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Reborn on the 4th of July

Posted: 07/04/2012 8:18 am

Today marks my sixth rebirthday. In 2006, I was baptized and became a Christian in Honolulu, Hawaii. One week later, I would be told that my actions, as an active duty soldier facing a second deployment to Iraq, aided the enemies of America and brought discredit to the non-commissioned officer corps of the United States Army. I begged to differ.

At the time, I had served for over five years and had spent over a year in combat in 2004 as an artillery forward observer. After coming home from war, my conscience matured and my faith began to crystallize. I came to discern that to be a Christian meant that I could not be directly responsible for killing the enemies Jesus called me to love. To be a soldier, however, meant that I was "an infantryman first." Where did God begin and country end? It is a question I still wrestle with, that Fourth of July and every one since.

Years later, trying to figure out what it was that transformed my life and worldview, I still don't have a clear cut answer. It wasn't the sloganeering or the yellow ribbons I saw; it wasn't the rallies or parades I watched; it wasn't the inspiring speeches and books I read. Mine was not a conversion of politics or "beliefs," it was, simply, God. God came into my life because I allowed it to happen. I had no choice but to respond to the call of discipleship; to pick up my cross, I had to put down my rifle.

But that call was not to turn my back on those I respected, to part company with the men and women I served alongside. To this day, I still have incredible respect for service members. In fact, I asked explicitly to return to combat with them, albeit without a firearm. I found, like innumerable soldier saints before me, that as a Christian, "it is impermissible for me to fight." My commander felt that embracing my enemies, instead of eviscerating them, was tantamount to sedition. I still feel differently.

By all accounts, I should have been devastated; I had carefully groomed my reputation as a noncommissioned officer and an expert at military fire support. Why had my identity not crumbled amidst all the criticism? The only answer I can give is that quite literally I had been assigned a new Commander, a new framework within which to excel. As a Christian, my new pursuits would be love, joy, peace, kindness, humility and patience.

Some traits I had already learned from my military formation: goodness, forbearance, courage and self-control. I could not deny that the military cultivated in me in these fruits; to throw the baby out with the bathwater would be foolishness. Though the military can be a place of vice, it certainly trains in the virtues in a way the Church sometimes lacks.

To be reborn on the fourth of July is not just a curious anecdote, it is a model for faith. The national holiday calls Christians to ask, with other Americans; "Who are our founding fathers?" We cannot deny that we share in the heritage of Hancock, Jefferson, Madison and Franklin. But we also must not deny that our founders include apostles like Matthew, Mark, Luke, John and Paul. How does our citizenship compliment our faith, and how might they at times contradict one another? Who indeed are our founding fathers (and mothers)?

I was able to leave my commanders office with a smile on my face instead of a weight on my shoulders because I had found a new band of brothers (and sisters) to call ultimately my own. I still share with my uniformed brothers and sisters the formidable heritage we all celebrate today, but also a unique kind of burden.

Today, like every other day, 18 veterans like myself will end their own life. According to a recent Pentagon study, at least one actively serving military personnel will do the same. In 2009 and 2010, well before any drawdown in troop-strength, there were more soldier suicides than there were combat fatalities in the entire Global War on Terrorism those years. More soldiers are falling upon their own swords than are falling to the sword. This is not a trend, it is an epidemic. Silence is not an option, it is a betrayal.

When America stands gazing upon it's soldiers and veterans in parades and ceremonies today, some will look with adoration and see heroes, and they might be right, as heroism certainly occurs in war. Others may look with scorn and see monsters, and they too might be right, as atrocities certainly occur in war. Those who look at our nation's service members and see fellow human beings, capable of good and evil just like everyone else, they will certainly be right.

If our founding fathers include Thomas Jefferson as well as St. John, St. Matthew as well as James Madison, then we might celebrate with the rest of the country today, but we will also mourn. Two hundred thirty-six years doesn't change the stark reality of war. As Christians, as Americans (reluctant or enthusiastic), we must not look past the human beings that, for the longest war in our nation's history, have been both venerated and villainized. We must see in them our neighbor, who we are called to love as we do ourselves, as we do God. Love requires attention. Love requires a response. What will yours be?

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Today marks my sixth rebirthday. In 2006, I was baptized and became a Christian in Honolulu, Hawaii. One week later, I would be told that my actions, as an active duty soldier facing a second deployme...
Today marks my sixth rebirthday. In 2006, I was baptized and became a Christian in Honolulu, Hawaii. One week later, I would be told that my actions, as an active duty soldier facing a second deployme...
 
