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Erica Heller

Erica Heller

Posted January 17, 2009 | 11:55 AM (EST)

The Audacity of Hopelessness


It's getting harder these days to be cranky, to stay curmudgeonly.

It can still be done, of course, it's just that right now, it requires much more of an effort than usual. And curmudgeons resent that, in fact, that's an integral part of being a curmudgeon.

But really, who could possibly have taken a single glance at the Obama family earlier this week, touring the Lincoln Memorial, cool and crisp in their in their perfect January toggery, and remained stoic? (Not to mention the fact that only a monster with a heart of steel or stone could not have missed the fact that Michelle looks better than anyone has a right to in a white, quilted down jacket, when even the most lithe and anorectic supermodels look like fullbacks in the same winter wear.)

With the inauguration only a scant 3 days and 6 minutes away, hope is in sight. Relief, regardless of how long it takes and how it arrives, is on the way. It's hard not to beam like human klieg lights, to be so proud of the way we have comported ourselves, sending a fickle fellow back to the Senate and an incompetent couture-grabber back to Alaska, while sending the best of the best on to Washington to do a job that makes the patience of Job (and the feats of Jobs) look like kindergarten.

Still, if I want to experience even a brief frisson of the old rage and familiar, mind-numbing, incomparable despair, I have only to watch Bush's last babbling, Cheney's last televised snooze, and realize and remember how much death and destruction they have caused, the colorful riot of catastrophe they have painted again and again around our country and the world. And the fact that odds are, they and their cronies are not headed for war crimes trials in The Hague but rather to cushy retirements, the lecture circuit, lucrative book deals; memoirs conceived through the clouded, tinted lenses of smarmy narcissism, revisionist history and the most stupendously alarming, stubborn kind of reality-defying psychosis.

Snarky cynic, curmudgeon or not, I find that unbridled glee can indeed coexist with a sickening wave of rage. It's a delicate balance indeed but no, the past eight years can be neither forgotten nor forgiven.

Even if it's unseemly, some things may just be worth staying angry about, even as we pat ourselves on the back, smile broadly at tomorrow and exuberantly turn the page.

It's getting harder these days to be cranky, to stay curmudgeonly. It can still be done, of course, it's just that right now, it requires much more of an effort than usual. And curmudgeons resent tha...
It's getting harder these days to be cranky, to stay curmudgeonly. It can still be done, of course, it's just that right now, it requires much more of an effort than usual. And curmudgeons resent tha...
 
 
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02:19 PM on 01/22/2009
can Ms. Heller write or what? regardless of her opinions, (and i assume the posture of an 'impartial observer' for the purposes of this comment), this is some deliciously readable symphony of superlative constructs, vivid imagery, and rich kaleidoscopic color. somebody hook me up with her archives, pls!
04:13 PM on 01/19/2009
Liberals can't forgive the simple fact that Bush was elected president in 2000 and then did things that liberals don't like. (Liberals label the act of doing something they don't like a "crime.") But then, they couldn't forgive the fact that Ronald Reagan had become president in 1980, or that George H.W. Bush had been elected in 1988.
04:43 PM on 01/19/2009
I speak not for liberals, but for Americans. I am a conservative independent, who voted for Bush in 2000, and for Ronald Reagan.

I can't forgive our tolerance for greed, dishonesty and promotion of self, in the face of suffering and neglect of our middle and poorest classes.

I can't forgive the sacrifice of over 4,000 American lives, and over 10 times that many foreign lives, on behalf of a war without terms and a cause, justified by deceit and blind ambition for wealth and oil.

I can't forgive ongoing tolerance and championing of ignorance, triviality and cynicism - of belittling those who are the most selfless, and heralding those who prosper at the expense of others.

I can't forgive an entire administration built around the concept of taking responsibility for nothing, and blaming others for everything. I can't forgive being viewed as too naive to speak honestly to, and too incompetent to participate in the Democracy we so proudly boast.

Most of all, I can't forgive those who continue to mock and belittle those of us who seek a rebirth of compassion and hope. Honor and sacrifice. Honesty and trust. Those for whom it is all about being right - never about pitching in and doing what's right.

Your petty intolerance grows thin and weak in the face of real hope and change. I wish you a good look in the mirror, and the courage to admit you can be better.
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04:47 PM on 01/19/2009
Normally I would list the actual crimes GWB committed during the past eight years but not today...and not tomorrow either.

It's over and 80% of the country is elated that it is! You are obviously one of the 20% who weren't horrified by our soon-to-be-gone POTUS. If 80% of the country is liberal then what does that make the lower 20? Middle of the road?

