I'm 24 years old, and I'm still working out exactly what I want to do with my life. That's not usually something that you want to be writing all over the Internet, but I think it will help me considerably by putting it out there. I want nothing more right now than for someone to take all the thoughts and possibilities I have floating around my mind and formulate them into some coherent plan but frustratingly, I can't afford a life coach. So I'm just going to have to work this one out by myself. I don't want this article to be self-loathing, I just think it's time I became accountable to the world. I think this is a problem a lot of people my age face, so why not work through it?
If you're one of those individuals who have known what you want to do professionally all of your life, I envy you a little. I say only a little, because there's a part of me that loves a bit of uncertainty. It makes me feel free. Which brings me onto my next trait; I hate the thought of being tied down. I see friends getting engaged, buying houses and having babies and it genuinely hurts my head to think about myself in that position. Not because I disagree with what they are doing, but just because I don't feel ready for any of that ... at all.
I'm not stressing about that though, the thing I'm worried about is that I still don't feel I have truly found my purpose in life. I want to feel passionate about something so badly, but I feel held back. Just like everyone, I have passions. Like all of us, there are certain things that make me really happy. They are things I would love to be making money by doing, but most of the time they seem a little too out of reach. That's not to say I'm not driven to achieve my goals. I would love to wake up every day and work on projects that I'm passionate about but it's sometimes easier to put off chasing dreams for chasing checks.
To date I have lived quite a privileged life. I went to a good school, have a loving family and was gifted with the self-belief that anything is possible. But I think that might be the problem as I have never had to struggle to find my way. Life has always been mapped out. I went to school, travelled the world, went to a good University and got a good degree. I moved to London to work in the city and life seemed perfect, for a while anyway. It was at that point that the map seemingly ended. I felt lost and as if I had spent the first twenty-three years of my life misunderstanding what I wanted to do. I had neglected my own thoughts and just followed the path that was already trodden.
So here I am today, a stage in my life where I have to embark on a little self-discovery. I'm on a mission to understand how to get the best out of myself. How am I going to start? Well that's simple. I've just got to do more. One of my inspirations, Casey Neistat, lives by this (check out his YouTube channel, he's an amazing filmmaker). I didn't really understand what he meant until quite recently, but now I get it. To live a fulfilled and purposeful life, you have just got to do more. Opportunities reveal themselves to those who take action. I have embarked on a quest now to be one of those people. A necessary step if I want to reach my full potential.
Despite the honesty of this article suggesting otherwise, I am at heart an optimist. In no way do I think that my life is going to be fixed over night but the only way I'm going to emerge from this formative stage is to focus on one thing, and that is just doing more. I need to erase the word 'hesitation' from my mindset and be infamous in my proactivity. The shackles of 'no' need to be shaken off. I'm a long way from where I want to be, but I'm confident that by doing more, I'll get there in the end.
How will you find your purpose?
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