Although I've always had an open dialogue with my kids about alcohol and drugs I've also known that my behavior would have a more lasting effect than my words. When my daughter and son learned in third grade social studies that alcohol was an addictive drug I found myself in the uncomfortable position of trying to explain why I often drank more than I should.
Sobriety has given me everything that alcohol took away from me. I have a great job, which I show up to. I am finally finishing college (better late than never) and pursuing a degree that I am passionate about. I learned to love myself, which has made me capable of loving someone else the way a human being actually deserves to be loved because I had that all wrong in the past.
I've lost the false sense of ease and naivety that led me to believe that every person I met should be my friend and would have my best interest at heart, because that's just not true. Relearning how to communicate, how to engage in supportive relationships and be there for my friends and loved ones hasn't been easy, but it sure beats believing I'm besties with my drug dealer.