We are leaving you behind. The world is changing. A Progressive black man with Hussein for a middle name has been elected by a landslide over one of your most moderate republicans. Get over it, join us in the future!
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hotmom
03:57 PM on 01/19/2009
Well said SunnyT!
pamela18335
Ignorance can be fixed; stupid is incurable
03:31 PM on 01/19/2009
It is my intention to fully experience the joy of today, and tomorrow's inauguration. I'm going to absolutely WALLOW in it, and in the fact that at least 50+% of this country came to its senses and chose the right candidate as President. I am going to remember what it feels like to be proud to be an American, and stand up tall as the rest of the world watches and hears: " I, Barack Hussein Obama, do solemnly swear...".

And on Wednesday, I am going to find a local group that needs volunteers and offer my services.

Just as importantly, I am also going to send a communication to Nancy Pelosi at http://www.speaker.gov/contact and to my two Senators and my Representative, demanding that an investigation into the crimes of Bush/Cheney et al be commenced. If enough of us do the same, she and they will HAVE to listen, and take some action.

The Obama campaign began as a grassroots action, and look where it ended. We can apply the same grassroots activity to getting Bush and Company held accountable for their actions.

Anyone with me?
04:05 PM on 01/19/2009
Well....by the flood of replies to your post, no, I guess not. Give the investigation thing a rest.
04:08 PM on 01/19/2009
NO.
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02:06 PM on 01/19/2009
Yep. All of that may be true. It's like the two angels on our shoulders. Which will we choose? Will we choose to fuel the fire of anger and stay stuck in the past, or will we jump into the cool stream of hope and let that carry us forward?

As they go, we can let them go. We can let it all go. Let the abusers be as they are, and say what they will, and get left behind. They robbed all the promise of the last eight years from us, but we won't allow them to corrupt this moment, this day, this change and our future. We can continually find ways to support this change, but we have to give up our addiction to negativity, to knee-jerk reactions and thoughts of retribution.

Let's focus on today and on the bright hope of tomorrow's inauguration. Let's focus on the America we believe in. Let's get started supporting the change we voted for. Let's do our best to spread the hope to our family members and friends and neighbors. There is so much to do! And each one of us is needed to do it.
04:15 PM on 01/19/2009
indeed. thank you SunnyT.
10:25 PM on 01/19/2009
I'm sorry, but I don't think most of us have any right to forgive Bush.

If the American soldiers who've been wounded in Iraq or the visionless morass of Afghanistan forgive Bush, then that's their right. If the families of soldiers who've lost loved ones in those wars can forgive him, then that's their right. If the hundreds of thousands of Iraqi and Afghani civilians who've been killed or wounded in the wars can forgive him, then that's their right. If those who've been tortured in one of our overseas prison camps can forgive him, then that's their right.

If those who've lost their jobs and homes, if those who were trapped in New Orleans after Katrina, if those children who've been failed and those teachers who've been frustrated by No Child Left Behind can forgive him, then that's their right.

But Bush has never harmed me directly, and so my hatred for him is on behalf of those he's hurt and killed, and I wouldn't presume to speak in their place.
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01:38 PM on 01/25/2009
here here!
01:10 PM on 01/19/2009
Its not that hard. Of course bush is gone but obama's message isn't different that Bush's, They both offered change and unity etc. We now know Bush was just blowing smoke, we can only hope Obama will be different. He is adamant to continue the war on dugs A.K.A. me and all my freinds. I am super happy to see Bush gone, but now we are looking forward to Obama leaving and the prospect of the next president.
02:47 PM on 01/19/2009
you'll never find what you're looking for until you look inside yourself, alas
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The National Inquire of Politics the GOP!
12:02 PM on 01/19/2009
Bush will some day stand in front of his maker and have to answer to the misery he put on the world not only as a American but a human being i hope he can sleep well because when he closes his eyes for the last time there will be no time for remorse!
12:51 PM on 01/19/2009
It is all well - Karma will come a-calling.
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Mikeeee
Private corps can't do it better!!!
02:07 PM on 01/19/2009
Karma? Meeting his maker? Words such as these insult every child who suffers from cancer, MS or a long list of other painful n debilitating diseases. It also insults the 4,000+ soldiers and the million+ Iraqis who have died because of this group of people.
What was it exactly that they did to deserve such Karma?
Pffft to both your comments and the insults in them.
03:58 PM on 01/19/2009
deni1953,

Please keep in mind that George W. Bush would have NEVER had the opportunity to do what he has done had it not been for the "Supreme Court in 2000" and the American people in 2004 whovoted for him.
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Oonagh
Old sins have long shadows
10:58 AM on 01/19/2009
Amazing... a man that came into office and proclaimed to be the one to unite the country.... He was the divider... and at that he could not have done a better job.
11:31 AM on 01/19/2009
Ain't that the truth!
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03:31 PM on 01/19/2009
Of course, given that the 2000 election was so narrow, half the country was divided before Bush ever took office and was never disposed to give any credibility to anything Bush said or did from that point forward. In fact, most of the last 8 years has been a non-stop parade of ankle biting.