 
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08:13 AM on 07/13/2012
I am an atheist and a veteran of multiple tours in Iraq and Afghanistan and I find this fascinating. I am wrestling with many of the same issues as the Mr. Mehk-Laituri and it is always intriguing to me how when completely different frameworks for viewing reality lead to similar conclusions. And then how they can part so radically from those points of agreement. I don't really have a further point at the moment as it's a thought that is currently very embryonic.
11:54 AM on 07/12/2012
This country is founded by men, and does not include St John, St Mathew, etc. even though stated by anyone, from their own religious perspective, it is not a national fact.
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donp700
Conservative Republican in liberal California...
04:28 AM on 07/09/2012
Atheists, he isn't hurting anyone. If you disagree with him/us, then that's fine, but try not to say anything on the internet that you wouldn't say in our faces.
IndependentBurgeoise
Belief in a cruel god makes a cruel man.
11:59 PM on 07/07/2012
I would just like to add that Thomas Jefferson was not a Christian and despised Christianity. He identified as a unitarian, although some of his writings hint he could have believed in or taken in opinions from other philosophies. In particular he railed against priests as preying upon the naivety of the public, and in general had a strong suspicion towards the catholic church(for good reason, given the time period he was in and the way the church used to act). Madison is also suspected to be a deist who had strong christian leanings. Just the pitch in of a deist.
Overall, this was a great article. While I disagree with some things you wrote, you have my respect and you should have the respect of everyone living in America for your service to this country, and for the sacrifices and dangers you've undertaken in order to protect my liberty to not only speak freely, but also believe freely in what I want, among many more freedoms. Peace.
08:58 AM on 07/11/2012
Ironically, these people who formed the American constitution and said that men were created equal did not include their slaves. Thomas Jefferson himself had slaves and had four children from a slave woman too.
11:59 AM on 07/12/2012
Embrace the idea that a real man with conflicting segments of his own life may not be dismissed for everything that he has contributed to the formation of the system where we all live and cherish.
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bob riversmith
Unregulated capitalism is organized crime.
12:10 PM on 07/05/2012
Interesting how similar experiences produce contradictory conclusions - they say there are no atheists in foxholes ... but I became an atheist while in a foxhole.
10:29 AM on 07/05/2012
A beautiful article, straight from the heart. Thank you and all the soldiers who have given their all for their country.
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12:06 AM on 07/05/2012
Pretty much all the Americans that died in all the wars this country has fought have been Christians, just due to the fact that Christianity has been the dominant religion since this country was founded. Over 600,000 Americans fought and died in the Civil War. The generals and officers and Presidents that sent these men, and their brethren in World War I, and II to their deaths were Christians. Christianity has been a prime factor in people going to war against others since it was created. So, rail against war all you want, but don't use Christianity to defend yourself. Christians have a brutal past that is nothing to be proud of.
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LittleFish31617
God shall be all in all.
04:09 PM on 07/05/2012
Funny how all wars - no matter the economic or social reasons - wind up getting blamed on Christians.

Which, of course, puts the cart right before the horse.

If men weren't evil and fallen, we wouldn't need Christ to redeem us.
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LintLass
"When you can balance a tackhammer on your head...
08:09 PM on 07/06/2012
Maybe you ought to work on yourselves before trying to impose that stuff on *others,* then?
08:59 AM on 07/11/2012
Dear, dear some people don't know the difference between fighting wars because of religion and fighting wars because of geopolitics.
06:57 PM on 07/04/2012
To all the critics citing a person's sharing their religious experience please be reminded that you are reading a blog in the RELIGION section. If you object to someone speaking on religion issues perhaps you should read something else.
This is only fair , it is not meant to be contentious,after all the writer is not "preachy', he is sharing his experience. PEACE
10:02 AM on 07/05/2012
Nicely said thank you. Peace
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bob riversmith
Unregulated capitalism is organized crime.
12:12 PM on 07/05/2012
It would be a lot easier to create a peaceful world - if only we could get people to quit believing in absurdities.
02:50 PM on 07/04/2012
You're happy that you've been "reborn". I get it.

But why can't you just keep it to yourself? For all the flack we gays get about shoving our "lifestyle" into other peoples faces I can cite 10 examples of over-enthusiastic "christians"shoving their "lifestyle" into mine.

Being gay isn't a choice. Religion certainly is.

So keep it to yourself.
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CMB1969
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05:09 PM on 07/04/2012
I don't see anything in the article discussing sexual identity. The article was dealing with pacifism & military service--believe it or not, but sexuality is not the only concern that people use spirituality and/or religion to address. Anyway, if you positively don't want to hear about someone's religious experience, it would probably be advisable not to go into the 'Religion' section & click on a blog post with the word "reborn" prominently displayed in the title.
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LintLass
"When you can balance a tackhammer on your head...
08:20 PM on 07/06/2012
He's drawing a comparison between how Christians run around 'witnessing' while demanding people they don't like hide even the *fact* we may be partnered, for instance.
10:31 AM on 07/05/2012
How odd, you are reading this on a religion section right? You'll probably find people discussing their religion here. You might want to either deal with it or read something else if it offends you.
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Sjoerd W
Always look for common ground.
02:48 PM on 07/04/2012
Oh dear... I was completely with you until about half-way. I think it is wonderful you have found a positive and constructive solution to the conflict between your new beliefs and your.. worldly career shall we say? Your message of the 'evils of war' and embracing the enemy instead of killing him is admirable.

