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The Beauty of Looking Inward

Posted: 06/05/10 09:00 AM ET

I live in Beverly Hills, California where looking good is the number one pastime. I can't imagine a place where more money is spent on hair, makeup, nails and clothing, and that's just on pets. Seriously, though, the amount of time, effort and treasure put into our outsides is nothing short of astounding. That's why when I read Sunny Gold's recent piece called, "We Don't Just Need A Body Image Revolution, We Need An 'Aging Image' One!," I had to smile. Sunny is a beautiful young woman who is looking inward instead of outward to change a woman's image. Her focus is on the beauty of meaning.

The same is true for Arianna Huffington, who leads the charge of many causes, including one for natural beauty, and looking deeper than the surface of her latest wrinkle. Her focus is on the beauty of meaning.

As one who has overcome an eating disorder, I have had to recognize that I was so much more than a body. I had to find my connection to something from deep within if I was going to flourish. As long as I continued to look outside for self-validation and therefore meaning, not only was I at the mercy of others, the fickleness of taste and changing tide of trends, but also without a compass by which to steer.

Like so many of us, I had done everything and anything I could to distract myself from myself. We use addictions, compulsions, TV, work and yes, even wrinkles. We'll try anything to distract ourselves, because if we don't, we come face to face with not only our being alone, but also our fear that we are somehow impotent and therefore incapable of making things any better. We become stuck in the mud or our own helplessness (the wrinkles) and hopelessness (ridiculously expensive potions that don't work or Botox).

Here are three suggestions that helped me to find meaning inside and escape the tyranny of wrinkles (think Sharpe):

1. There is nothing wrong with me. Each and every one of us is not only unique; we also possess everything we need to make a success out of our lives. I know it may not always appear that way, but to think otherwise is to believe that God plays favorites, giving some "lucky" souls more than they can use and others, less than they need. It also feeds beliefs of hopelessness, helplessness and victimhood.

The truth of our strength is in what we have already overcome and that we are searching for new and better ways to manage our lives. You have already taken the first steps (which are always the most difficult) by reading this far and not giving up. The next step is just one more step and the one following that. In fact, right now is probably a great time to celebrate your last victory, no matter how long ago or recent, by doing something nice and healthy for yourself.

2. My body is not my enemy -- it is my teacher. Your body is invariably right and will tell you what is right for you, as long as you are willing to listen. The next time that little voice that is trying its best to move you in a more healthy direction speaks, pay attention. In fact, I found out that the more attention I paid to it, the more it offered great suggestions at exactly the right time.

3. What we fight holds on tight. As the Borg from Star Trek have told us on many occasions, "Resistance is futile." Our minds are put together in such a way that what we pay attention to, it pays attention to, positive or negative. If we focus on the positive, so does it. If we focus on the negative, so does it. The choice is fully ours.

For those of you who use affirmations (or are planning to), I offer the following hint: Always state them positively, as in "I am growing more healthy everyday," instead of "I will no longer eat unhealthy foods." Accentuate the positive. Eliminate the negative. Latch on to the affirmative. And don't mess with Mister-In-between.

 
I live in Beverly Hills, California where looking good is the number one pastime. I can't imagine a place where more money is spent on hair, makeup, nails and clothing, and that's just on pets. Seriou...
I live in Beverly Hills, California where looking good is the number one pastime. I can't imagine a place where more money is spent on hair, makeup, nails and clothing, and that's just on pets. Seriou...
 
 
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Wanjiru
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03:00 PM on 06/24/2010
"Our minds are put together in such a way that what we pay attention to, it pays attention to, positive or negative. If we focus on the positive, so does it. If we focus on the negative, so does it. The choice is fully ours."
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09:26 PM on 06/08/2010
Why is it so difficult to convince ourselves that there is nothing wrong with us? With me? Am I the only one who sees those jowls; or a less-than-shapely body? Why can't I look like HER? Happily, these are not questions that haunt me; but they sure as heck move through my mind like a train on a very known track of "Not good enough." Thank you for reminding us, Jan, that we do ourselves a big favor when we substitute positive affirmations such as is "I am growing more healthy everyday." (It sure beats "I'll never touch another cookie." ) A long time ago, you told me to look in a mirror (yes, the same one that mysteriously grew jowls in the past few years), and simply, "I love you." It's a lovely exercise. And so much less annoying than Botox. Your friend, Andrea
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Steven Barnes
Author, life coach, martial artist
11:32 AM on 06/07/2010
The odd paradox is that we must both love ourselves absolutely, and be capable of criticizing our behaviors and/or the way we manifest in the world. To hold both unquestioning love and severe evaluation is the challenge for adult human beings, and one that few of us manage. That balancing act has to begin within us, embracing the child within without letting her have every darned thing the kid
wants, or allowing her whining to control our adult decisions. There is a middle ground between total acceptance and demonization. Love is almost certainly the better place to start...but remember that our emotions can be like a beloved pet or child. Our hearts rebel against discipline, but needs it like roses need rain. There is nothing more horrific than a spoiled child who controls the home--in her heart, she knows she is in danger if her parents cannot control her. And so are we, without both deep love and strong clear vision: are our actions really in alignment with our deepest goals and values? If not, pain is appropriate. But always, always, there must be love.

