Need a Miracle?

When all else fails and your family and friends are out of suggestions, there is always Google. I'm not gonna lie. Throughout my life when I'm alone and confused, I type random things into Google such as, "What should I do with my life?" Then I spend the next hour or two scouring through the suggestions reaped by the trusty search engine.

Recently, I found myself on Google doing some "research." I was having a particularly bad night and typed in the following: "I need a miracle." To my surprise, I immediately found several websites that offered to pray for miracles for free! "Need a miracle?" one site rhetorically begs the question. Though some of the webpages asked for donations, most did not. Most of the sites happily obliged prayer requests without any mention of monetary compensation. Just check out Prayers Online.net. This page simply asks that you spread the word about their site so that others may find them and request miracles too.

I left my prayer request in the comments section where the web host individually prays for whomever leaves one. I wasn't going to stop there, I needed a miracle, I was no amateur and this was serious; I knew that if a miracle was to occur, I needed to hedge my bets. So I went back to my Google search and found another site, Blessed Miracle.com. This site has a very nice post about miracles on its homepage. On another page you can write your prayer request and send it to them. "Please send your prayer requests to us. We would like to pray for you!" Well you don't have to tell me twice, already sent!

I waited a few days but nothing happened. I decided to revisit the site to find out if I did something wrong? Sure enough, per usual, I forgot to read the directions, well in this case, I forgot to read the disclaimer:

My dear friend, sometimes the answer to our prayers is not what we ask for specifically. This is because God knows better than us what we need, and he gives us what we need, not what we want. So, we may find ourselves beating our heads and pulling out our hair because we have not gotten what we wanted, what we thought we needed.

That reminds me of a song...

I will admit to you the sad truth: I was playing dumb, and I'm sure God saw right through my antics. I already knew that sometimes the answers to your prayers come in the form of no answer or nothing happening at all. It is not until months and sometimes years later that you realize why not getting what you wanted this or that particular time was really a blessing in disguise.

I am still pretty bummed about my prayer not being answered in the way I hoped or my miracle not being delivered in the way I envisioned, I know that this too shall pass. Until then, I have my friends, family, and trusty search engine, Google, to rely on and most importantly I will try to remember something a very wise man once said:

"You Can't Always Get What You Want" -- The Rolling Stones

Do you have any examples in which you did not get what you wanted and it ended up being a good thing in the end? Please share in the comments section!

Thanks,

Hayley

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Comments

[MatthewGeorge]

09:37 PM on 01/24/2012

Great post. Yeah, I have prayed for miracles and God has let me see that He does things differently than I pray sometimes. So with that I have been disappointed sometimes as well because I did not get the answer I was hoping for, but I know that when I am in heaven there will be a clear understanding of why God handled requests in the way He did. And to that I say, to the glory of God. BTW, thanks for the link to PrayersOnline.net I hope that it is a resource of blessing to many people that need prayer. Sometimes we just need to take the time to be still long enough to hear God's voice and I think that writing out your request to God can be a great exercise to focus on God rather than be distracted from all the things around us. Godbless and I hope that God does wonderful things in your life, Hayley. :)

[Claude Hosch]

07:33 PM on 01/22/2012

I was going on a road trip very early one morning. Ready to go I had a strong urge to get back in bed for thirty minutes, and did for exactly 30 min. Forty minutes into my drive I came upon an accident that involved both lanes. I naturally asked when it happened, and was surprised when the words "thirty minutes ago' were uttered. I feel like obedience spared me that day.

[Imago1122]

12:32 AM on 01/18/2012

People who've reported miracles in their lives have often described, in the lead up to the miraculous event, similar patterns of toil---the effort directed toward goal attainment, surviving & escaping an attack, overcoming an illness---followed by the act of surrendering into a space where they've become at peace with the outcome, whatever that is. It is from this space, sometimes, that they take a quantum leap forward---into the realization of their dream or out of the jaws of danger.

For me, a chance encounter with a cab driver while traveling in W. Africa a few years ago turned out to be how I discovered an obscure steroid used in cancer treatment that my doctors in Canada weren't aware could be the most effective means of banishing the scars & chronic pain I incurred as a result of a terrible accident in my late teens.

Now, in my thirties, & free of it all, I realize that if my trousers hadn't torn between the legs & I hadn't needed a ride to the market place on that humid afternoon in Lagos I wouldn't have run into this driver, & very probably my dermatologists would've continued being powerless as regarding my treatment.

& the fact I lost much of my twenties being a recluse, running my dogs only at night, has actually served me well in the long run. I enjoy solitude now & I'm a deeper person as a result of this particular trial, less prone to superficiality, than I would

[Hayley Rose Horzepa]

01:27 PM on 01/18/2012

It is truly amazing how so many little seemingly benign events add up to something truly life changing as you've described.

I really like how you pointed out the toil people go through before experiencing miracles or breakthroughs. When I am in a bad place and finally think I hit rock bottom, something else happens and rock bottom is much deeper than I thought- I think the key is not giving up at this point- like you said - that's when truly miraculous things occur.

Thank-you for sharing your touching story.

[Imago1122]

02:26 PM on 01/18/2012

I definitely go through my own periods of darkness and hellish doubt. I think this is where personal metaphors come into play. Two of my favorites involve the sea---one can be lost at sea for instance or stuck between the devil and the deep blue sea or seaworthy---and I draw on them, admittedly not always successfully, during times of upheaval and transition. I like the image of the Night Sea Journey---the lone ship crossing the great fathomless expanse of the black ocean; the surrendered embryo suspended in its amniotic fluid. And I enjoy the legend of the albatross, a legendary indefatigable ocean wanderer, at home in the primordial element where the sea is often temperamental and winds howl seemingly forever. Albatrosses are at home in the wind; they need it in fact; they thrive on its often violent emotions, and thus they are lovers of change. Within change, they are still & powerful & confident. Change is how they circumnavigate the globe.

As you said, the key's to keep striving amidst frustrations. I suspect however that beyond the sweat is the point where surrendering is our transmutation, the point of departure, the alchemical medium. After we've put in the work, we become powerful in the surrender---in the flow---when the ego is submerged and almost anything becomes possible because, paraphrasing the late poet Ted Hughes, we're so totally disciplined, we've become completely free.