In a city where there are millions of people who can cross your path at any moment, I can't help but feel extremely lonely sometimes. To feel alone would be one thing, but to feel lonely holds a much different set of emotions. I yearn for the companionship of someone who likes me, and maybe even loves me.
In the third episode of Unzipped, you find the guys going a little deeper into their sex and dating lives. Watch as Zakh, Eric, Ronnie and the rest of the guys talk about the first time they ever fell in love and what it felt like to have their heart broken in HIV Equal Online's web series about sex, love and HIV.
Before I got cancer, I thought dating was hard. Then I turned 30, got sick, and quickly learned that dating with cancer is an entirely different game. For the first time in my life, I wasn't choosy. It's hard to be picky when you're dating with cancer; you're more focused on living and less focused on his third nipple.
I held it together in public, but I really wanted to cry at the beautiful moment I had just witnessed. But then it hit me; I had just judged someone. I had assumed that because this man fit a certain stereotype that he was instantly against equality, and there was no way that he could possibly approve of his son's sexuality.
Given how obsessed gay men are with gay sex, you'd think this category would be producing more titles than an automatic profile generator on Grindr, but it isn't. If you look at my list of the top 10 most popular gay-sex books on Amazon, you'll see that only one of the books was published in 2014. The rest go as far back as 1998! Take a look.
In the age of digital dating your online persona can make or break you. With as much as 70 percent of gay couples now meeting online, it's difficult to argue the importance of your online persona. Mountains of revealing personal information is available to any potential love interest with a just few simple keystrokes.
Our community is still struggling with how to communicate about HIV and how to treat those who are HIV positive. This is especially evident in the way we are accustomed to asking guys to disclose HIV status online, which has remained largely unchanged since the advent of profile-based websites over 20 years ago.
You are going to be rejected. It is true, and it is going to happen eventually. Someone is going to shut you down before they get to know you because you are living with HIV. It sucks, it isn't fair, and there is nothing that you can do about how they feel. But you can stop equating rejection with loss.