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10:50 AM on 06/07/2010
Truth spoken Jan. There is power in acknowledging our presence and circumstances in the current moment. Learn to dance with those circumstances in those moments. No matter how difficult or even how good the moment it's not permanent. And yes, resisitance is futile. There are times one must stop holding on so tightly and just let go to be free. It's all about the art of mind-jujitsu.
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inthedesert
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10:00 PM on 06/06/2010
I think learning to love oneself is probably the most difficult thing to do. As someone who grew up as a troubled boy and a very dysfunctional adult, unable to achieve healthy, loving relationships with my partners, what I realized eventually was that I did not think very much of myself as a human being. And, I have my mother to thank for that. No Dad in the picture(he was killed when I was 6 months old).
I remember my mother saying to me that I would never amount to anything and was nothing but a "millstone" around her neck....LOL. Imagine what words like that would do to a young boy who had no clue to his "identity". Well, I fooled her....I became a Physical Therapist and spent 25 years helping others regain their lives....and she never ever told me how proud she was of me. LOL. Once you learn to love yourself though..you may find it's a lonely place...like the song says. Suddenly you see your worth as a human being and you just simply will not tolerate ANYONE who cannot see that also.
12:28 PM on 06/06/2010
It's not just the time and money put into keeping the vain "beautiful" but it's all the talk and articles written about the subject that get really tiring. We're battered with it daily.

While I think affirmations work for some people I think the best course to appreciating and respecting our bodies is by other means besides just talk. Personally, I'm fine with me but that's only because I know I'm always open for and unafraid of improvement. In other words, I do not feel trapped.

Good article. We all have our own route to confidence and security. Interesting to read yours. :)
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Jan Shepherd
11:45 AM on 06/07/2010
While I think affirmations work for some people I think the best course to appreciating and respecting our bodies is by other means besides just talk.

"Besides just talk" is what I want to address. I am including affirmations as positive focus which for me is followed by physical action. if I want to get healthy, I focus my thoughts on being healthy and also do those things necessary to get me there.

Thanks for sharing. Jan
11:31 AM on 06/06/2010
"The beauty of meaning." I like that. Great article.

Tuli Kupferberg:
When patterns are broken, new worlds emerge.
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Jan Shepherd
09:39 PM on 06/06/2010
Thank you Tuli.

I love your quote "When patterns are broken, new worlds emerge."
Hugs Jan
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YOGAmrit Yogi Dr Ajay
09:13 AM on 06/06/2010
Nice Article Jan ! Also see scientist's viewpoint .Most modern scientists see spirituality & scriptural statements with DOUBT, except a few, like Albert Einstein-
“The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who cans no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed.†By Albert Einstein
.Albert Einstein, was SPIRITUAL MAN ,so he discovered the mysterious.This happened to every inventor, poet, writer , scientist,who propounded any great deed but not all are like Albert Einstein, who knew , how his inner powers are to be utilized, using the SPIRITUALITY. YOGA , was a tool, developed by GREAT ANCIANT SCIENISTS, called “Rishis/Maharishis for it. Every scientist needs CONCENTRATION for his research work. How would you concentrate with out knowing the exact method of attaining CONCENTRATION? It is in spiritual scriptures of “ASTANG YOGAâ€.
As a scientist, don’t be trendy, apply your x, y method of science to realize GOD, if failed to realize, then go to a YOGI, make a belief in his “ METHOD OF YOGA “. If you don’t realize GOD, after applying the “ Method Of Yoga “,only then have a disbelief in GOD.Spirituality is not based on BELIEF/FAITH but the scientists have to follow & believe on " METHOD OF SPIRITUALITY" ,otherwise "Method Of Science" would be called " METHOD OF NON-SCIENCE".
01:59 AM on 06/06/2010
Hi Jan,
Fantastic work with your blogs. You are walking the walk, girl. You've gone through it and come out the other side and now you're really helping others, me included, and I'm sure helping yourself at the same time. Wonderful win-win all around.
much love to you always, Georgea
12:11 AM on 06/06/2010
Breathing heavy, I stopped to catch my breath in the doorway. I could hear their rushing feet coming. I was tired though, it seemed if I had been running for years. As I stood there gasping and wheezing, I recounted all the instances where I was made to run because some external source decided the pace, the track, the event, and all else concerned with what was supposed to be my personal journey in, through, and beyond life. As I remembered all the instances of jumping through fiery hoops and traversing the barbed wire high hurdles of another’s opinion…tracking me down, seeking to wear me down, a spirit came over me (call it a feeling). I decided I was done running. I decided that the external would never make me run again. I decided to look inward, and when I did, an unexplored, often ignored vastness was exposed…a seemingly endless structure of non-structure permitting action and inaction. It did not judge. Its ceilings were nonexistent. Its walls were made of love. I swam in the pools of imagination, and I saw the world on long vacations deep into the eternal essence of being, that which is way beyond hearing and seeing. I united with the all and learned the many lessons. I bowed and thanked the essence for the many blessings.

