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Letting It All Hang Out: How I Made Peace With My Small Boobs

Posted: 07/18/11 04:00 PM ET

Last January, I stopped wearing a bra. I haven't put one back on since.

I don't remember buying my first bra. I just know that at some point around age 12 I started wearing one -- long before I "needed" to. There wasn't much to support, as friends in my 8th grade dance class informed me, joking that they could cut an apple on my chest. It wasn't funny then, but I suppose I can laugh about it now since I just bought my first cutting board and I don't see much of a resemblance.

Over the next 10 years, as I graduated from high school and college, I also graduated from a kitchen accessory to a solid A, while clasping a bra around my chest every day in between.

Then, seven months ago, I had a brassiere epiphany. After waiting just a little too long to do my laundry, I ran out of bras. I could have forced myself to head to the laundry room right then, or worn the less than fresh Cosabella number I'd worn the day before, but I realized the only visible difference for me between wearing and not wearing a bra was a bulky bra line. So I didn't wear one. Yes, I went braless.

Sure, my boobs had a bit more point to them than before, but that's how they're made to look, right? Other than that, nothing terrible happened. No chafing, no slips, no perverted stares directed downwards. In fact, when I confided in my friends that I was bra-free, they admitted they couldn't tell. I suddenly thought, what if I could be this free all the time?

It was as if I had finally opened my eyes. That was that. Since then, it's just been me and my small boobs, hanging out together. And I'm happy.

I wish everybody else could be happy like this too, but today it seems we women are more insecure with our size than ever. Today, large breasts wield tremendous power, and the truth is we -- women -- are partly to blame for supporting that status quo.. This past year alone, 300,000 women put themselves under the knife for breast augmentation surgery. 300,000 women felt that unhappy with their bodies. For what? Certainly not for ourselves, as one major risk of the surgery is losing the best thing your breasts give you: sexual pleasure. To add insult to injury (literally), last month the FDA issued a new warning. Ladies, while the loss of sensation may be lifelong, your silicone implants may not be. According to a new report, at least one-in-five women will need her implants removed due to serious health complications. These are complications that far exceed the perceived problems of having small(er) breasts: Implant rupture, scar tissue hardening, breast wrinkling, and in the most unfortunate and rare cases, anaplastic large cell lymphoma. Let me repeat, removal due to these complications isn't a one-in-a-million chance. It's one in five.

Do women not know the risks involved, or do we just not care? I believe it's the former, not the latter, because you know what else has a one in five risk? Smoking. In the United States, one in five Americans die each year due to tobacco use. The difference is that while massive nationwide campaigns are shifting our impressions of smoking towards taboo, breast implants haven't lost their sex appeal... yet.

So ladies, this is my appeal to you. Don't hold yourself to ideals of epic proportions. Let's just all hang out, together.

 
Last January, I stopped wearing a bra. I haven't put one back on since. I don't remember buying my first bra. I just know that at some point around age 12 I started wearing one -- long before I "ne...
Last January, I stopped wearing a bra. I haven't put one back on since. I don't remember buying my first bra. I just know that at some point around age 12 I started wearing one -- long before I "ne...
 
 
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03:18 PM on 08/26/2011
The worst part of this is, the transit commissionrefuse tooreplace my breasts that I paid$5000 dollars for andtore place them now due to the serious stretchingof my breat tissue I need a lift and new sailene bags which will now cost me $10 500.oo to redue. They took a huge part of what made me confident away and I am stuck in a time warp..i feeel jipped and in more way's than 1 , they are refuseing to take resposibillity for what they did too my life....I am on ODSP becausei will never be able to work again..( no- thanks to the MTCC-------thanks fortakeing my life away...not just my boobs...which didnt help my already deppression about this situation..........no comments please...this is a very delicate topic for me but needed to get it out of my brain......so that i may be ableto come to peace with it one day...thank you for listening....
03:09 PM on 08/26/2011
I was made fun of all my teen years for having torpido shaped boobs.I grew a serious complex about this. sure they stood up but just a little too up and pointy.I turned 23 and bought my first bag of boobs.I was the proud owner of two 400 cc bags of nice boobs and didnt mind showing them off. i finally felt like a real woman.nearly 4 years ago i had an accident on a transit bus line, my beautifu breasts that i grew to really appreciate-Feb 11 2009 I had to get them removed due to the impact they took on the bus (my being a passenger) It took away all ofeverything female away from me leaving me with no confidence once again. i look in the mirror and cry - because i remenis on the taunting i got as a teenager . im 45 now and i miss my womany shape. deppression sustained.....
08:07 PM on 08/08/2011
Until I read Hallie Seegal's post and many of the comments that followed, I felt I was the only person who chose to go braless these days. To me being small was a blessing and not a curse because I could go braless and not draw attention. There are three reasons women should go braless – comfort (the number one reason I don’t wear a bra) but also the environment (if women discard bras and don’t replace them with other garments they are reducing their environmental footprint (manufacturing, shipping, cleaning and disposing bras) and health. I have seen a few hardly noticed studies claiming bras could be unhealthy.