Now it remains to be seen whether the other half will pay back in kind, but I am not optimistic that the Republicans will turn the other cheek. Which is why things never seem to change in U.S. politics - In fact, the partisans seem to get worse on all sides.
09:02 PM on 01/18/2009
Good Riddance is saying it lightly... its been more like the traitor is gone, and its time for America to begin its healing process.

Cheney is the same, he is a dishonoured ole koger who should be ashamed of having let down America, but being rich as NOW bush is too ! why should they care ? there is no Middle Class in
america, as it is in Mexico...if you are not RICH well.....guess what you are ? "dirt poor"

Nobody is middle of the road, if you think you are, well think again and wait another 40 or more years
like some of us yuppies have...all for nothing.. another yuppie let us down and now its up to the kids
of tomorrow to hustle and I mean hard hustling to get this country back in shape as it was when the
gas was back under that dollar.
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05:02 PM on 01/19/2009
So which are you - Rich or dirt poor?
03:52 PM on 01/18/2009
For Joy! I am back! For a few years I was 'disabled'? or merely catch 22'ed away from Huffington. Although a faithful reader I was not able to post. But today I was inspired and tried again and here I am!!

I am so heartened to read so many intelligent commentaries about the anger against the Bush administration. Constructive anger, full of expectations for accountability. Today Pelosi is feeling the heat about 'investigations', not impeachment but that is very positive if we are to regain the real meaning of our constitutional republic.

So many good comments but I would particularly like to express appreciation to Pandora1 who can ... 'forgive Bush his stupidity but not his ignorance...or lack of self-awareness and outright deception'.
10:43 AM on 01/18/2009
Unfortunately, I still get highly irritated by watching MSM. I know I am not the only one. Do not watch MSM in am or before you need to read, study or perform to the best of your ability.

I am now a fan of cspan.

Along with Bush/Cheney MSM (NBC and Fox) also need to be tired as criminals. At the very least a "WARNING" should be posted before "News" noting that what they are about to view is not accurate and just opinions by those who want to keep you suppressed and poor.
12:17 PM on 01/19/2009
Have you ever watched LINK TV? This and CSPAN are the best. Link has very good world coverage no spin.
04:50 PM on 01/19/2009
I do not watch MSM anymore, for any reason. Not even MSNBC, where at least my views are generally shared. Nonetheless, they do it with the same bias and spin that turns me from Fox - it is no different.

If 50 million Americans joined me, this problem would dissolve quickly. This is not ocmplicated, like curing cancer or solving global warming. Turn them off. Don't turn them back on. The curiousity and, frankly, boredom that drives us back to them even though we are angered by what "news" has become is EXACTLY the addiction they know they can count on for ratings.

Turn them off - and they go away. It is that simple.
03:35 AM on 01/18/2009
We need to stop blaming Bush and blame ourselves for allowing such a person to become POTUS for eight years. If we don't, it could happen again.
11:36 PM on 01/18/2009
Unless they are taken to court and penalized, this will happen again in 4 or 8 more years. History will go back and laugh at us, as we struggle to pay another mortgage and healthcare bill. They HAVE TO BE TRIED in court of law!
11:20 AM on 01/19/2009
That's hitting the nail on the head, bigtime. Even tho BushCo stole many votes in 2004, many of the sheeple cast their heinous votes for someone who had already been tearing down our country for the first four years by hiding behing 911 and terrorism and manipulating minds that refused to think for themselves.
mountaingal
Liberty and justice for all.
12:17 AM on 01/18/2009
What Bush and Cheney did was criminal. They violated a treaty that the US signed on to over 50 years ago. As violators of the Geneva Convention we Americans have to protect our good name and prosecute them. If we don't it is no longer a Bush/Cheney crime it is an AMERICAN crime and all of us are branded with the same disgrace. Have a committee look into the torture issue--both Bush and Cheney very loudly and proudly offered their confessions on record--and then prosecute. The world needs to know that the Bush/Cheney Torture Club was an anomoly--not the way we do business. Besides, if any of the Bush cabinet should find themselves in a country that is a signer of the treaty it is that country's duty to arrest and try them. Better us than another nation doing the right thing.
04:47 AM on 01/19/2009
I have a suspicion that the 'Patriot Act' was meant to absolve this administration from guilt in these issues.
10:58 PM on 01/17/2009
amen
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breakingpoint
War is a Racket - Smedley Butler
10:47 PM on 01/17/2009
stay skeptical and vigilant, it's your civic duty.