There I stood in that doorway, and time and space faded away. Footsteps grew quiet, as I began my diet of internal eternal stew, that self-rejuvenating brew.
11:04 AM on 06/06/2010
Wow!
12:17 PM on 06/06/2010
Yeah wackette, wow is one word for it. I always hesitate to put something out like this because I realize it is way off the beaten path. There is a message of self-determination/validation in the jumble of words. That was the simple point of the "wow" posting.

(Smile in loving acceptance of all)
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Jan Shepherd
09:48 PM on 06/06/2010
I'd like to post your last two lines on my face book and give credit to who wrote it. So either give me your name or e-mail it to me at Janshep@aol.com. It's beautiful and perfect for anyone dealing with eating disorders "There I stood in that doorway, and time and space faded away. Footsteps grew quiet, as I began my diet of internal eternal stew, that self-rejuvenating brew."

Blessings to you, Jan
07:06 AM on 06/07/2010
Signed – nobody important

If I were to disclose my name, I would have to tell so much more. I already know, those details are unimportant to anyone beyond those who need to know. I have my own internal Madison Avenue; I condemned the entire street and tore down any statues erected to the greatness of me, in the park of my mind, long ago. A rose by any other name is a rose, and so it is for the thorn, the black soil, the sun, the rain, it is all the same. Call me Tigger. Hooo-hooo-hoo-hoooooooooo! Call me a grain of sand on a very populated beach that came to know that all while being an insignificant grain of sand…he was also the universe by the potential, by the experience, by the realization, by the life, love, and death. I am what I am said Popeye. I cannot be what I am not. What I am not is interested in recognition. I was allowed a brief moment to pause and think. My time spent here is part of that moment. The words, the words have always flowed. Well written or not, well-informed or not, I engaged in contemplation from the earliest moments on, of some form or another. The words above were conceived by me. If they have value – that is good, that is all the reward necessary. It is this need for recognition that drives the external race -- to the bottom.

Loving humility
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Mastin Kipp
06:30 PM on 06/05/2010
I know first hand that Jan know's exactly what she's talking about is 10000% walks her talk! We are blessed by her wisdom and vulnerability!
06:14 PM on 06/05/2010
So much to like about this article, well done Jan. Do people who use those potions or injections really think they are fooling anyone ? Just in case you're not sure then let me tell you that you aren't. You can always tell and it's my opinion that all your doing is drawing attention to the fact that you're insecure about whatever you're trying to hide.

"There is nothing wrong with me "

If I had a dime for each time I told myself the opposite I'd be able to retire.

Thanks for the great insight and helpful tips Jan.
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Jan Shepherd
12:24 PM on 06/07/2010
"If I had a dime for each time I told myself the opposite I'd be able to retire."

Ah, your sign in name is "Fattax" is that a positive or negative thought? For me to use it, it would have to have a positive thought meaning. I would read it as I was in the top 1% of the earners in the USA and therefore was so abundant that I could pay fat taxes without any concerns. What is your meaning................more fun. Here is to your new self talk so you can retire on the positive self talk......hugs, Jan
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YOGAmrit Yogi Dr Ajay
12:32 PM on 06/05/2010
What a positive & inspirational blog of tremendous spiritual foundation ! Thanks Jan Shepherd for sharing the wisdom.OM.
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jeanneyogini
11:27 AM on 06/05/2010
Beautiful article! Thanks for sharing your personal journey in gaining awareness of your inner beauty. As a teacher of meditation, I often encounter women seeking to improve their self image by transcending the surface levels of the mind. Diving deep within during meditation allows one to contact inner Being—teaming with vibrant beauty and light. I agree with you that so much of our attention is geared toward the outer world, yet within is a sanctuary of bliss and expansion that is our true Self. A great sage once said "What you put your attention on, grows stronger in the mind."
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Nathaliefranks
10:07 AM on 06/05/2010
Hi Jan

Just read your post and I started laughing I knew an ex hairdresser in Beverly Hills who bought a mobile home and he changed it into a dog hair salon. He trimmed and washed all the dogs in Beverly hills and made a fortune.

Today I was sitting at the local cafe having coffee and it was like a fashion show at 10am in the morning it was fascinating viewing I heard remarks of envy, critiscm etc.

I sat back and observed and realised how far I had come not needing anymore the validation of the world to feel good. I have built a strong inner foundation knowing that I am more than meets the eye.

love to you. Nathalie