Every day of a high-risk pregnancy feels like you're holding your breath, desperately hoping to make it to the next milestone. Hearing a heartbeat. Making it to the second trimester. Good news at your anatomy scan. Being on this roller-coaster can leave you feeling anxious and terrified every day.
You feel like it's all your fault. You feel like your body is failing. So that means you are failing. The reality is, a high-risk pregnancy can happen to anyone. At any time. You didn't do anything wrong. You didn't cause this and you certainly aren't failing.
From the moment I began to tell folks I was carrying a little person inside me, I've been dodging the question of gender/sex. And because I decided beforehand that I would not find out, I would seek out the most creative ways to sidestep the question.