"Cocobai" is the creole word used in Haiti to label those with disabilities. It means "worthless." When a child is born with disabilities, the family believes they've been cursed by evil spirits, which is why most orphanages there are filled with special-needs children abandoned by families who fear being ostracized.
I know it's frustrating right now, but I promise you it won't always be that way. You will learn to claim disability as an important part of who you are. You will become a proud disabled woman, and a fierce advocate who wants to dedicate your life to changing the world for the better instead of running from it.