But again here is someone trying to claim Christianity is the driving force behind an entire nation, that American equates to Christian, and that 'we' must all consider the Evangelists like St. Matthew and St. John to be 'our' founding fathers as well.

Keep your faith to yourself, and don't impose Christianity on a nation. That's all I ask.
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Logan Mehl-Laituri
12:29 AM on 07/05/2012
I don't see how you took from what was written that I am "trying to claim Christianity is the driving force behind an entire nation..." In fact, I hope that it is not. Glad I could clarify that a bit.
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Sjoerd W
Always look for common ground.
08:58 AM on 07/05/2012
Apologies then, perhaps it was some unfortunate wording or a bad interpretation on my part. Here are the passages that sparked my little rant:

"We cannot deny that we share in the heritage of Hancock, Jefferson, Madison and Franklin. But we also must not deny that our founders include apostles like Matthew, Mark, Luke, John and Paul. "
"As Christians, as Americans (reluctant or enthusiastic), we must not look past the human beings that, for the longest war in our nation's history, have been both venerated and villainized."

But upon closer reading I see how the context changes them. Because your wording was very similar to the words of those that do what I accused you of, I must have given a knee-jerk reaction. 

While I got your attention though, may I ask if you are involved in some direct action to help these veterans? Like I said, I agreed with the rest of the message, so perhaps I could contribute. 

Also, just as an suggestion, if you plan to write more articles like this, perhaps one featuring the problems women or homosexuals face in the military (from your point of view) would be a nice idea?
09:36 AM on 07/04/2012
It should be pointed out that biblical religion conflicts with the Declaration of Independence:

The Declaration is intended to justify revolution against the established royal government. The Bible, however, says "the powers that be are ordained of God" (Romans 13:1-7), and "For kings, and for all that are in authority" (I Timothy 2:2), thus giving rise to the idea of divine right of kings. There is no mention of "consent of the governed" in the Bible, as the Declaration demands. While the Declaration deplores taxation without representation, Jesus says, regarding taxation, "Render therefore unto Caesar the things which are Caesar's" (Matthew 22:21)

  Also, I can't find any biblical justification for the statement that men are "endowed by their Creator with certain inalienable rights...."

   I prefer the Declaration to the Bible.
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Dr Idris
polymathy is not understanding
12:49 PM on 07/04/2012
"Declaration" exactly-it is a Natural "Creator" and not Biblical-Jefferson actually only referred to Nature in the first draft, adding "Creator" in the second-with no change in meaning. These people who say rights come from God and mean the God of the Bible are straight out wrong. Natural rights are axiomatic and inherent. Nature is of course also conceived, 18th century style, as a moral as well as a physical order. And you are right that this should be pointed out, loud and clear!
11:08 AM on 07/05/2012
Look in Leviticus Laws and in all Christ sayings one will find  inalienable rights. Written also will Caesar not render  in the end, will be judged also now, will be held accountable also,  unto God what is Gods also? For God says the earth is my Footstool. God said. On the terrible day of My wrath I Am coming to gather All Leaders of All Nations on the day of My Wrath. Do not all Leaders, All Kings have a master, they too are subject too serve? All Leaders Kings, they too will render unto,  be held accountable, answer to, what belongs to God, will they not render  unto to God what is God's now?. I ponder when Christ said this for a reason, Render unto Caesar what is Caesar, Christ fully  knowing in the end, all will render unto God what is God? God said. Let your gold and silver save you now. For the gold and silver is mine?  The inalienable rights is correct and  in asking was it not written, told, We are all aliens living as tenants on land not our own in Moses?. Why God gave the protection,  Laws of the aliens to be obeyed, with God there are no illegals are there? Were all aliens and all have the freedom and alien right to go and find work in order to provide for ones family, just like in the days of Christ? The earth is My Footstool we are all aliens living as tenants on land not our own. And if God the richest of all, the earth is His footstool, shares all with us, why do we not share all with others also? Leviticus Laws speaks of alienable rights to be obeyed do they not? Rather  in asking, does the Declaration instead,  conflict with God, His Laws if one is a believer? And if one is a believer God judges us not by man made laws, but by God's Laws of Righteousness, does He not? Cannot serve 2 masters? Ten Commandments are they not God's Government Laws that Righteously Distributes, Equality Rights, Freedom and Protection for all,  if we all obey the simple Ten Commandments, would there not be True Peace on Earth?  For Peace will only be found where Righteousness Lives.Christ said Follow Me I Am the Way, to Peace.
01:50 PM on 07/05/2012
Please give clear references to WHERE in Leviticus and in Jesus' sayings we will find inalienable rights.