in my own skin. I find myself anxious & angry and when I see younger women I remember when they were me. I'm not happy at all & feel this is a slippery slope into oblivion. I too miss the normal glances from men & can't imagine myself as some invisible person. Last summer I walked down a street with a 20something in a low cut midriff baring top. All the men looked as she walked by and I felt like her mother. It was one of the worse moments of my life. The beginning of the end.
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Barbara Hannah Grufferma
author, The Best of Everything After 50
07:09 AM on 04/26/2011
Dear Uforje,
Please read/watch this article again. Don't you see yourself in what I wrote and what I said? Do some of the things I propose, which completely turned my head and life around, and then see how you feel.
Please stay in touch . . .
Barbara
04:44 PM on 04/26/2011
You are not alone. I feel the same way. Health problems...major anxiety. I feel invisable.....irrelavent....and like the best years are long gone. Maybe we will both find some help in the future. Good luck to you!
01:26 AM on 04/26/2011
"Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding.
"He giveth power to the faint: and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.
"Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall.
"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint" (Isaiah 40:28-31).
01:04 AM on 04/26/2011
It's funny how "true" this article was. Too bad we live in a society where the only people who matter are young and beautiful. How are "us" over 50 women to feel any self worth when we have already been disgarded due to our age and looks??
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Barbara Hannah Grufferma
author, The Best of Everything After 50
07:11 AM on 04/26/2011
Dear Krissieb03,
If you let them win, they will win. Do you realize that we are part of the largest demographic in the history of the world, and growing every day? We are not invisible. Far from it. Confidence in your abilities, with a bit of style thrown in, will change your worldview.
Just try . . .
All the best,
Barbara
12:47 AM on 04/26/2011
I like the article but get discouraged. Isn't there some middle ground we can aspire to after 50?
Does it always have to be I either hate myself or am now running marathons? :)
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Barbara Hannah Grufferma
author, The Best of Everything After 50
07:14 AM on 04/26/2011
Dear Ellen,
Please don't think I suggested that every one should run a marathon!! And "run" is written quite loosely: I follow the Galloway method and take liberal walk breaks. It's not about speed, it's about distance. If I can do it (someone who never ran until two years ago at the age of 52) anyone can.
Forget about the marathon . . . what about everything else I wrote and said? Simple changes: walking every day, a few push-ups, and so on. Nothing drastic. Completely the "middle ground." Take another look at what I wrote/said . . . and don't be discourage.
All the best, and thanks so much for taking the to comment,
Barbara
12:24 AM on 04/26/2011
I just had my 49th I have started to become invisable, and can't deal with it. I hate it, my body everything,I try to see the postive, but can't...
I just lost my husband, to cancer 3 months ago, he was my solemate, and best friend we were supposed to grow old together, now I'm left to do it by myself. I really can't imanage finding someone else, I dont want to right now and by the time I will maybe want to, I will be really old.... . I'm trying really hard to accept it. I beleive stress is a major factor of how fast we show our age....
I cant see a man wanting anything except perky and firm and young....
01:50 AM on 04/26/2011
My mother lost my father, after several years of battling cancer, at the age of 55. One thing she had done for herself is loose about 75lbs and to tell the truth she looks great! She is now 67 and not looking for another husband but she enjoys social activities and her job as a teller.
I on the other hand am 44 and my body is rebelling on me when I walk I look like an 80 year old all bent over and the shuffle step. I have had arthritis since the age of 5, I have never really been a head turner but I get the looks everyonce in a while. The best thing is I learned a long time ago that my body was going to break down early and I learned to accept it early. I am in constant pain but with the pain I know I am alive and I enjoy that knowledge. Life is what you make it injoy the good times and laugh because crying gives you a headache at the bad. I laugh a lot and expect to have many laugh lines to prove I have truly lived when I finally go to meet God.
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09:39 AM on 04/26/2011
I offer my heartfelt sympathy in the death of your beloved husband. It sounds like you may be pushing a bit too hard to get through the grief that you are feeling. My Dad died when my Mom was 44 years old (I was just 14 three days before he died). At the tender age of 70 she remarried and was married to my stepdad for a little over 20 years. She died in 2009 at the age of 96. One thing I have learned with her death is that you just cannot rush grief and that it is different for each one of us. The one thing you should look at is the idea of one day at a time and find a little joy in each one of those days. Allow your friends and family to be there for you and allow yourself to find out who you are as a person. This is a new journey.