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Notes From a Life Lived Fearlessly

Posted: 05/02/2012 7:00 pm

I guess you could say that I got this Becoming Fearless editor gig by making the study of fearlessness a lifetime habit. Over the past 20 years, I've read practically every book on the subject I could get my hands on, including Arianna's wonderful On Becoming Fearless, JFK's inspiring Profiles in Courage and Rhonda Britten's amazing Fearless Living. (You'll be seeing more of Rhonda on HuffPost Becoming Fearless in the coming weeks.)

I've also studied the fearlessness-related Japanese practice known as kaizen, which focuses on the idea of constant improvement. It basically means never resting on your laurels, expanding your comfort zone and continuously seeking out new opportunities for growth and personal development.

Here's a sampling of some of the "new opportunities for growth" I've pursued over the years [insert screams here]:

I took an emotionally and physically exhausting full-contact self-defense class.

I participated in Spencer Tunick's 2009 Montauk photo installation. (Read: I was photographed and videotaped in the nude... "for art." Naked rock-climbing was involved.)

I masqueraded as a man for a day, and wrote about it for Glamour magazine.

I've been unemployed. Many times.

I've lived without health insurance.

I have asked men out... and been turned down. (Yes, I know: They were idiots.)

I took a 2.5-week solo trip to Argentina with the goal of learning how to tango -- only to find that I can't tango to save my life. ("It's because you are American," my sore-toed teacher finally told me with a sigh.) But while I was in Argentina, I also stayed at an estancia in the Pampas and rode a horse bareback. So the trip wasn't a total loss.

I parachuted from 12,500 feet in an attempt at catharsis; I was trying to rid myself of bad ex vibes. Surprisingly, I did not find the experience cathartic at all. In fact, it was kind of relaxing -- once the parachute opened, of course. A barefoot skydiving dude even whizzed over to me in midair to introduce himself. (Full disclosure: Perhaps I was calm because, at the time, I happened to be strapped to an expert skydiver who was 6'5".)

People who haven't skydived sometimes ask me if that's the scariest thing I've ever done. Here's what I tell them: "No. That's just fear of dying. Fear of living is much, much scarier."

The scariest thing I've ever done in my life was this: I moved to New York City from West Burlington, Iowa (population 3,332). I was 22. I was alone. I had $2,000. My belongings were packed into exactly two suitcases. I had to sleep on my aunt's friend's couch for weeks. I didn't have a group of friends in the city. I didn't have a job lined up. All I had to pin my exorbitant hopes on was a single job interview I'd scheduled. It was for a low-paid editorial assistant position at Glamour, my favorite magazine. And yes, I got the job. Twenty *cough cough* years later I'm still in New York, and still writing.

I used to have a version of the above graph on my LinkedIn profile. But a brilliant business-expert friend of mine told me to take it down. "It's trite," he said. I took it down -- Lord knows I don't want to be trite! But I wonder: Can he begin to imagine what it was like to actually live through that experience? To go for weeks in a (huge) unfamiliar city without getting hired, watching your little nest egg dwindle down, down, down? Crying on the phone to your parents every night and having them beg you to come home? And sticking it out? And making it through? I don't think he can.

Now, of course, I wouldn't trade that experience for all the beans in Mexico. And that's the great thing about becoming fearless, isn't it? It's a self-fulfilling prophecy. The more fears you face, the more fearless you become -- even if you fail (sometimes even because you fail). Your perspective changes, enlarges. It takes a helluva lot more to scare you. So you take on more fears. Bigger ones.

Stay tuned! And if you've got a fearless story of your own, email it to me at fearless@HuffingtonPost.com.

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12:27 AM on 05/09/2012
I don't think its possible to live life fearlessly. Fear is kind of our basic function here. Its just a question of degree. However, it is possible to do things we're afraid to do as opposed to avoiding them. Maybe there's a better way of putting it than "living fearlessly".
11:08 PM on 05/07/2012
Well....I just had this "bucket list" conversation with my dear friend today. As I am now on the north side of 50...I want to do more of the things I have promised to do before I go. Thanks for this excellent article.
08:38 AM on 05/07/2012
"I've read practically every book on the subject I could get my hands on, including Arianna's wonderful On Becoming Fearless, JFK's inspiring Profiles in Courage and Rhonda Britten's amazing Fearless Living." "I've also studied the fearlessness-related Japanese practice known as kaizen, which focuses on the idea of constant improvement. It basically means never resting on your laurels, expanding your comfort zone and continuously seeking out new opportunities for growth and personal development."

