Artistic directors, casting directors, directors, anyone involved with casting... we have to do better. We need to diversify. We need to start casting in a way that looks like the world that we live in. Casting predominantly white and male is antiquated. I will no longer change myself in any way for you.
You can just decide that beauty isn't important. And when you do, it's OK that some days you just cannot be positive. Some days you can just live in your body and give yourself space to be not ok at all. It's completely ok to look in the mirror and be sad that your stomach is a curtain for your pubic hair.
Relating to my body like a best friend changed everything. For so long, my mind was a loud, critical, bossy perfectionist who treated my body like a disobedient servant. My mind had to shift to seeing my body as an equal, a peer, a wise being with needs and longings and a tender language all its own.
I wish I could tell you what you want to hear: Just do this one simple thing and the weight will melt off of you! You'll look and feel great in everything! You'll be able to maintain this way of eating forever and you'll always feel fantastic! Your problems are over! I can't (and won't) tell you that