Then there is the other big question – visible bra straps are ugly and why it that women obsess over visible panty lines but not visible bra lines under clothes? Isn’t smooth better?
04:51 AM on 08/04/2011
Being a guy I find women's curves to be enchanting but the ones I like to be around most, or are the most satisfying as freinds and coworkers; are those who are bright, energetic, able to empathize and help others.
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Edward Wilkes
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04:18 PM on 08/02/2011
Thank god for creating the female breast, in all shapes and sizes! Perfect idea, Thank you god!!!
06:08 PM on 07/27/2011
Let me share my experience with you…I am a Board Certified Plastic Surgeon and each year I perform hundreds of cosmetic breast surgeries and after almost 18 years of practice, a few things stand out…
The far majority of women in my practice are not insecure, nor unhappy with themselves. They are confident, self assured and simply looking to balance their figures and give a better proportion in clothing. They don’t feel bad about themselves..On the contrary…They feel really good about the way they look ..and want a little more of that feeling..
The far majority ARE doing it for themselves. I can’t tell you the number of uninterested men I have sitting in my exam room all telling me the same thing…”This is her thing…I’m fine with the way she is”..Now, they may not mind the result after, but in the beginning…they’re pretty indifferent.
The far majority DO understand the risks (sensation loss, rare), and yes there are some that will need further surgery in the future (20% removal sounds high…re-operation..maybe), and it’s my job to explain this. And almost all of my patients tell me the same thing…”This is the BEST thing I ever did for myself”
From a personal view, most of the men I know feel the same about breasts that women feel about hair on their man’s head….not necessary!
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Edward Wilkes
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04:16 PM on 08/02/2011
You are saying this because you think women will change their minds about asking for your services.
10:46 PM on 08/03/2011
Edward: I know that because this is my livelyhood and profession that it is really easy to view this as self serving...But with over 300,000 women doing this a year in the U.S. I am not changing anyones mind....They are choosing this for themselves and if they have any doubts at all, then they should not do it...But again, I really am sharing with you my experience and again invite anyone that wants to visit my practice and listen to and meet these women who are choosing to do this...And because this is my profession I do feel the need to correct misinformation, and although that always appears self serving, it really is education...and after getting the correct information, then women can decide for themselves.
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amantedelibros
10:33 PM on 09/05/2011
Hi Doc...this is a bit off-topic, but it's not always that I have a plastic surgeon available. I've always wondered why some plastic surgeons continue to perform procedures on women who've had numerous plastic surgeries (I'm not including necessary ones because of a disfigurement). Specifically, I'm referring to women like the NY socialite who no longer resembles herself, but bears more resemblance to a wild cat. At what point does a doctor say "no" when he or she can see for themselves that this person has had too many surgeries.

