Many are unaware of how many people tend to share the same thoughts and insecurities that come with awkwardness. Awkward people fear of being seen as "strange" but often don't realize that we are all a bit of strange.
I'm sorry if you're doing soul-deadening work that drains you, day after day. It's hard for me to watch your lifeless expression when your work feels like a grind. Sometimes, I want to cry knowing that your positive energy is being wasted.