If you feel alone, empty, anxious, depressed, hurt, angry, jealous, sad, fearful, guilty or shamed, you are abandoning yourself. In this article, discover the ways you might be abandoning yourself.
The Encarta® World English Dictionary defines "abandon" as: "to leave somebody or something behind for others to look after, especially somebody or something meant to be a personal responsibility."
As adults, our own well-being is our personal responsibility. Do you abandon yourself, making others responsible for you, and then feel abandoned by others when they leave you or don't take responsibility for you?
As an adult, another person cannot abandon you, since they are not responsible for you. We can abandon a child, an ill person or an old person -- someone who cannot take care of themselves. But if you are a physically healthy adult you can be left, but you cannot be abandoned by others. Only you can abandon you.
What are the ways you might be abandoning yourself?
How often do you judge yourself with comments such as:
"You are not good enough."
"You are inadequate."
"You are stupid."
"You are an idiot."
"You are ugly."
"You are not attractive enough."
"If you fail, you are not okay."
"If someone rejects you, you are not okay."
"It's all your fault that ... "
"You will never amount to anything. You are a failure. You are not reaching your potential."
... and so on.
Just as a small child feels alone and abandoned when a parent is harsh and judgmental, so our own inner child feels alone and abandoned when we judge ourselves. Self-judgment not only creates inner feelings of aloneness and emptiness, but it also creates feelings of anxiety, depression, anger, hurt, fear, guilt and shame. What do you do when you have judged yourself and created all these painful feelings?
Ignoring Your Feelings
When you feel alone, empty, anxious, depressed, hurt, angry, jealous, sad, fearful, guilty or shamed, what do you do? Do you attend to your feelings, exploring what you are telling yourself or doing to cause them? Or do you avoid them with some form of addictive behavior, using food, alcohol, drugs, nicotine, TV, work, shopping, Internet, sex, anger, blame and so on to avoid them?
When you ignore your feelings and instead turn to addictive behavior, you are again abandoning yourself. Once you have abandoned yourself, it is very common to project this self-abandonment onto others and feel abandoned by people or by God. Yet, as a physically healthy adult, the feeling of abandonment is being caused by you, just as most of your other painful feelings are being caused by you.
Making Others Responsible for You
Once you judge yourself and then ignore the pain you have caused, it is quite likely that you turn to others for the love and approval that you are not giving to yourself. Your inner child -- the feeling part of you -- needs love, approval and attention. When you abandon yourself with self-judgment and ignore your feelings, the wounded child part of you turns to others for the love you need. Because the child part of you is desperately needy for love, you are likely to become manipulative to get that love -- becoming angry and blaming or, conversely, being overly nice or compliant and trying to do everything right. You have handed your inner child away to others for adoption, hoping another person will give you the love you so desperately need. You become addicted to approval, attention and/or sex.
The more you make others responsible for giving you the love, attention and approval you need, the more your inner child feels abandoned, leading to more addictive behavior to fill the emptiness and avoid the pain of your self-abandonment.
The way out of this is to start paying attention to your feelings -- putting your attention inside of your body instead of always focusing outside. The moment you feel badly, notice what you are thinking or doing that is causing your pain. The painful feelings that come from your thoughts are your inner guidance system's way of letting you know that what you are thinking is not true, that it is not in your highest good.
Ask the highest part of yourself, "What is the truth?" Notice how you feel when you attend to your feelings and tell yourself the truth, rather than judge yourself, ignore yourself and make others responsible for your feelings.
More:Healthy Living Health News Self-abandonment Abandoning Others Abandoning Yourself Consciousness
HuffPost Lifestyle is a daily newsletter that will make you happier and healthier — one email at a time. Learn more