Ahh, you do know what color the paint is. But what's underneath?
03:11 AM on 05/04/2012
Now, this seems silly. But at the time.... I used to be one of those women who wouldn't leave the house without full hair and makeup. It was an addiction, clearly. But in my defense, I was a teen in the 80s. Former Madonna/Cindy Lauper wanna-be. About ten years ago, right before Lent started, I decided giving up chocolate or Diet Coke wasn't really doing it for me. I never made it forty days without those two staples. So I thought about what I was really a slave to, and the answer was literally staring me back in the mirror. All that product! So I gave it up for Lent. No makeup. No hair spray. Only sunscreen and much less expensive shampoo & conditioner. I'm so glad I did that. It was a turning point for me. That's when I started embracing "the real me." I'm not opposed to others wearing makeup or hair product. But for me, it really was like an addiction. I think that might be true for most of us who came of age in the 80s.

Okay, I know this doesn't compare to jumping from a plane or moving to NYC. But you're right. I started taking on more and more fears when I was sans makeup. I may not look "new and improved," but I sure feel it. And that's a by-product of fearlessness, isn't it?
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05:02 PM on 05/05/2012
You, lady, are my new hero! I may have gone skydiving, but I don't have the guts to go 40 days without makeup ... yet. A new fearless goal to shoot for!!
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05:56 PM on 05/23/2012
I grew up not far from you in Davenport, so you, of all people, may relate to my Iowa naivete once years ago while young just like you were. I set off on a bicycle trip that took me to Maine then down trough NYC. Nice ride through the city and I met many colorful people. Ended up at the George Washington bridge and, of course, it looked fairly "busy." I did see the tram for pedestrians but I had a bike loaded with full panniers and thought, whatever, I'm just going for it. In retrospect, pretty crazy, but...I started riding across the bridge. Very quickly, a police car, lights on, pulled behind and I received a stern lecture.

Anyway, this is what you'll relate to, I think, causally, I just said, "I'm from Iowa." I'm laughing thinking about it. Funny thing, I was naively sincere and that worked for me everywhere along my way to my final destination in Key West. Fearlessly, I just plugged along and didn't know any better and strangely enough, even now, decades later I still don't worry and just follow whatever dream I imagine.

Although, haven't made it to Australia yet, seems my family is afraid, if I go, I'll never return. I've often thought, they're very likely right. An aside, but, one of the things I love most about Australians, I've always known they're among the most adventuresome people in the world or they're overwhelmingly fearless too.
04:32 PM on 05/03/2012
Like you, moving to NYC was absolutely one of the scariest things I've ever done (the night before I moved, I had an "Out of Towners" nightmare in which I was Sandy Dennis running through Central Park). Does your definition of fearlessness mean an absence of fear? I've found that when the times I'm truly fearless its because I didn't have the common sense to be afraid.
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03:51 PM on 05/05/2012
"Out of Towners" nightmares! YES! I've definitely had my share of those -- usually as the result of some sort of mass-transit snafu. Love your point about fearlessness and common sense, or lack thereof. Personally, I agree w/ Arianna that it's not a case of "I have no fear" but of "Screw it! Damn the torpedoes!" (Although she put it a lot more beautifully, lol.)
01:11 AM on 05/09/2012
"I've found that when the times I'm truly fearless it's because I didn't have the common sense to be afraid." LOL My sister says the same thing. She's made chocolate chip cookies for 1000 male inmates on a prison island in Columbia (they all had access to machetes because it was a thick jungle island). She's spear hunted sharks from a tiny canoe in Columbia, photographed a bear as it approached her (til the last photo showed only it's snout), photographed a huge nest of eastern rattlesnakes because the opportunity was there, and told a Masai man with a huge spear to get his cattle out of her garden (apparently when in Kenya you don't tell the Masai to get out of your garden without risking your life, according to her Kenyan co-workers, after the fact, of course). Truly, God only knows why she is alive today! She's the most fearless woman ... person I know. She'd say she's the stupidest. Others say she's crazy. Fine lines, I suppose.
01:28 PM on 05/03/2012
You are one of the bravest people I know and I'm honored to call you my friend. Keep up the good work girlfriend! Love you!
11:44 AM on 05/03/2012
Whoa! You went skydiving? That takes guts. But not the kind of guts it takes to start from scratch. I, too, have moved to NYC with barely a few thou in my pocket and agree that it's the scariest thing one can do. Kudos to you for rocking it up, down and sideways!