I wish I could start this with Once Upon a Time and create a happy ending, but unfortunately this is nowhere near a fairy tale and my story has not come to an end.
I am a mother, wife, artist, foodie, writer, animal lover, health advocate, candle maker, crafter, DIY expert and becoming a pretty good Frugal shopper. I also have Fibromyalgia which has progressively gotten worse and has left me unable to work for the last two months!
This has taken a toll on my emotions and my womanhood.
It has made me shed many tears and made me question a lot of things...
I have often sat here longing for the woman I was once, the energetic, creative woman who always had 10 projects on the go, worked full time, kept a clean organized home, made delicious home cooked meals, always had every hair in place and her makeup just so the woman who was super organized and capable of so many things! Like going to the gym five times a week and creating YouTube videos.
Now I am the woman who is lucky if she can make it out of bed, and even luckier if I manage to shower and get dressed (sometimes taking a shower drains me and I need to rest); and luckier yet if I manage to do some dishes and laundry (laundry actually causes me physical pain and I am thankful for my second hand dishwasher that I picked up off a local site).
That woman who had her make up and hair done is now the woman who can be found sporting the latest sweat pants/pajama pants, going au natural and hair in a messy bun.
Yep, I am ready for the runway!
I am the woman who often forgets things and does not have the energy or pain tolerance to do normal housework or make sure there is a healthy home cooked meal each and every night.
But you know what?
I am also that woman who remains positive that somewhere along the line things will get more manageable. I am the woman that has taken control of her health care and come to terms with the fact that I can't do everything I used to but realize I am still capable of so much!
I am the woman who has learned to let go, to let others help and to ignore (at least try) the uneducated commentary I sometimes get, or the "gossip" that I must be fine if I managed to go shopping in the city.
Little do they know that trip is out of necessity for my dietary needs and saving money and that it took two days for me to recover from it.
But before I get off topic and go into a rant about ignorance, let's continue shall we?
I am also the woman who has learned that I have a lot to say. Well, okay maybe I was always opinionated and had something to say but I realized something...
I am of value and I have so many good things to share with people , this is what led me to blogging.
People who deal with Chronic Pain and Chronic Fatigue often feel alone and that no one understands. Believe I went through this phase for years. The best support you can receive is often people who start off as complete strangers but happen to be going through the same things you are and often you create a little family of your own.
Blogging has really given me an outlet to express my feelings, share what I have learned or am trying. And somewhere I can also share other things of value.
You know the old saying. Everything happens for a reason. Well, I believe there is some truth to that.
You ever get the feeling that you were meant to do something?
That is how I feel about Blogging and is something that I haven't felt in a long time.
So join me on my journey, let me offer you a shoulder and be that place you go to for encouragement, support, ideas and a wealth of information!
Stay tuned for the next chapter!
