I'd been living my life waiting for the right moment to get in the game. Thinking that somehow, some day, I'd magically know how to do things the right way and avoid all possible embarrassment or failure. Of course, I was wrong.
The world we live in today is open. Yet most people still have the same conversations with the same people and wonder why nothing changes. It is those who don't want to be like everyone else who are often misunderstood by a society where conformity is the norm.
Imagine a world where we respected our time as much as we did money. Time is so precious that every year we celebrate our birthdays with joy and love. And often, presents. But as we get older, there is a generation of people who are starting to value experiences more than gifts.
"Not to be all 'vulnerable'," we'd say with air quotes and then relay some vague truth about our lives or feelings. It was a tactic to avoid the messy emotions roiling beneath our skin, mostly asking, "Am I enough?"
If there's one thing that this apparent lack has taught me over and over again throughout the past year, it is simply this: Whether I recognize it or not, "enough" is already right here, in this very moment.
The social event at the center of this week's Hills episode was a 7-year-old's birthday party. These people are allowed to be around children? Spencer "I'm Insane" Pratt is allowed to be in the presence of kids?
The concept of enough-ness applied by each person to her or his own life is the key to our economic and spiritual recovery plan. Each of us gets to decide what's enough for ourselves -- and not for anyone else.