Artwork: Illumination, by Atousa Raissyan
Sound is an incredible healing tool. More so than other modalities I've tried over twenty years as a healer, it left me wondering what I don't know about the miracles of the human body and its capability for transformation.
Not unlike losing my sexual virginity, I left the room today dazed and slightly nauseous. I knew something had changed, but wasn't totally sure what.
One of the new sensations I experienced was the color of sound. I relaxed on the treatment table, receiving the different vibrations my compassionate helper was giving, and noticed my usual personal fireworks show behind my eyelids. This commonly happens when I get still and deeply relax. But this time it was different.
Closing my eyes, relaxing and really focusing on sensation instead of my chattery thoughts usually creates a limited variety of bright, blotchy moving colors. Greens, purples, and sometimes reds appear and draw my attention in. Today a golden yellow with hints of shiny metallic gold spiraling from the center appeared. Ooh, that's new, I thought.
You might be thinking, what drug is she on, after reading this. Many people I've asked about seeing colors respond with a shake of the head and an interested look. I chalk it all up to a fierce, loving practice of awareness. I'm open to what I feel...so I feel stuff.
Phil Tavolacci, a gifted healer, good friend and fellow John F. Barnes Myofascial Release practitioner guided me on a journey into my body today...with sound. I instantly recognized the opportunities I had for awareness and healing in the gifts I was being given in the form of vibration. As I melted into the different sounds I could feel them inside of me; buzzing in my whole body, an ache in my left ear, the sensation of deadness on my right side, and the amazing colors I was seeing.
The sounds were delivered several ways, including by instrument and voice. And at one point I think slapping/popping of the skin...although I have no idea because I was blindfolded. Yes, I fully trust this man and allowed myself to be blindfolded in an attempt to get the deepest version of audible awareness I could have. The lack of distractions was a relief and let me relax more.
The rain stick sound started up and I so wanted to laugh out loud. Even though Phil gave me permission to do that before we started the session, I wasn't able to. I was afraid it would make him feel bad. My inner critic stopped me and I recognized a lost opportunity in letting my inner healer take over and express herself. "Just let go!" I could hear her nudging me.
Isn't that the ultimate awareness; those moments we know we aren't being our true, wild selves, for fear of what others will think? What matters is how you move through that fear and release yourself to the power of your inner healer. To take the brakes off means you let your essence express itself. In that moment of expression is where healing energetically takes place.
Sitting up, moving off the table and getting ready to leave I had the thought, you'll want to pay attention to how you feel the rest of the day. I sat in my car with a slight feeling of nausea and a hot left side of my face and ear. I took a few deep breaths, giving myself permission to feel what was there. "How can I help you?" I said to myself.
Letting sound be my healer today opened up my world of healing possibilities even wider. With this new avenue of awareness I can take advantage of a deeper layer of resonance with the world. I allow it to be a portal into love, joy and healing and know I'm shining brighter today because of that.
What can you hear today? Close your eyes and take a journey into the center of your soul. Let the vibrations move you. Let yourself be curious. See what gifts you notice arrive as the sounds Feng Shui your cells and you begin to hear the whispers of your inner healer.
Join me in the comments and tell my your experiences with sound healing! I can't wait to hear!