I think it's fair to ask ourselves early on, why are we afraid of just sitting still? Why are we terrified of that? Or irritated by it? Actually it's for you to find out. But I would like to suggest the possibility that we are afraid of ourselves. We are quite literally afraid of ourselves.
In the teachings of Buddha, and particularly the Shambhala Buddhist teachings, one thing that's said is that you don't have to be afraid of yourself. You can be at ease with yourself and your mind. You don't actually have to fill it with all kinds of activities and plans and ambitions to feel wholesome and together, and you can develop a good sense of being present and enjoying the moment and appreciating your life.
But we're not used to that. We're really not used to that. We're used to projects and fulfilling them and succeeding and failing and commenting and etc. etc. etc. Our minds, as you will soon see, have become a run-on sentence -- a James Joyce novel with no punctuation in sight. We'd give our right arm for a semi-colon. A period would be such a relief, a paragraph -- a space between two thoughts.
The beginning point of this practice is what we call making friends with ourselves. That is obviously the ground for making friends with somebody else. You have to have some relationship with yourself to start with before you can communicate skillfully and compassionately with others. This approach is clearly presented in the example of Buddha.
There have been some wonderful moments in my studies when I got to spend time with some truly great lamas (teachers). They were so inspiring just by being who they were. My wife, Cyndi Lee, has this thing she says, "I'll have what she's having," or "I'll have what he's having" -- that's what good teachers should feel like. You should get a direct transmission straight from who that person is. So regarding these wonderful teachers, one of their best aspects is just that you are magnetized by their sense of being. It's royal in a way -- true royalty, not based on wealth and power -- just based on true nobility of spirit.
But once you've found such a teacher, even then they send you off to be with yourself most of the time. There's no Buddhist teacher worth his or her salt who's going to sit there and hold your hand. It just doesn't happen. You get a transmission from this person and they're saying "you can do it". That's one of the things my teacher, Trungpa Rinpoche, used to say repeatedly -- "you can do it!" He had this little squeaky high voice, "you can do it!". But even in the programs where he was present, maybe for eight hours a day or more, people were just doing meditation practice on their own.
So the whole notion of finding mama, who's gonna spiritually milkfeed you, and that somehow by feeding off that person's divinity and accomplishment you can skip the step of developing yourself, is possibly wishful thinking. We do have to go home and we have to pay the bills and we have to relate to our mind. Everything's reminding us of our minds -- it's so annoying. We're late for this thing or that thing, and it reminds us of our mind, and someone's irritating us and it reminds us of our mind, and we fall in love and it reminds us of our mind.
So meditation practice is like saying, "let's get right at it, let's see what's under the hood. Let's stop driving the car around hither and yon and let's just have a look under the hood" -- a friendly look. We need to have a merciful attitude. Sometimes we're too hard on ourselves in a non-productive way. It's very common. And sometimes we're too lazy, also very common. So our approach is learning to find a middle way between being too lazy and being too hard on ourselves -- not too tight and not too loose.
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Thank you for sharing the very helpful information. I have the ideas you've presented on my mind as I head to my cushion this morning. Thanks.
I hope all is well.
Jeff Dietz (Wilmington, DE)
Best, David N.
Also, meditation is a gentle practice. It provides insights into yourself that are in balance with the energy and willingness with which you approach your practice.
This is a technique for yoga meditation: Sit up straight; breathe without controlling the breath; close your eyes, with the gaze lifted slightly without strain to the eyeballs. Just try it, forgive yourself when you forget or do not get to it, and keep at it. You will gain momentum.
I've been struggling with "the cushion" for 6 months now. I know I'm to observe my thoughts while seated...but I never feel completely focused on the task. Also, whenever I sit on the floor, my dog takes that as his cue to play.
sit down, both of them want to play... Doing shamatha meditation you can use an object of meditation... in your case just come back to the feeling of the breath going in and out at the tip of the nose... just come back to that whenever you notice that your mind is wandering ... that's actually the technique and you don't really have to worry about whether you're doing it perfectly or not... it's more important to do it consistently and keep working with whatever comes up.
As for your dog... you could follow the same principle... give your dog a treat or something like that.... your dog's mind will come back to that and your dog will be meditating on the treat, while you meditate on your breath! That way maybe both your dog and your mind can both settle down!
Thank you for your comments.... I plan to submit another post by end of this week and will be submitting regularly... please feel free to write in with any comments or topics you want to discuss further.... All best, David Nichtern