Finally, back to the topic...perhaps the female patients who get breast augmentations in your practice are as you say they are, but I know that when I was 21 and had a fleeting thought of getting implants, it was because I felt insecure about myself. Having a boyfriend who openly admired large breasts and made me feel inadequate didn't help. Dumped him and let go of my insecurity and never got the implants. I feel great about myself today and am glad I didn't compromise my body by altering it. Anyway, thanks for your input.
03:02 PM on 09/07/2011
Amante, glad to hear from you. So as far as the Cat Woman, I couldn't agree more. I don't know who is doing this type of work but my guess is probably multiple people. That is the ugly side of my profession and fortunately, not the norm from my experience. I think these doctors get caught up in the craziness, like their patients do, and soon reality begins to slide. Any self respecting Plastic Surgeon turns away a number of prospective patients for a number of reasons. I do all the time. As far as your own experience, I think you felt good about yourself but had a "fleeting" thought about getting implants because of a temporary insecurity brought on by someone else...I think we all get those from time to time, but they are usually as fleeting as the relationship! And you felt strong enough to know better and dumped him...And rather than a fleeting thought, most women I see tell me that they have thought about it for YEARS, and was not really associated with one individual. But you are right. There still are too many that do it for the wrong reason and had you stayed in that relationship for a longer period of time, you may have been one of them. But I think overall, you were pretty happy with yourself..But don't discount the feelings of the ones who get it and love it!!! Dr Corey www.doctorcorey.com
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Catherine in Tulsa
Not mother?
01:23 PM on 07/27/2011
they are still going to droop and become saggy, regardless of the fact that they are small. So you still need to wear a bra.
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amantedelibros
10:36 PM on 09/05/2011
She doesn't need a bra. Bras are uncomfortable, especially those underwire ones. And if they droop and sag, they won't have far to go. So, stay as you are Hallie.
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Catherine in Tulsa
Not mother?
05:05 PM on 09/08/2011
there's nothing sadder than saggy little boobies.
10:30 AM on 07/26/2011
The sad part about this article and the comments on it are that as a natural DD, I'm now feeling pretty crappy about my chest. Rather than putting down women of different sizes - we should celebrate each other as we are.
09:02 AM on 07/27/2011
You've got your first fan! Spot on! Woman of all sizes (and not just chest sizes) should be celebrated. A size 14 is as beautiful (or more beautiful in my eyes but that shouldn't matter) as a size 4.
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amantedelibros
10:48 PM on 09/05/2011
Celebrate the way God made you. Doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. Same goes for those of us that were not so endowed on top. We're all unique and should all be celebrated. If we all looked the same, it would be boring.
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gemmax
07:08 AM on 07/26/2011
Bras are a pain. I threw mine away years ago. I like to dress beautifully and leave much to the imagination, though.I guess you could call me a natural. I don't like metal jewelry. I think the most beautiful thing about all people male and female is their smile, and their self confidence.
09:11 PM on 07/25/2011
I actually like wearing a bra. I have small A's and could most likely get away with not wearing one, but honestly wearing a bra makes me feel comfortable. I would be just as uncomfortable going without a bra in one of my standard t-shirts (halter tops and other shirts meant to be worn without a bra non-withstanding) as I would be wearing a mini-skirt without underwear, while sitting on the floor.

I'm happy for the women who find their freedom and acceptance of their bodies by not wearing a bra, but it's not for me.

And my bra is lightly padded, thank you very much. Not because I secretly hate my small breasts or feel particularly insecure about them, but because I like the shape they have (in my t-shirt, in my padded bra), they're comfortable to wear, and I never have to worry about everyone in the room knowing when I'm a bit chilly.

Oh, and thank you to all of the male commenters on here - it's nice to have confirmation that I'm not the only one out there who thinks my size boobs are pretty awesome.
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amantedelibros
10:40 PM on 09/05/2011
I agree. I think the key is if you like wearing them, wear them (though they didn't make too many pretty ones for A's, nearly A's or between A's-B's until the last few years) and if you don't like wearing them, don't. I wear them when I'm in business attire. But at home, on weekends, I'm in my sports bra or without as it's much more comfortable. And I'm glad to see men who like women, small breasted or large breasted, tall or short, size 4 or size more. There is someone for everyone :)
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Wally Parnel
08:15 PM on 07/25/2011
Women with large boobs are fun to see and watch, but if you want a sincere lover, smaller breasted women are better lovers. My 2 cents. How a women carry themselves is what makes them so sexy, big or small.
01:19 PM on 07/26/2011
Thank you so much for telling me that my DDs make me insincere. I really appreciate being told that I'm worth less as a partner because of my natural figure. Cheers for that.
09:05 AM on 07/27/2011
milenamiss, you are fanned! Spot on!
10:29 AM on 07/25/2011
Believe me ladies, after a lifetime of experience, I can emphatically state that if a woman is mentally attractive enough to hold a man's attention then her breasts ARE the right size. regardless of what she may think!
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05:51 AM on 07/25/2011
This article is SEVERELY lacking in illustrations.
09:36 PM on 07/24/2011
I've always preferred perkiness over all other qualities.

Gravity takes its toll on us all.
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FloridaLAW
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07:20 PM on 07/24/2011
It sounds like Hallie is in the same situation my girlfriend is in. I will admit to normally being attracted to women who are larger than she is up top but she more than makes up for it with a spectacular bottom so it's all good and I would never want her to do anything that would lose the sensitivity that she has with her small boobs.