There's a huge emphasis placed on how we cope with stress, anxiety and mental health challenges in our lives. Everyone has a different way of determining the difference between release and reinforcement.
And thankfully, the ultrasound was fine. There was nothing to worry about after all. It's been an incredible lesson and the start of an amazing journey. I had a feeling it might resonate for you too. Does it?
Not one of the many specialists that I visited wanted to recognize that I was clearly struggling with an eating disorder. Eventually, when all else failed, I was diagnosed with "runners' hematuria" -- blood in the urine -- from running too many miles. "It happens to marathoners all the time," one doctor said dismissively. "It makes perfect sense."
For someone who has issues with food, the span between Halloween and Christmas is awesome and brutal for obvious reasons, but for an all-or-nothing type of gal like me, Halloween candy is the worst. And the best. And the worst.
I have healed. My jaw works, I can chew, and the pain is gone. Food has, once again, become a source of happiness, entertainment, and togetherness in my life. But I will never forget those early post-op weeks.
I'd say that around 70% of the hair-related pins I see in my feed are short, spiky, pixie-style cuts with comments like "Someday I'll work up the nerve" and "Love this look, but just can't pull it off." Short hair, wishful thinking.
When you don't betray yourself by running away, by eating your sorrows, and by drowning your pain in food, you allow space for healing. Your heart begins to mend, your soul begins to shine, and your smile returns.
Our minds are filled with the thoughts, beliefs and values of all the people who influence our lives. Having a strong sense of self comes from tuning out the voices of everyone else and listening to your own information, intuition, needs and desires.
Beauty is not fixed. We make the rules, and we can change them. Today, I'm posting my belly on the Internet for everyone to see.
Be patient with yourself. You don't have to be perfect -- even at this. You'll have good days and bad ones, triumphs and setbacks. It's part of the journey.
I bought my first scale when I was 21, just finishing college and going on my first diet. I bought my second scale, a digital one that was much more precise than the previous model, somewhere in my twenties, so I could know, in even greater detail, how much I was worth.
My body, that I hated so deeply before, built my daughter's body. That is nothing short of a miracle to me.
I've often wondered what that young, extremely insecure girl would think of the outspoken woman I've become. What would I tell her?
I just don't quite get what so many feminists and bloggers and all-purpose haters are so up in arms about. So Meghan says she isn't a feminist. Does a person have to be a feminist in order to write and sing about her perspective of body love?
My transformation has nothing to do with the scale. My transformation has to do with connection. I am connected to myself now. I know how to connect and support others. And now I'm so excited to share my story with other people. To help other people connect and not feel so alone.
Never in a million years did I imagine that the fear of being radically honest about my violent journey with body image and being courageous enough to take my shirt off outside the photo studio would birth an event that transformed the way we -- and I -- truthfully feel about body image.