Natural disasters, accidents, unexpected death, illnesses and financial loss: these are merely only few things that can cause you pain. Recently, someone I love was taken away from me. And the pain of the loss is excruciating.
Today, for the first time, I was reminded of the pain that I have been ignoring for many months.
Today, for the first time, I had to face the pain and I couldn't run away from it.
I couldn't breathe. I couldn't move.
I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry. I wanted to yell. But I was paralyzed at the reminder of my loss.
It took me many reminders to tell myself to breathe. It took me many trials to walk. It took me many hours to get back to my responsibilities.
Although it hurts and I know I will have to cope with this pain, healing process will be a long time. There was a simple beautiful reminder that got me to breathe again. It is that I love.
It is love that allowed me to let it go. It is love that allowed me to be able to feel the pain I feel. It is love that motivates me to be the best person I can be for those I love whether they are near me physically or not.
And in pain, I was humbled. It gave me a reminder that I have no control. I am human. It gave me another reason for me to have faith.
So I am grateful for this pain that I feel. I am grateful that I have ability to love. I am grateful to be imperfect.
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